Everything everywhere all at once

How did it make me feel?

To be exaggerated, it made me feel everything, all at once.

It felt like a trip.

That psychedelic trip which I have forgotten.

It reminded me of that omnipresent feeling I had while I was tripping.

The pain I felt, the joy I felt, and all the emotions I felt, everywhere, all at once.

It brought me to so many places.

It brought me to my secondary school times.

It brought me to me bawling at home while watching 28 未成年, (which brought me back to while I was 18)

It brought me to the day I was at the roof, calling SOS because I had no way out for my brain.

It brought me to all those drunkard nights.

It brought me to my red slide, where I felt omnipresent too, where I told myself whenever I lie there, I could feel all those emotions linked to the times I was physically lying there.

It brought me to the time when I hugged you for the last time below your block, and saying good bye for the last time.

It felt like all the pain I had felt before all came rushing in all at once.

And it is not a bad thing.

It feels good to feel.

And that hyper awareness of myself is amazing.

And yet another film that makes me have a mental 'crackdown' to reveal the deep me.

It's as if I woke up from a long nap.

A long long nap.

That feeling of awakening all over again.

All those people in my life whom I've felt so dearly for came rushing back.

And suddenly feeling that the clock is ticking again.

Tick tock, tick tock.

As if I could see that meter of my life.

And that spiral thoughts in that book..

And at the center of it, was you at that point in time.

And how funny it is that if I were to do a spiral writing again, it'll always be a different someone at different stages of my life.

I don't know what I'm writing anymore.

But thanks for the trip.