But feels good cause it's this feeling that makes me feel like I've trained hard.
Should I still climb tomorrow????
Maybe go do some core pt.
Hahahaha.
Anyway trained with the team today again.
Only Monday will be the official training.
These two times are just the freshies joining in for exposure I guess.
Hahaha.
Anyway went to George's birthday today.
Caught up with a few OCS friends.
Good to see them.
Saw Dayna and Joshua Tan there too.
Didn't know Joshua was from TJC climbing.
Hahaha now he's in the team!
Okay I'm really very tired but here's a post for you all I guess.
More post tomorrow :)
Sunday, August 30, 2015
Saturday, August 29, 2015
TGIF
Thank God It's Friday.
It's really a rest to a hectic week.
Went to meet OC, Soo Hui and Jason.
The legit command team.
With me the only NSF.
Hahahaha.
Feels weird that they are always talking about army stuffs and I'm just there like hmm hmm.
But it was okay.
Like really.
Made me feel like I'm back into service again.
When they talk about Annual Combat Shoot (ACS), I realised I haven't touch a SAR21 for quite some time.
And talking about army all over again, makes me compare Army with Uni life all over again.
Uni life and Army life is SO DIFFERENT.
The kind of social life you engage in is totally different.
In army, you have superiors, you have subordinates and you have your peers.
And more importantly you have responsibility.
In addition, you have the authority and power of changing people.
But in Uni, everyone's just like leading their own life and mingling with people that you probably don't see their true colour unless you mingle with them long enough.
But in army, just one outfield and you know whether that person cares for you.
That's the difference that I'm still trying to get used to.
Because in Uni, everyone feels like they have a mask on.
And that this mask will probably be with them all the way until they graduate.
I know this is biased point of view since I'm just a freshie and school has only started for three weeks.
But my take away from this three weeks is what I've mentioned above.
Talking to OC just now on the cab sparked my thoughts of signing on again.
As I think back on my PC tour in 3 guards, it was really a very enjoyable one.
I miss my men.
Because they always gives me trouble and also makes me smile.
These are real emotions.
Smiles are real.
Everything is real.
So I think back on that time when I was smoking with Ming Kang at the HQ smoking corner.
He told me how he felt that uni friends are fun but not real.
It's so true now come to think about it.
And I remember him saying that he would feel honoured if 4 years down the road, I still remember the moment when we were talking at the smoking corner.
Things are moving in such a fast pace now as compared to when I'm back in army.
3 weeks felt like 3 months in army.
Time pass so quickly.
In a blink of an eye, the next week will be the one month I've been in NUS.
So far, I guess things are okay.
NUS Climbing Team has proven to be the only group of friends that I'll hang out with.
But in time to come, I feel like I'm going to be attached to NUS Climbing Team.
Hopefully this will maintain.
Because I feel like I need a sense of belonging somewhere if not I'm just going to be a loner.
Anyway all these words that I've just typed are under the effects of alcohol.
So ya, just filter our whatever you don't feel like reading.
Filter our whatever that you feel like it's just me typing drunk words.
But in all honesty, I'm always very glad to meet up with my 1.1, 1.2, and 1.9.
They have been a constant inspiration for me.
Partly cause all of them are so much elder than me.
Soo Hui and Jason born in 1989 while my OC is born in 1985 hahaha.
Feels good to meet up and I hope we'll meet up real soon.
LANTERN FESTIVAL!.
<3 p="">Thanks OC for paying for the cab!
And for the small talks we had in the cab.
See you all readers!
It's really a rest to a hectic week.
Went to meet OC, Soo Hui and Jason.
The legit command team.
With me the only NSF.
Hahahaha.
Feels weird that they are always talking about army stuffs and I'm just there like hmm hmm.
But it was okay.
Like really.
Made me feel like I'm back into service again.
When they talk about Annual Combat Shoot (ACS), I realised I haven't touch a SAR21 for quite some time.
And talking about army all over again, makes me compare Army with Uni life all over again.
Uni life and Army life is SO DIFFERENT.
The kind of social life you engage in is totally different.
In army, you have superiors, you have subordinates and you have your peers.
And more importantly you have responsibility.
In addition, you have the authority and power of changing people.
But in Uni, everyone's just like leading their own life and mingling with people that you probably don't see their true colour unless you mingle with them long enough.
But in army, just one outfield and you know whether that person cares for you.
That's the difference that I'm still trying to get used to.
Because in Uni, everyone feels like they have a mask on.
And that this mask will probably be with them all the way until they graduate.
I know this is biased point of view since I'm just a freshie and school has only started for three weeks.
But my take away from this three weeks is what I've mentioned above.
Talking to OC just now on the cab sparked my thoughts of signing on again.
As I think back on my PC tour in 3 guards, it was really a very enjoyable one.
I miss my men.
Because they always gives me trouble and also makes me smile.
These are real emotions.
Smiles are real.
Everything is real.
So I think back on that time when I was smoking with Ming Kang at the HQ smoking corner.
He told me how he felt that uni friends are fun but not real.
It's so true now come to think about it.
And I remember him saying that he would feel honoured if 4 years down the road, I still remember the moment when we were talking at the smoking corner.
Things are moving in such a fast pace now as compared to when I'm back in army.
3 weeks felt like 3 months in army.
Time pass so quickly.
In a blink of an eye, the next week will be the one month I've been in NUS.
So far, I guess things are okay.
NUS Climbing Team has proven to be the only group of friends that I'll hang out with.
But in time to come, I feel like I'm going to be attached to NUS Climbing Team.
Hopefully this will maintain.
Because I feel like I need a sense of belonging somewhere if not I'm just going to be a loner.
Anyway all these words that I've just typed are under the effects of alcohol.
So ya, just filter our whatever you don't feel like reading.
Filter our whatever that you feel like it's just me typing drunk words.
But in all honesty, I'm always very glad to meet up with my 1.1, 1.2, and 1.9.
They have been a constant inspiration for me.
Partly cause all of them are so much elder than me.
Soo Hui and Jason born in 1989 while my OC is born in 1985 hahaha.
Feels good to meet up and I hope we'll meet up real soon.
LANTERN FESTIVAL!.
<3 p="">Thanks OC for paying for the cab!
And for the small talks we had in the cab.
See you all readers!
Thursday, August 27, 2015
First training with NUS team
So many routes.
So little time to rest.
This is some legit power endurance training.
