Secrets

It's been a long time since I shared.

It's all bottled in me.

Or rather, I hardly have anytime to stop and think.

It's really been quite a long time since the start of JC life.

So many things have changed.

I've lost my somewhat unique personality.

That is quiet and observant.

I've lost the independence too.

I can work by myself in the past.

Now I need my friends.

What for try so hard when no one cares.

I miss those friends that really appreciate me.

Those are the people I love and cherish.

I guess all this thinking started because all the people I've used to confide in are in different schools now.

There's totally no one I can talk to in MJC.

Maybe one or two here and there, but normally they are so busy with their life too.

Why must we study?

Why can't we just stop this useless education.

Why must we depend on diplomas or degrees?

It's not that I'm tired of studying, it's just that I need to have fun.

I don't mind studying you see, if I have fun.

Nothing's really pushing me to study right now.

It's like there's just nothing.

Nothing to spur me on.

And now, watching the rallying process, I'm thinking to myself "What for?"

Same goes to my school mates.

What for the fame?

If you don't earn respect?

Everyone's trying to be famous, everyone's trying to be "cool" in other people's eyes.

Just stop all this crap.

It doesn't bring you happiness does it?

Where are all of you, friends?

I miss you.

And you especially.