You know

The weird feeling when sometimes you say some words which you normally wouldn't say.
Or like words from your mouth just seemed to be like from a different person.
Makes you ponder about how different you've become.
But what's weirder is how you're still able to judge that there's something different now than from the past.
So are we who we speak or are we who we think?
I guess it's an integration of both.

But you know people who don't read this blog have never seen the other side of me.
I wonder what's their impression of me as a person then.
Thinking about that, I'm glad I only have a few important friends that I've to take care of.
And most of the times I don't really bother about what other people really think of me.
But those who I care about, what they think bothers me a lot.
I'm afraid that people start to distant themselves away from me as I've seemingly changed as a person in thoughts.
But yet again, what rights do I have for distancing from my own friends.

Idk.
Some days are harder to get through than others.
But I guess we'll still get through.
And learn something out of everyday.
(And back to the idea of saying something that I won't usually say. That weird self-judgmental feeling)
Good night.