Feels good after climbing because I can top routes.
During dinner just now, it's actually the first time I mingle with a group of people.
And wow, didn't expect Dayna and Alicia to not go for any camps like me.
I thought I was the only one in school that is like that.
Quite a nice feeling to know some people that's the same.
So after eating dinner, Ferran sent me and Dayna home.
Cause of dayna's leg and cause I happen to stay near Dayna.
So free ride home!
The first day wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
And I feel that NUS climbing team will be the only group of people I will be close with.
As in for now la.
Who knows maybe a few sessions down the road I'll be an awkward duck.
Hahahaha but for now, it's great and I'm really looking forward to the year end rock trip.
TRAVEL.
NAISE.
Okay shall head home and do my assignment.
Tomorrow will be a mugging day again.
Woooo.
What a different post from the previous one.
Hahaha.
Alright thanks for reading!
Nightsssss
So little time to rest.
This is some legit power endurance training.
Feels good after climbing because I can top routes.
During dinner just now, it's actually the first time I mingle with a group of people.
And wow, didn't expect Dayna and Alicia to not go for any camps like me.
I thought I was the only one in school that is like that.
Quite a nice feeling to know some people that's the same.
So after eating dinner, Ferran sent me and Dayna home.
Cause of dayna's leg and cause I happen to stay near Dayna.
So free ride home!
The first day wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
And I feel that NUS climbing team will be the only group of people I will be close with.
As in for now la.
Who knows maybe a few sessions down the road I'll be an awkward duck.
Hahahaha but for now, it's great and I'm really looking forward to the year end rock trip.
TRAVEL.
NAISE.
Okay shall head home and do my assignment.
Tomorrow will be a mugging day again.
Woooo.
What a different post from the previous one.
Hahaha.
Alright thanks for reading!
Nightsssss
Independent vs Alone
The number of people I can hang out with in NUS can be counted with my one hand.
Feels really weird to be in this situation.
Somehow I feel like everyone's busy with something while I'm just like hobo-ing around with nothing to do.
Weekdays starting to suck because the only thing to look forward to is the end of school.
Waaaaa shag .
Whenever I'm working I can't wait for school to start.
And now school has officially started, it feels weird.
But I do feel a little more at ease when I'm alone right now.
Yes, right now as I'm typing this.
Is like charging my body.
Hahahaha.
Feels really weird to be in this situation.
Somehow I feel like everyone's busy with something while I'm just like hobo-ing around with nothing to do.
Weekdays starting to suck because the only thing to look forward to is the end of school.
Waaaaa shag .
Whenever I'm working I can't wait for school to start.
And now school has officially started, it feels weird.
But I do feel a little more at ease when I'm alone right now.
Yes, right now as I'm typing this.
Is like charging my body.
Hahahaha.
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Just when I post the previous post
http://www.buzzfeed.com/andyneuenschwander/these-hilarious-comics-are-too-real-for-socially-awkward-peo#.ucYl6wWJK
As an introvert
sometimes, I find it very hard to find good friends.
Because I don't feel the need to know more people sometimes.
But recently I felt that it's good to have connections here and there.
So sometimes I'm like "Okay, I need to make some friends."
And end up in an awkward short friendship which is one sided.
It's really not easy for an introvert to make friend.
Or if you want to make it sound nastier, a socially awkward person.
Hahaha.
Some introverts are deeper than you think you are.
Being friend with one can be very special.
I mean, for example, introverts are generally better listeners than extroverts.
Because thoughts are going through their mind almost all the times.
And they are able to analyse and consolidate thoughts better than others.
And this is probably why when you tell an introvert your problems, he/she would understand more and.
I know I may sound like I'm trying to advertise myself as an introvert, but I'm just thinking, how many of you would actually try to understand what's going through an introvert's mind.
When I see an introvert, I know he/she is an introvert.
Because he/she acts like me.
As much as sometimes I want more introverted friends, because of the fact that we have common characters, I feel that it's hard for introverts to click.
And I guess this is why most of my friends are extroverts.
This kind of makes sense now hahaha.
Anyway, I don't know whether I've said it before BUT I've made it into the NUS CLIMBING TEAM!
Woooo.
A team of 48 guys / girls.
And there would be a climbing camp soon.
And a rock trip that will be at the end of the year.
I'm really looking forward to training with the team.
With Hilman as my official coach now.
Feels so weird HAHA.
He sat in today's briefing and seeing him give a speech to us feels quite funny.
School has been fine.
But I'm starting to feel the feeling of mundane and tiring.
But hopefully things go well.
A little stress now probably cause I haven't gotten used to how there are tutorials and labs and assignments and this thing called IVLE to find your own stuff inside.
And how uni life is so much about self-learning instead of looking for tutors for help.
Very very different.
Hopefully this stress will die down soon as I get used to it.
Thinking back on my holidays, it was so carefree.
So carefree that I think so much.
But right now, so busy that I don't even have time to think about things.
Hahaha.
Dk what I'm thinking now tho.
Like nothing to look forward to.
Feels all like JC all over again.
The thing to look forward to is climbing.
But I will stay STRONG.
CAUSE GCC NEVER ENDS.
ALWAYS READY
READY TO STRIKE.
Lol....
Because I don't feel the need to know more people sometimes.
But recently I felt that it's good to have connections here and there.
So sometimes I'm like "Okay, I need to make some friends."
And end up in an awkward short friendship which is one sided.
It's really not easy for an introvert to make friend.
Or if you want to make it sound nastier, a socially awkward person.
Hahaha.
Some introverts are deeper than you think you are.
Being friend with one can be very special.
I mean, for example, introverts are generally better listeners than extroverts.
Because thoughts are going through their mind almost all the times.
And they are able to analyse and consolidate thoughts better than others.
And this is probably why when you tell an introvert your problems, he/she would understand more and.
I know I may sound like I'm trying to advertise myself as an introvert, but I'm just thinking, how many of you would actually try to understand what's going through an introvert's mind.
When I see an introvert, I know he/she is an introvert.
Because he/she acts like me.
As much as sometimes I want more introverted friends, because of the fact that we have common characters, I feel that it's hard for introverts to click.
And I guess this is why most of my friends are extroverts.
This kind of makes sense now hahaha.
Anyway, I don't know whether I've said it before BUT I've made it into the NUS CLIMBING TEAM!
Woooo.
A team of 48 guys / girls.
