School has been quite good.
Just that things they are teaching are getting harder.
So a little worried.
But not really of a concern cause I know if I study hard can catch the shit.
Im currently at the playground below my house just reflecting some things .
Really love to blog from here cause it's a really chill place to consolidate my thoughts.
More busy now ever since school started.
And I've been meeting people whom I've never met for sometimes.
One example would be zhi yang who I was once very close to 5 years ago.
And we were talking ytd saying how we know we will drift apart after 5 years and that we must find time to meet up no matter if we got our own lives.
So yesterday was really a good catch up session of a 5 years story.
And we kind of agreed that in this 5 years that seem to pass very fast, lots of shit has happened to us.
And it seems like the problems we are facing now are so different from 5 years ago.
As I stared into the night sky while lying on this red slide, kind of make me think about how happy I was as a child compared to now.
And when I think about it, society really worries everyone and it sucks.
Today was destins birthday party so went to his house just moments ago.
As I was playing with his nephew and nieces , it really hit me hard on realising that Im really less happy as I wish I would be.
I think my main issue is that Im less appreciative of things and Im demanding more of things/people.
I have this idealistic world in my head that I want and because of me not able to achieve it, I become upset.
But as Im writing this, I realised I shouldn't be that upset because I have alot of things that I am in possession of (like good friends and family) and I should appreciate it more.
I have a healthy body and I have 4 limbs which enable me to still climb.
Makes me think that I should stop being a kid and complain about all the things happening to and around me.
But sometimes, the idealistic world still appear in my head and I want to achieve it.
I want more but yet I also need to appreciate what I have now.
Ahhhh, complicated as fuck .
Whatever.
Im not emo btw , just a day that I feel deep.
Hahahaha good night guys
Just that things they are teaching are getting harder.
So a little worried.
But not really of a concern cause I know if I study hard can catch the shit.
Im currently at the playground below my house just reflecting some things .
Really love to blog from here cause it's a really chill place to consolidate my thoughts.
More busy now ever since school started.
And I've been meeting people whom I've never met for sometimes.
One example would be zhi yang who I was once very close to 5 years ago.
And we were talking ytd saying how we know we will drift apart after 5 years and that we must find time to meet up no matter if we got our own lives.
So yesterday was really a good catch up session of a 5 years story.
And we kind of agreed that in this 5 years that seem to pass very fast, lots of shit has happened to us.
And it seems like the problems we are facing now are so different from 5 years ago.
As I stared into the night sky while lying on this red slide, kind of make me think about how happy I was as a child compared to now.
And when I think about it, society really worries everyone and it sucks.
Today was destins birthday party so went to his house just moments ago.
As I was playing with his nephew and nieces , it really hit me hard on realising that Im really less happy as I wish I would be.
I think my main issue is that Im less appreciative of things and Im demanding more of things/people.
I have this idealistic world in my head that I want and because of me not able to achieve it, I become upset.
But as Im writing this, I realised I shouldn't be that upset because I have alot of things that I am in possession of (like good friends and family) and I should appreciate it more.
I have a healthy body and I have 4 limbs which enable me to still climb.
Makes me think that I should stop being a kid and complain about all the things happening to and around me.
But sometimes, the idealistic world still appear in my head and I want to achieve it.
I want more but yet I also need to appreciate what I have now.
Ahhhh, complicated as fuck .
Whatever.
Im not emo btw , just a day that I feel deep.
Hahahaha good night guys
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