Tons

Haven't felt like this in a long while.
That motivation to train hard.
Like really hard.
It's the next day after the shoulder has injured but I can't seem to get my head around it.
This feels like Transend 2017 again.
When climbing seems to be the only thing revolving around my mind.
More than friends, families, school and more importantly my own well being.
This morning hurts so much.
I have tons of things to do but I can't seem to get any motivation to start on anything.
I realised I haven't been using the word hurt for some time.
But this time round it really hurts.
It hurts more than my LCL strain.
Because I just recovered from it and am so ready to train hard.
Looking back on all my climbing videos brought me to tears.
It signifies every single moment in my life.
The pain I've been through, the joy, the celebration.
All these emotions are rushing in just by looking at them / me.

The shoulder is being really weak now.
I tried doing a pull up but I just can't do it without pain / compensating with the other hand.
But like what you said, I need to keep this mental form up.
No point rustling through these pain just to inflict more pain on myself.
Easier said than done but I'll try my best.
I'll train the other parts of the body and hope it'll keep my mind off the pain.
Really really bummed.
It's only 2 more weeks to Philippines nationals.
I know I won't have enough time to recover by then, but I'll try.
I'll try so hard.

I hope.