And there would be a climbing camp soon.
And a rock trip that will be at the end of the year.
I'm really looking forward to training with the team.
With Hilman as my official coach now.
Feels so weird HAHA.
He sat in today's briefing and seeing him give a speech to us feels quite funny.
School has been fine.
But I'm starting to feel the feeling of mundane and tiring.
But hopefully things go well.
A little stress now probably cause I haven't gotten used to how there are tutorials and labs and assignments and this thing called IVLE to find your own stuff inside.
And how uni life is so much about self-learning instead of looking for tutors for help.
Very very different.
Hopefully this stress will die down soon as I get used to it.
Thinking back on my holidays, it was so carefree.
So carefree that I think so much.
But right now, so busy that I don't even have time to think about things.
Hahaha.
Dk what I'm thinking now tho.
Like nothing to look forward to.
Feels all like JC all over again.
The thing to look forward to is climbing.
But I will stay STRONG.
CAUSE GCC NEVER ENDS.
ALWAYS READY
READY TO STRIKE.
Lol....
Tuesday, August 25, 2015
Bad climbing day
So much for training hard once I get into the team.
Today performance was way off than expected.
I really hope that I will get stronger.
But hoping isn't the word to use.
Managing school with climbing is going to be a main problem now.
How much stronger depends on how hard I want to train and how hard I want to train somehow depends on school work too.
But in another point of view, Im affected by my own performance means I still have that passion in me to climb.
And Im glad I found it back after Army.
But needless to say, motivation is a big issue now and I really hope that by joining the team I will get that motivation yet at the same time still keep that passion growing in me.
Because somehow getting stronger and growing passion is two different spectrums.
Unless, I manage to find that equilibrium soon.
This equilibrium will allow me to get stronger and definitely enjoy my climbing sessions.
Till I find that motivation to train hard, studies are in the game too.
It's not going to be easy I can foresee.
But we will see how it goes.
:)
So pessimistic weepin .
Hahaha
Today performance was way off than expected.
I really hope that I will get stronger.
But hoping isn't the word to use.
Managing school with climbing is going to be a main problem now.
How much stronger depends on how hard I want to train and how hard I want to train somehow depends on school work too.
But in another point of view, Im affected by my own performance means I still have that passion in me to climb.
And Im glad I found it back after Army.
But needless to say, motivation is a big issue now and I really hope that by joining the team I will get that motivation yet at the same time still keep that passion growing in me.
Because somehow getting stronger and growing passion is two different spectrums.
Unless, I manage to find that equilibrium soon.
This equilibrium will allow me to get stronger and definitely enjoy my climbing sessions.
Till I find that motivation to train hard, studies are in the game too.
It's not going to be easy I can foresee.
But we will see how it goes.
:)
So pessimistic weepin .
Hahaha
24/08/2015
Born on 24/08/1994.
That makes me 21 bitches.
Happy birthday to me.
Yay.
3 more cycles of this 21 and I'm probably dead.
Ouch.
That feeling sucks.
Those who are reading this too.
3 more cycles guys.
HAHAHA.
Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Not going to blog my whole 21 years of shit life here.
Okay not shit life, AWESOME life.
CAN BE AWESOMER THO.
This post can either go emotional or normal.
I STILL CAN DECIDE.
HMMMM
Okay let's go to the emotional since the past few posts were normal.
This 20 turning to 21 period was really a tough one.
And I can foresee the coming years to be tough too.
Being an adult now kind of makes me think that I need to get my thoughts together.
And the reason why I'm saying that the coming years will be tough is really because I need to think of what I am going to do as I grow older.
Being happy is definitely the number one thing.
Or rather soul searching.
If I can find my soul by travelling, I'll definitely travel.
But it's starting to daunt on me that life just isn't about travelling.
I think that once I find my soul somewhere in this world, I will probably stop travelling.
Like the meaning of life.
Search for the meaning of life.
But still, every morning when I head to school, I hate the feeling.
Not the feeling of I'm so tired, need to wake up so early.
But the feeling of being same as everyone.
Not trying to be a hipster but don't you all feel it?
The feeling when you are walking together with the crowd in the same direction.
As if like you're just an ordinary person doing ordinary things.
Don't you wish you can just say "Fuck this shit, I'm done," turn the other direction and go do things you enjoy.
And the primary reason why everyone is walking in this direction is to fill your own wallet.
Be it going to school or to work, ultimately it's for your future.
But why are we chasing this kind of future?
Money makes the world go round?
True to a certain extent.
But why do we still have the two extremes of the rich and the poor.
Can't we just give money to the poorer?
Everyone has the same amount of money then everyone won't need to work?
That makes completely no sense.
Because if no one works, nothing is going to happen.
You won't have supermarkets, you won't have malls, you won't have buildings to live in.
Basically what I'm trying to say is that, yes money is still important.
But sometimes I think what do millionaires do with their money?
Do you really need such a big house or so many cars?
Do you really need that big amount of money to raise a family?
So what's all the extra money for?
Why are some people still after more money if they already got enough?
And to conclude, I'm troubled sometimes because I am still trying to define the word "enough".
So in this next phase of life, I really hope that I can find this answer or definition.
Be it through travelling or meeting some people who have exact thoughts as me.
Being 21 doesn't really make me feel like an adult.
I think the number don't matter anymore soon.
Okay maybe when it reaches 30 will be like ouch.
But yeah, I really liked the article that chin yue asked me to read about the 4 stages of life.
But to be honest, I really hope that I won't be working my ass off in the future.
I'm just scared to face this future.
Some of you probably hear me jokingly saying "I don't want to work".
Maybe ITS NOT A JOKE.
Nah it is.
Just don't want to end up a workaholic, complaining about my life and hating my job.
Losing my passion and losing my dreams due to work.
Oh well, on a lighter note, thanks to those who came down to my birthday celebration yesterday.
Really enjoyed everyone's company.
Today is the actual birthday.
But I totally did nothing hahaha.
Went to lecture hungover with breath smelling like smirnoff and vodka.
Then after school go home eat dinner.
After dinner go study at macdonalds.
WHAT A BIRTHDAY.
But I believe that today's energy was lent to yesterday's awesomeness.
HAHAHA.
Thanks to everyone who has wished me on instagram or through whatsapp.
Love you all.
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I MADE IT INTO NUS CLIMBING TEAM.
YAYYYYYYYYY.
