Booking in

This is bad.
I'm having negative thoughts of booking in even though it's a saturday.
If my weekends are all so negative, my these 2 years cfm jia lat one.
Maybe still trying to adjust.
Hahaha.
But I sincerely miss civilian lives for 7 days a week.
Now all the things I did before army must be cramped into less then 48 hours.
Climbing, dota, meeting with friends and my own CHILL TIME.
Then now the 48 hours must incorporate some jogging if not I will fail my 2.4 and then RT.
Which means even less than 48 hours.
It's really quite tiring to follow strict rules.
The loss of freedom is really in a snap.
Once you step onto tekong ground, good luck.
Your freedom has been suspended for 5 days.
And after the 5 days, you will be so mind fucked about army.
That being a civilian don't even feel like one.
Looking at myself in the mirror just feels so sad.
Because it feels like I'm looking at myself in the mirror in platoon 4's toilet.
Really hope I will get used to this.
Hope.
That's really what I need now.