Why?

That's a very good question.
Because I myself don't know why I'm feeling this way too.
And I'm finding out why.
But the method used to find out why has been a really bad method.
Because it kicks me back the next day and I will realise I'm back to the same question of "why?"
It's a cycle.

Just met Wilfred for lunch and he asked "What are your priorities now?"
And that sort of answer for myself why I'm feeling this way.
I have no priorities now.
I'm troubled to find out what are my priorities.
I know late nights won't be the solution as it won't solve anything.
But at the very least, it digs out some deep thoughts going through my mind for me to formulate and analyse what's happening to me and the things around me.

For now, at least I am still climbing.
It doesn't solve the issue but at least I can avoid it temporarily.
I guess my solution would be to sit down and spend some time to myself (without alcohol) and I guess things would work.
Let's hope.