Didn't expect myself to be so belated over this fact.
Because my expectations was "even if I don't get in I will also train hard and I will also still climb"
If I don't get in, it doesn't stop me from climbing or affect me in anyway.
BUT I GUESS I WAS WRONG.
I feel the need to train even harder now I'm in the team.
And I really wanna thank Dayna!!!!!
I will train hard so you won't lose face.
Hahahaha.
*inserts bicep emoticon*
Okay see you guys.
R21 LIAO
Oh wtf, I just realised I've been blogging since NC16 LIAO and M18 LIAO.
Old blog.
Old life.
Three more cycles.
Amen.
Nights.
That makes me 21 bitches.
Happy birthday to me.
Yay.
3 more cycles of this 21 and I'm probably dead.
Ouch.
That feeling sucks.
Those who are reading this too.
3 more cycles guys.
HAHAHA.
Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Not going to blog my whole 21 years of shit life here.
Okay not shit life, AWESOME life.
CAN BE AWESOMER THO.
This post can either go emotional or normal.
I STILL CAN DECIDE.
HMMMM
Okay let's go to the emotional since the past few posts were normal.
This 20 turning to 21 period was really a tough one.
And I can foresee the coming years to be tough too.
Being an adult now kind of makes me think that I need to get my thoughts together.
And the reason why I'm saying that the coming years will be tough is really because I need to think of what I am going to do as I grow older.
Being happy is definitely the number one thing.
Or rather soul searching.
If I can find my soul by travelling, I'll definitely travel.
But it's starting to daunt on me that life just isn't about travelling.
I think that once I find my soul somewhere in this world, I will probably stop travelling.
Like the meaning of life.
Search for the meaning of life.
But still, every morning when I head to school, I hate the feeling.
Not the feeling of I'm so tired, need to wake up so early.
But the feeling of being same as everyone.
Not trying to be a hipster but don't you all feel it?
The feeling when you are walking together with the crowd in the same direction.
As if like you're just an ordinary person doing ordinary things.
Don't you wish you can just say "Fuck this shit, I'm done," turn the other direction and go do things you enjoy.
And the primary reason why everyone is walking in this direction is to fill your own wallet.
Be it going to school or to work, ultimately it's for your future.
But why are we chasing this kind of future?
Money makes the world go round?
True to a certain extent.
But why do we still have the two extremes of the rich and the poor.
Can't we just give money to the poorer?
Everyone has the same amount of money then everyone won't need to work?
That makes completely no sense.
Because if no one works, nothing is going to happen.
You won't have supermarkets, you won't have malls, you won't have buildings to live in.
Basically what I'm trying to say is that, yes money is still important.
But sometimes I think what do millionaires do with their money?
Do you really need such a big house or so many cars?
Do you really need that big amount of money to raise a family?
So what's all the extra money for?
Why are some people still after more money if they already got enough?
And to conclude, I'm troubled sometimes because I am still trying to define the word "enough".
So in this next phase of life, I really hope that I can find this answer or definition.
Be it through travelling or meeting some people who have exact thoughts as me.
Being 21 doesn't really make me feel like an adult.
I think the number don't matter anymore soon.
Okay maybe when it reaches 30 will be like ouch.
But yeah, I really liked the article that chin yue asked me to read about the 4 stages of life.
But to be honest, I really hope that I won't be working my ass off in the future.
I'm just scared to face this future.
Some of you probably hear me jokingly saying "I don't want to work".
Maybe ITS NOT A JOKE.
Nah it is.
Just don't want to end up a workaholic, complaining about my life and hating my job.
Losing my passion and losing my dreams due to work.
Oh well, on a lighter note, thanks to those who came down to my birthday celebration yesterday.
Really enjoyed everyone's company.
Today is the actual birthday.
But I totally did nothing hahaha.
Went to lecture hungover with breath smelling like smirnoff and vodka.
Then after school go home eat dinner.
After dinner go study at macdonalds.
WHAT A BIRTHDAY.
But I believe that today's energy was lent to yesterday's awesomeness.
HAHAHA.
Thanks to everyone who has wished me on instagram or through whatsapp.
Love you all.
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I MADE IT INTO NUS CLIMBING TEAM.
YAYYYYYYYYY.
Didn't expect myself to be so belated over this fact.
Because my expectations was "even if I don't get in I will also train hard and I will also still climb"
If I don't get in, it doesn't stop me from climbing or affect me in anyway.
BUT I GUESS I WAS WRONG.
I feel the need to train even harder now I'm in the team.
And I really wanna thank Dayna!!!!!
I will train hard so you won't lose face.
Hahahaha.
*inserts bicep emoticon*
Okay see you guys.
R21 LIAO
Oh wtf, I just realised I've been blogging since NC16 LIAO and M18 LIAO.
Old blog.
Old life.
Three more cycles.
Amen.
Nights.
Saturday, August 22, 2015
Updates - Destin bday
School has been quite good.
Just that things they are teaching are getting harder.
So a little worried.
But not really of a concern cause I know if I study hard can catch the shit.
Im currently at the playground below my house just reflecting some things .
Really love to blog from here cause it's a really chill place to consolidate my thoughts.
More busy now ever since school started.
And I've been meeting people whom I've never met for sometimes.
One example would be zhi yang who I was once very close to 5 years ago.
And we were talking ytd saying how we know we will drift apart after 5 years and that we must find time to meet up no matter if we got our own lives.
So yesterday was really a good catch up session of a 5 years story.
And we kind of agreed that in this 5 years that seem to pass very fast, lots of shit has happened to us.
And it seems like the problems we are facing now are so different from 5 years ago.
As I stared into the night sky while lying on this red slide, kind of make me think about how happy I was as a child compared to now.
And when I think about it, society really worries everyone and it sucks.
Today was destins birthday party so went to his house just moments ago.
As I was playing with his nephew and nieces , it really hit me hard on realising that Im really less happy as I wish I would be.
I think my main issue is that Im less appreciative of things and Im demanding more of things/people.
I have this idealistic world in my head that I want and because of me not able to achieve it, I become upset.
But as Im writing this, I realised I shouldn't be that upset because I have alot of things that I am in possession of (like good friends and family) and I should appreciate it more.
I have a healthy body and I have 4 limbs which enable me to still climb.
Makes me think that I should stop being a kid and complain about all the things happening to and around me.
But sometimes, the idealistic world still appear in my head and I want to achieve it.
