I can't.

Went to school.
Afraid to face you.
No conversing at all.
I thought I've thought things through.
The period in class was a killer for me.
I chose stress for my essay.
After finishing section 1, my mind was filled with other thoughts.
How am I supposed to make it?
I was lucky I sat in front.
I was still thinking what to do.
I need to talk to you.
It wasn't easy to act as if I'm okay.
I thought being with my friends would allow me to forget everything.
It did actually, for a moment.
Once I am alone, I start to think and think.
I'm so easily distracted by my thoughts.
To a point that I'm so pissed at myself.
I cannot study properly like I used to before.
Studying at Chong Yu's house made me even more pissed.
I'm distracted again and again.
Everytime I see my phone's white light blinking, how I wished it was you.
My brother is right.
Shit happens in life.
I need to get back up.
I have to.
But how am I supposed to?

Today was rather better than yesterday I guess.
With the soccer session after the papers.
But still, that sour feeling cannot seem to go away.
Shall continue studying.
Hope I'm able to finish studying.
I'm afraid I will screw up.