I'm lost.

I'm lost.
I don't see any light in front of me.
My mind is block.
Just like how it was during A maths paper.
I can't seem to think of happy things today.
Perhaps I'm tired.
Yeap, I'm tired.
But it's really tiring.
To study every single day.
Going to school feeling down and stuff.
Hoping for someone to just walk by and really cheer me up.
It's just so cold.
I don't know what's with me too.
My mind is blank.
Empty.
An empty feeling.
Not sadness, and definitely not happiness.
I feel like a robot.
Which has a very low amount of battery.
I need a recharge.
I need someone to help me push the button.
I'm lost, just for today.
I guess.
Hope things go well tomorrow.

Ate my leftover durian cake in the morning.
Went to school.
Went straight up to the hall.
Chemistry paper.
Did from the back.
Was quite relieved that I could almost do everything.
It's quite simple I guess.
Recess.
Went down to canteen and sat with Chong Yu, Mannan, Timothy, Lionel and Jerome at the umbrella.
Bought makan di sini.
Nicee foodd.
After eating, play around with ball below hall near the staircase area.
The staircase near the carpark.
Just lame around and then went up for A maths paper.
I thought it would be easy.
But I got more and more nervous when I used up a lot of time.
Then suddenly, I got so tensed up that my mind blocked.
Just felt like giving up.
The feeling just sucks.
It's just, give up.
And I think I really did.
The last 3 questions hardly touch any.
Really cannot tahan.
I hate myself for having this block today.
I'm tired I guess.
Super pissed.
But after realising that most people couldn't do it too, I was quite relieved.
But most of the time, people cannot do but I can do.
It's really this drop of standard.
I never touch A maths for a long long time already.
I'm damn tired.
Of studying and revising.
Tired just at the thought of studying.
I'm losing myself.
So went to have lunch at Hougang Point.
Ate already went to play soccer.
Soccer today sucked.
Not even in the mood to play.
Couldn't laugh and enjoy like any other days.
And the tiredness and lost feeling only comes right after I finish soccer.
Couldn't think, just felt like sleeping and forget everything.
And that's what I did.
I could just fall asleep any moment.
YAWNSSSS.
So after soccer went to the barbeque area with Ryan, Zhi Yang, Wai Heng, Zong Han.
Talked a while then Zong Han left to return Hardi his phone.
Later everyone left.
Left Zong Han and me.
Then the two of us sit awhile more then decided to leave.
So went to school and put the ball while Zong Han waited for me outside the school.
Took bus back home.
During the journey home, there's just so many thoughts.
I feel like screaming everything out.
And the worst thing is, I don't know what am I thinking about.
Just hope tomorrow will be a better day.
So going to bathe now and sleep.
Later revise a bit more.

I am so tired.

Make sure I sleep later
I need the sleep!
Sian
So tired sia.

Yet another day waster.
Oh my god.
Unsure with everything now, hope things get better.

Bye!