I want more but yet I also need to appreciate what I have now.
Ahhhh, complicated as fuck .
Whatever.
Im not emo btw , just a day that I feel deep.
Hahahaha good night guys
Just that things they are teaching are getting harder.
So a little worried.
But not really of a concern cause I know if I study hard can catch the shit.
Im currently at the playground below my house just reflecting some things .
Really love to blog from here cause it's a really chill place to consolidate my thoughts.
More busy now ever since school started.
And I've been meeting people whom I've never met for sometimes.
One example would be zhi yang who I was once very close to 5 years ago.
And we were talking ytd saying how we know we will drift apart after 5 years and that we must find time to meet up no matter if we got our own lives.
So yesterday was really a good catch up session of a 5 years story.
And we kind of agreed that in this 5 years that seem to pass very fast, lots of shit has happened to us.
And it seems like the problems we are facing now are so different from 5 years ago.
As I stared into the night sky while lying on this red slide, kind of make me think about how happy I was as a child compared to now.
And when I think about it, society really worries everyone and it sucks.
Today was destins birthday party so went to his house just moments ago.
As I was playing with his nephew and nieces , it really hit me hard on realising that Im really less happy as I wish I would be.
I think my main issue is that Im less appreciative of things and Im demanding more of things/people.
I have this idealistic world in my head that I want and because of me not able to achieve it, I become upset.
But as Im writing this, I realised I shouldn't be that upset because I have alot of things that I am in possession of (like good friends and family) and I should appreciate it more.
I have a healthy body and I have 4 limbs which enable me to still climb.
Makes me think that I should stop being a kid and complain about all the things happening to and around me.
But sometimes, the idealistic world still appear in my head and I want to achieve it.
I want more but yet I also need to appreciate what I have now.
Ahhhh, complicated as fuck .
Whatever.
Im not emo btw , just a day that I feel deep.
Hahahaha good night guys
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
NUS climbing?!
Hi all it's NUS trials tomorrow.
If I made it through the trials I'll be climbing for NUS.
Hahahaha.
Interesting feeling to be part of a school team.
BUT WHO KNOWS, I MAY NOT MAKE IT TOMORROW.
Cause today I climbed and kind of hurt my left shoulder.
Hope this shit recovers fast.
Hahahaha.
Anyway, lectures are really getting so fucking hard.
Can't wait for self-study Wednesday to happen.
And that is tomorrow!
Hopefully this every wednesday studying thing will help.
Don't know how hard I should be putting into academics actually.
Hmmm.
But for now, have been training quite hard for climbing.
Okay not really.
Quite lazy.
But at least I do PT after every climb session now with Yong Sheng.
Hmmm.
Yong Sheng is getting back his form.
DAMN FAST.
Getting strong like last time already.
Great to have a climbing buddy back.
After we've been through NS together.
Now left this Min Jian only.
Also don't know he want climb or don't want climb one.
Oh well, life's pretty happening now.
Almost every hour is filled.
Not saying that it is exciting life, but at least there's something to do.
For my 6th day of school, I guess things are pretty fine.
Don't know how I will feel on the 60th day of school.
HAHAHA.
We'll see about it.
Anyway just sent Ling Fang off for her exchange.
Don't know how to spell the country but yup, she's going exchange for 5 months.
So envious of her.
Wanna go for exchange too.
Must study hard to go exchange.
I THINK THAT'S MY GOAL.
Okay just found motivation to study.
HAHAHA just kidding.
But honestly, I really wanna go for exchange.
CAUSE TRAVEL.
NAISE.
I RIKE.
Okay shall dota my tuesday night away with Kris Rock Lee.
Then wake up tomorrow, chill and go school study with Yan Zhao.
(Y)
Quite exciting week ahead.
CAUSE ZOUK ON SATURDAY?
Nah, just going there to support Sean Hui for his pageant contest.
I HOPE.
NOTHING.
MUCH.
HAPPENS.
Okay bye.
If I made it through the trials I'll be climbing for NUS.
Hahahaha.
Interesting feeling to be part of a school team.
BUT WHO KNOWS, I MAY NOT MAKE IT TOMORROW.
Cause today I climbed and kind of hurt my left shoulder.
Hope this shit recovers fast.
Hahahaha.
Anyway, lectures are really getting so fucking hard.
Can't wait for self-study Wednesday to happen.
And that is tomorrow!
Hopefully this every wednesday studying thing will help.
Don't know how hard I should be putting into academics actually.
Hmmm.
But for now, have been training quite hard for climbing.
Okay not really.
Quite lazy.
But at least I do PT after every climb session now with Yong Sheng.
Hmmm.
Yong Sheng is getting back his form.
DAMN FAST.
Getting strong like last time already.
Great to have a climbing buddy back.
After we've been through NS together.
Now left this Min Jian only.
Also don't know he want climb or don't want climb one.
Oh well, life's pretty happening now.
Almost every hour is filled.
Not saying that it is exciting life, but at least there's something to do.
For my 6th day of school, I guess things are pretty fine.
Don't know how I will feel on the 60th day of school.
HAHAHA.
We'll see about it.
Anyway just sent Ling Fang off for her exchange.
Don't know how to spell the country but yup, she's going exchange for 5 months.
So envious of her.
Wanna go for exchange too.
Must study hard to go exchange.
I THINK THAT'S MY GOAL.
Okay just found motivation to study.
HAHAHA just kidding.
But honestly, I really wanna go for exchange.
CAUSE TRAVEL.
NAISE.
I RIKE.
Okay shall dota my tuesday night away with Kris Rock Lee.
Then wake up tomorrow, chill and go school study with Yan Zhao.
(Y)
Quite exciting week ahead.
CAUSE ZOUK ON SATURDAY?
Nah, just going there to support Sean Hui for his pageant contest.
I HOPE.
NOTHING.
MUCH.
HAPPENS.
Okay bye.
Monday, August 17, 2015
Second week of school
Hello everbardi .
Lectures have all started.
Now waiting for lab and tutorial to start.
Kinda having more and more organised weeks ahead.
But this because tutorials and labs haven't started.
Wonder how much is the actual work load.
Compared to people from other faculties, lab is the reason why my schedule is so packed .
Hopefully things will be good .
So far so good in school.
Kind of expected life to be like that.
After today lectures, Im starting to worry because lectures really seem to be going really fast.
