House Committee

Yes, it's the second time I'm putting that as my title.
I've been thinking quite a lot.

About what would happen if I don't get in the house committee.

JC life will get even more mundane.

I've mentioned that I've lost the work hard play hard feeling.

Because there is no platform for me to play hard.

I really hope by joining the house committee, I can have fun and at least feel part of a group.

Sometimes I just feel that I belong no where.

I do enjoy the time spent with my classmates and cca mates.

Laughing and feeling good every time I'm with them.

But something is missing.

It's warmth that I'm talking about.

Independence is so important.

When all else fails, you still have yourself.

But of course, being too independent is bad for health too.

Being alone means lack of fun, joy and laughter.

Should we be independent?
Or should we enjoy the company and support of friends, who may just turn their backs on you?

It's about trust.

What I've written in GP essay today.

Trust is the foundation of any relationships.

Without trust, relationships would just be unrealistic.

There's no point trying to gain trust from people.

Because when you gain trust here, you lose trust there.

It's like you spend more time here, you spend less time there with other friends.

Whatever we do, there would always be haters out there to hate you.

Probably I've already gotten a couple of haters here just because the way I act.

I can be quite bastard at times.

But I only realised it after the bastardation has happened.

So we should think before we act?

And so I ask myself, if I think before I act, wouldn't it be trying to fake my personality?

Sometimes I wonder whether is it good to think so much?

It just ends up me being very cautious with my own behaviour and in the end I just become WEIRD.

Tomorrow is voting day.

I scared I screw up because of over-cautiousness or nervousness.

This sucks.