24/08/2015

Born on 24/08/1994.
That makes me 21 bitches.
Happy birthday to me.
Yay.

3 more cycles of this 21 and I'm probably dead.
Ouch.
That feeling sucks.
Those who are reading this too.
3 more cycles guys.
HAHAHA.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Not going to blog my whole 21 years of shit life here.
Okay not shit life, AWESOME life.
CAN BE AWESOMER THO.
This post can either go emotional or normal.
I STILL CAN DECIDE.
HMMMM
Okay let's go to the emotional since the past few posts were normal.

This 20 turning to 21 period was really a tough one.
And I can foresee the coming years to be tough too.
Being an adult now kind of makes me think that I need to get my thoughts together.
And the reason why I'm saying that the coming years will be tough is really because I need to think of what I am going to do as I grow older.
Being happy is definitely the number one thing.
Or rather soul searching.
If I can find my soul by travelling, I'll definitely travel.
But it's starting to daunt on me that life just isn't about travelling.
I think that once I find my soul somewhere in this world, I will probably stop travelling.
Like the meaning of life.
Search for the meaning of life.
But still, every morning when I head to school, I hate the feeling.
Not the feeling of I'm so tired, need to wake up so early.
But the feeling of being same as everyone.
Not trying to be a hipster but don't you all feel it?
The feeling when you are walking together with the crowd in the same direction.
As if like you're just an ordinary person doing ordinary things.
Don't you wish you can just say "Fuck this shit, I'm done," turn the other direction and go do things you enjoy.
And the primary reason why everyone is walking in this direction is to fill your own wallet.
Be it going to school or to work, ultimately it's for your future.
But why are we chasing this kind of future?
Money makes the world go round?
True to a certain extent.
But why do we still have the two extremes of the rich and the poor.
Can't we just give money to the poorer?
Everyone has the same amount of money then everyone won't need to work?
That makes completely no sense.
Because if no one works, nothing is going to happen.
You won't have supermarkets, you won't have malls, you won't have buildings to live in.
Basically what I'm trying to say is that, yes money is still important.
But sometimes I think what do millionaires do with their money?
Do you really need such a big house or so many cars?
Do you really need that big amount of money to raise a family?
So what's all the extra money for?
Why are some people still after more money if they already got enough?
And to conclude, I'm troubled sometimes because I am still trying to define the word "enough".
So in this next phase of life, I really hope that I can find this answer or definition.
Be it through travelling or meeting some people who have exact thoughts as me.

Being 21 doesn't really make me feel like an adult.
I think the number don't matter anymore soon.
Okay maybe when it reaches 30 will be like ouch.
But yeah, I really liked the article that chin yue asked me to read about the 4 stages of life.
But to be honest, I really hope that I won't be working my ass off in the future.
I'm just scared to face this future.
Some of you probably hear me jokingly saying "I don't want to work".
Maybe ITS NOT A JOKE.
Nah it is.
Just don't want to end up a workaholic, complaining about my life and hating my job.
Losing my passion and losing my dreams due to work.

Oh well, on a lighter note, thanks to those who came down to my birthday celebration yesterday.
Really enjoyed everyone's company.
Today is the actual birthday.
But I totally did nothing hahaha.
Went to lecture hungover with breath smelling like smirnoff and vodka.
Then after school go home eat dinner.
After dinner go study at macdonalds.
WHAT A BIRTHDAY.
But I believe that today's energy was lent to yesterday's awesomeness.
HAHAHA.
Thanks to everyone who has wished me on instagram or through whatsapp.
Love you all.
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I MADE IT INTO NUS CLIMBING TEAM.
YAYYYYYYYYY.
Didn't expect myself to be so belated over this fact.
Because my expectations was "even if I don't get in I will also train hard and I will also still climb"
If I don't get in, it doesn't stop me from climbing or affect me in anyway.
BUT I GUESS I WAS WRONG.
I feel the need to train even harder now I'm in the team.
And I really wanna thank Dayna!!!!!
I will train hard so you won't lose face.
Hahahaha.
*inserts bicep emoticon*
Okay see you guys.

R21 LIAO
Oh wtf, I just realised I've been blogging since NC16 LIAO and M18 LIAO.
Old blog.
Old life.
Three more cycles.
Amen.
Nights.