If you fall asleep or just daze awhile, you won't understand wtf is going on already.
This probably implies that self study is gonna be more important than any shit .
And I reserved Wednesday to be a studying day starting this Wednesday cause that's the only day I end early and Im not climbing or teaching tuition.
At least this will be for this sem.
Okayyy just an update of my life.
Just a freshie trying to get used to things.
On a side note, gonna turn 21 in the coming Monday.
Seems like someone's going to be an adult so soon.
But yet dk what he wants in life.
Or rather how to get what he wants in life.
Alright shall go refresh some memories of lecture while waiting for cyue to reach Holland v for dinner.
Ciao
Lectures have all started.
Now waiting for lab and tutorial to start.
Kinda having more and more organised weeks ahead.
But this because tutorials and labs haven't started.
Wonder how much is the actual work load.
Compared to people from other faculties, lab is the reason why my schedule is so packed .
Hopefully things will be good .
So far so good in school.
Kind of expected life to be like that.
After today lectures, Im starting to worry because lectures really seem to be going really fast.
If you fall asleep or just daze awhile, you won't understand wtf is going on already.
This probably implies that self study is gonna be more important than any shit .
And I reserved Wednesday to be a studying day starting this Wednesday cause that's the only day I end early and Im not climbing or teaching tuition.
At least this will be for this sem.
Okayyy just an update of my life.
Just a freshie trying to get used to things.
On a side note, gonna turn 21 in the coming Monday.
Seems like someone's going to be an adult so soon.
But yet dk what he wants in life.
Or rather how to get what he wants in life.
Alright shall go refresh some memories of lecture while waiting for cyue to reach Holland v for dinner.
Ciao
Friday, August 14, 2015
Trip back to NS life
Hi guys.
NUS has been better than expected.
Kind of thought I will be a loner in school which I didn't mind.
But end up there was a few MJC school mates that ended up studying the same course.
One which I already knew was Shiuan Jun.
Then the other which I realised is studying Physics with me is Yan Zhao.
Kind of hanging out with Yan Zhao almost every day hahaha.
And here and there, get to catch up with people.
Like George, Li Ting and some other 401 people like Ye An, Wei Jie, Jia Jia and Tsui Yan.
Quite interesting ah.
Then my OCS buddy also texted me ask me about climbing.
Interesting hahaha.
And I MADE MY FIRST NUS FRIEND TODAY.
Her name is Lydia.
Hahaha, from my Thai mod class.
Kind of clicked quite well I feel.
Like the feeling is like we know each other for months already.
But we only know each other for 2 hours.
HAHAHA.
Let's see how the next Thai class will be.
ANYWAY, the main point of blogging today is because I went back to 3 Guards again.
Second time back after ORD.
Watched CGO's COC.
And heard the whole parade square shouted the guards' creed.
Made my hair stand.
I was quitely whispering the guards' creed too in the corner.
HAHAHA.
Dem feels.
And so I went to find my guys.
I like how they are so happy to see me, Soo Hui and Cpt Lam back in camp.
Like the old command team is back.
And there were a few touching moments for me.
When my men came and tell me how they miss me.
And asked whether I miss them.
Chatted about the current state of the company / platoon now.
And they told me ever since I ORD-ed things in the platoon has been different.
They claimed it was "falling apart".
That made me glad that I've made some impacts to them.
And also a little disappointed with how certain things are running now.
One of my men also came to me and told me "Sir, I've joined back training already."
That made me so happy for him.
Finally he's back in training.
After months of endless encouragement.
Months of endless torture to myself.
It touched me to hear him say that he wanted to apologise to me for not joining back when I was his PC.
I'm so glad I went back today.
And chit chatting with the guys just made me feel so alive again.
Made me feel like I'm back in NS again.
And from the way they interacted with me, I guessed they were envious / proud to see me pursuing my own things now (studying in NUS)
SO MUCH EMOTIONS.
#signonsua
#seehow
NUS has been better than expected.
Kind of thought I will be a loner in school which I didn't mind.
But end up there was a few MJC school mates that ended up studying the same course.
One which I already knew was Shiuan Jun.
Then the other which I realised is studying Physics with me is Yan Zhao.
Kind of hanging out with Yan Zhao almost every day hahaha.
And here and there, get to catch up with people.
Like George, Li Ting and some other 401 people like Ye An, Wei Jie, Jia Jia and Tsui Yan.
Quite interesting ah.
Then my OCS buddy also texted me ask me about climbing.
Interesting hahaha.
And I MADE MY FIRST NUS FRIEND TODAY.
Her name is Lydia.
Hahaha, from my Thai mod class.
Kind of clicked quite well I feel.
Like the feeling is like we know each other for months already.
But we only know each other for 2 hours.
HAHAHA.
Let's see how the next Thai class will be.
ANYWAY, the main point of blogging today is because I went back to 3 Guards again.
Second time back after ORD.
Watched CGO's COC.
And heard the whole parade square shouted the guards' creed.
Made my hair stand.
I was quitely whispering the guards' creed too in the corner.
HAHAHA.
Dem feels.
And so I went to find my guys.
I like how they are so happy to see me, Soo Hui and Cpt Lam back in camp.
Like the old command team is back.
And there were a few touching moments for me.
When my men came and tell me how they miss me.
And asked whether I miss them.
Chatted about the current state of the company / platoon now.
And they told me ever since I ORD-ed things in the platoon has been different.
They claimed it was "falling apart".
That made me glad that I've made some impacts to them.
And also a little disappointed with how certain things are running now.
One of my men also came to me and told me "Sir, I've joined back training already."
That made me so happy for him.
Finally he's back in training.
After months of endless encouragement.
Months of endless torture to myself.
It touched me to hear him say that he wanted to apologise to me for not joining back when I was his PC.
I'm so glad I went back today.
And chit chatting with the guys just made me feel so alive again.
Made me feel like I'm back in NS again.
And from the way they interacted with me, I guessed they were envious / proud to see me pursuing my own things now (studying in NUS)
SO MUCH EMOTIONS.
#signonsua
#seehow
Monday, August 10, 2015
One day before school starts
School is starting tomorrow.
Mixed emotions.
But generally excited because I have not touch any books since A levels in 2012.
As school is about to start, I'm gathering my thoughts for the past few weeks.
I feel that life is going to be more organised now since I have a time table.
Really want to thank a few people who have been with me this 'tough' time.
