Functionality Check

I think I'm so fked in my head that I'm starting to not function as a human.

When I travel to and fro shoots / travel to get stuffs, I look out of the car window and everything is a blur.

This depersonalisation is getting pretty serious.

It's a BLUR everyday.

How do I bring across the idea of BLUR here?

Vision is physically a lil blur (of course when I'm staring into blank space)

And the mind is like a cloud.

Like a black shroud around my head all the time.

And I'm starting to not now how to deal with myself.

Isn't that a scary feeling.

When you can't deal with yourself anymore but you are with yourself 24/7.

I wonder if I'm feeling like this because I woke up late today and just feeling so stressed.

Definitely.

Fucking split personality dog.

Sometimes you're fine, sometimes you're pitiful.

And right now you are pitiful.

I dreamt of a girl I have not seen before in my life.

She was staring at me for a long time.

I read it as she needed a hug.

So I reached out my hands and gave her one.

Not me trying to analyse my dreams again.

But it just made me think about how I feel like I'm always giving.

But never ever receiving.

But that's the lie that I am telling myself too.

Look at the number of buts in the last three lines.

Crazy shit.

Going nuts here.

I'm out.