Angel VS Devil

Today's internal struggle was so strong.

It was really a fight between trying to be functional and not trying at all.

A fight between taking care of myself and letting myself rot.

A fight between channelling my energy to pick myself up or let the energy turn negative.

I'm not trying to say that I did a good job by choosing to take care of myself, doing things I like.

I'm just trying to say why is there a 'hurdle' to doing the things I like to do.

Why can't I just (without activation energy) do the things I like.

And just tired from the internal fight between the Angel and the Devil.

But okay, happy that I finally drew Chae Young after contemplating for years.

And It looks pretty okay to me (even though I think I'm a perfectionist).

Her left eye could be slightly bigger, the 2B shadings on the nose bridge can be darker.

Her right side of the upper lips look a bit distorted.

Shadow below her right eyebrow isn't blended properly.

Nose isn't obvious because of the lack of the nose bridge shading.

General shading of the face isn't perfect.

BUT FUCK.

IT LOOKS LIKE CHAE YOUNG.

I don't care I think I did a good job already.

For someone who didn't have any art background.

And I think that's my way of working hard for my industry too.

Keeping my creativity in check while I grow up.

And I guess that's why I keep reading books and heading to the movies too.

Just bought a fictional book too, been awhile since I read fiction.

A break from trading, Day 1.

Let's see what the next few days teach me.