So I guess this is going to be a dedicated post!
Shiuan Jun - Thanks for helping me through my registration and administrative stuff for NUS. I'm really lucky to find you on public dota match with the ign "knightgale". HAHAHAHA. Can't believe I met you online and then realise that we are studying the exact same course. But really thanks so much for helping me. I was so lost in my own world to bother about school stuffs. You kind of brought me back to reality. Hahahaha. Know you won't read this but yup ! We will have 4 years together bro. See you in kent ridge mrt tomorrow!
Wilfred - Thanks for hearing my troubles out. Even though the worries about my life is still there, I still wanna thank you for being a good listener. Like serious you're a super good listener cause you always prompt questions that make me reflect. I like how you are always genuinely concerned when I'm down and I'm very appreciative of that. I guess good friends will always be there when they are at their lowest. I don't think you need a long post cause you know I'm really appreciative to have a friend like you. Hahaha. Hope we will still meet up often even tho different school. Aiya fuck cfm meet up one scared what. HAHAHAHA
Wei lun - Even though I never really open up my issues to you recently, but I like how you are always open to talk about things. Oh well, busy people is busy. We definitely grew closer together since last year and after bali. And this post is just to thank you for being a good friend of mine. I want to say that meetings are always different without your presence and that our gatherings are usually more lively and funny with you around. Same as wilfred I hope we will still meet up often after school starts which I believe we definitely will hahahahaha.
Chin yue - HAHAHAHA. AMEN . Gonna be 10 years soon our friendship. We have so many similar topics and mutual friends HAHAHAHA. Tho we've been on separate paths for so long. We go army then you NTU, I like how our friendship is growing stronger still. I'm glad that you tried to find me when you wanted to talk but I was in Phuket. That makes me realise that I'm a somebody in someone's life. BUAY HIAO BAI HAHAHAHA. But in a serious note, I'm damn glad to have you as a friend. Just know that you are important in my life. Because whatever shit happened for the past 8 years in our life, here and there we have been there for each other and I hope this will still be the case in the next three stages of our life. Or maybe two for you. HAHAHAHA. Anyway hope things are going well for you and her! For now AGARIO ?
I'm quite glad I'm sort of past the weird and emotional down past weeks. But definitely I believe that in life nothing is smooth sailing and that problems of life will come finding me again. And I'm glad that I have made friends that I know I can turn to any time.
On a side note, don't be affected if your name isn't here. I don't have a lot of friends, if you know you are my good friend means I was thinking about you as I was writing this. Just that it will be too forced for me to write something for you. HAHAHAHA .
And from tomorrow onwards, I'll be in a new phase of life yet again. AMEN.
#feelingfresh #newlife
#Friends
U
Can
Keep
Mixed emotions.
But generally excited because I have not touch any books since A levels in 2012.
As school is about to start, I'm gathering my thoughts for the past few weeks.
I feel that life is going to be more organised now since I have a time table.
Really want to thank a few people who have been with me this 'tough' time.
So I guess this is going to be a dedicated post!
Shiuan Jun - Thanks for helping me through my registration and administrative stuff for NUS. I'm really lucky to find you on public dota match with the ign "knightgale". HAHAHAHA. Can't believe I met you online and then realise that we are studying the exact same course. But really thanks so much for helping me. I was so lost in my own world to bother about school stuffs. You kind of brought me back to reality. Hahahaha. Know you won't read this but yup ! We will have 4 years together bro. See you in kent ridge mrt tomorrow!
Wilfred - Thanks for hearing my troubles out. Even though the worries about my life is still there, I still wanna thank you for being a good listener. Like serious you're a super good listener cause you always prompt questions that make me reflect. I like how you are always genuinely concerned when I'm down and I'm very appreciative of that. I guess good friends will always be there when they are at their lowest. I don't think you need a long post cause you know I'm really appreciative to have a friend like you. Hahaha. Hope we will still meet up often even tho different school. Aiya fuck cfm meet up one scared what. HAHAHAHA
Wei lun - Even though I never really open up my issues to you recently, but I like how you are always open to talk about things. Oh well, busy people is busy. We definitely grew closer together since last year and after bali. And this post is just to thank you for being a good friend of mine. I want to say that meetings are always different without your presence and that our gatherings are usually more lively and funny with you around. Same as wilfred I hope we will still meet up often after school starts which I believe we definitely will hahahahaha.
Chin yue - HAHAHAHA. AMEN . Gonna be 10 years soon our friendship. We have so many similar topics and mutual friends HAHAHAHA. Tho we've been on separate paths for so long. We go army then you NTU, I like how our friendship is growing stronger still. I'm glad that you tried to find me when you wanted to talk but I was in Phuket. That makes me realise that I'm a somebody in someone's life. BUAY HIAO BAI HAHAHAHA. But in a serious note, I'm damn glad to have you as a friend. Just know that you are important in my life. Because whatever shit happened for the past 8 years in our life, here and there we have been there for each other and I hope this will still be the case in the next three stages of our life. Or maybe two for you. HAHAHAHA. Anyway hope things are going well for you and her! For now AGARIO ?
I'm quite glad I'm sort of past the weird and emotional down past weeks. But definitely I believe that in life nothing is smooth sailing and that problems of life will come finding me again. And I'm glad that I have made friends that I know I can turn to any time.
On a side note, don't be affected if your name isn't here. I don't have a lot of friends, if you know you are my good friend means I was thinking about you as I was writing this. Just that it will be too forced for me to write something for you. HAHAHAHA .
And from tomorrow onwards, I'll be in a new phase of life yet again. AMEN.
#feelingfresh #newlife
#Friends
U
Can
Keep
Friday, August 7, 2015
Just why
Why can't you all understand?
Why must shout at me?
You all think Im fucked up.
Then just throw tantrum .
I know im not young anymore and I shouldn't be quarreling with y'all.
Your son is going through some shit in his thoughts now.
Why don't you all see it?
I have so much internal struggles.
I'm almost numb already.
I don't know.
What do I fucking seriously want in life?
Why must shout at me?
You all think Im fucked up.
Then just throw tantrum .
I know im not young anymore and I shouldn't be quarreling with y'all.
Your son is going through some shit in his thoughts now.
Why don't you all see it?
I have so much internal struggles.
I'm almost numb already.
I don't know.
What do I fucking seriously want in life?
Some psychology test
Interpretation of the Colors You Find Most Pleasing
You can ask yourself:
Am I not too caught up in what I need and what serves me and brings me personal advantages? Do I engage in the same measure with what other people say, feel and need?
You can ask yourself:
Which is better for me: to seek relief through enjoyable contacts and uplifting entertainment or to investigate whether or not it is my beliefs which trigger frustration and anger in me and make my life more difficult as a result?
Interpretation of the Colors You Find Most Unpleasant
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Why?
That's a very good question.
Because I myself don't know why I'm feeling this way too.
And I'm finding out why.
But the method used to find out why has been a really bad method.
Because it kicks me back the next day and I will realise I'm back to the same question of "why?"
It's a cycle.
Just met Wilfred for lunch and he asked "What are your priorities now?"
And that sort of answer for myself why I'm feeling this way.
I have no priorities now.
I'm troubled to find out what are my priorities.
I know late nights won't be the solution as it won't solve anything.
But at the very least, it digs out some deep thoughts going through my mind for me to formulate and analyse what's happening to me and the things around me.
For now, at least I am still climbing.
It doesn't solve the issue but at least I can avoid it temporarily.
I guess my solution would be to sit down and spend some time to myself (without alcohol) and I guess things would work.
Let's hope.
Because I myself don't know why I'm feeling this way too.
And I'm finding out why.
But the method used to find out why has been a really bad method.
Because it kicks me back the next day and I will realise I'm back to the same question of "why?"
It's a cycle.
Just met Wilfred for lunch and he asked "What are your priorities now?"
And that sort of answer for myself why I'm feeling this way.
I have no priorities now.
I'm troubled to find out what are my priorities.
I know late nights won't be the solution as it won't solve anything.
But at the very least, it digs out some deep thoughts going through my mind for me to formulate and analyse what's happening to me and the things around me.
For now, at least I am still climbing.
It doesn't solve the issue but at least I can avoid it temporarily.
I guess my solution would be to sit down and spend some time to myself (without alcohol) and I guess things would work.
Let's hope.
Monday, August 3, 2015
Life's unpredictable
RIP.
Don't really know you but I remember the times back in xms.
Always appeared cheerful and I guessed you were a really very nice guy.
Take care and we will always remember you.
Life's really unpredictable.
As I looked through facebook and see all the things that is happening, I feel that all of us haven't been spending some time to reflect upon our lives.
Life is so fragile.
Anything can happen any time.
Everyone is so caught up with their own lives to care more about others.
And when things like that happen, it hits all of us hard.
What's the point of chasing things that are seemingly far.
Yet we don't know how to appreciate the things we have right now.
Just some thoughts right now.
Sunday, August 2, 2015
Frowns frowns frowns
So I went to Suntec today.
To find my platoon.
Since I worked there, manage to find out from Grace how to get into the convention hall from the back.
Damn imba.
Hahahaha.
So went to 404 and saw so many familiar faces.
Some I can't even remember their name.
But feels good to see the whole Batallion again.
Not everyone tho.
Hahaha.
However don't have the homely feeling.
I guess it's the orange dim lights on victory square that make the whole camp feels like home.
Anyway, bought a pair of new shoes today since it has been confirmed that my bag could not be retrieved.
TENAYA OASI.
Happy with the purchase.
Makes me want to train again.
HEHEHE.
Not saying I'm not training.
Shall change my words.
Makes me want to train harder.
ANYWAY, there's really still a lot of thoughts in my mind.
I wonder how's things going to turn out.
Is it just someone that's gonna walk into my life and leave?
And is school gonna be like that?
People come and go.
All my good friends are in NTU.
Means meetups would be less?
How's my passion for climbing going to be?
How's my NUS bidding issue gonna be resolved?
Will it be resolved?
What's going to happen in 2 weeks time.
Will I make no friends?
Will I keep going to Cuscaden?
???
????????
Had a dream this morning.
Dreamt that I was running away from a group of hooligans.
Kept running and running and running.
And I googled, "Dreams of being chased by people"
Psychologically, it means that I'm running away from something.
And I'm guessing that something is reality.
Have been acting so strange but somehow I still feel at ease with my behavior.
Means I need to worry more?
Hmmmm.
ANYWAY, REALLY WANNA THANKS SHIUAN JUN AND DAVE FOR HELPING ME WITH THE MODULES AND STUFFS.
If not I'll probably not be studying anything in first sem.
Actually, nothing is confirmed yet.
I may not be studying anything in first sem.
HAHA.
Hopefully things go well.
Don't really care much shit about it anyway,
(This is what I meant by running away from reality)
To find my platoon.
Since I worked there, manage to find out from Grace how to get into the convention hall from the back.
Damn imba.
Hahahaha.
So went to 404 and saw so many familiar faces.
Some I can't even remember their name.
But feels good to see the whole Batallion again.
Not everyone tho.
Hahaha.
However don't have the homely feeling.
I guess it's the orange dim lights on victory square that make the whole camp feels like home.
Anyway, bought a pair of new shoes today since it has been confirmed that my bag could not be retrieved.
TENAYA OASI.
Happy with the purchase.
Makes me want to train again.
HEHEHE.
Not saying I'm not training.
Shall change my words.
Makes me want to train harder.
ANYWAY, there's really still a lot of thoughts in my mind.
I wonder how's things going to turn out.
Is it just someone that's gonna walk into my life and leave?
And is school gonna be like that?
People come and go.
All my good friends are in NTU.
Means meetups would be less?
How's my passion for climbing going to be?
How's my NUS bidding issue gonna be resolved?
Will it be resolved?
What's going to happen in 2 weeks time.
Will I make no friends?
Will I keep going to Cuscaden?
???
????????
Had a dream this morning.
Dreamt that I was running away from a group of hooligans.
Kept running and running and running.
And I googled, "Dreams of being chased by people"
Psychologically, it means that I'm running away from something.
And I'm guessing that something is reality.
Have been acting so strange but somehow I still feel at ease with my behavior.
Means I need to worry more?
Hmmmm.
ANYWAY, REALLY WANNA THANKS SHIUAN JUN AND DAVE FOR HELPING ME WITH THE MODULES AND STUFFS.
If not I'll probably not be studying anything in first sem.
Actually, nothing is confirmed yet.
I may not be studying anything in first sem.
HAHA.
Hopefully things go well.
Don't really care much shit about it anyway,
(This is what I meant by running away from reality)
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