Ahh

Nice white space.
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The stress from school has been getting to me. And I'm so glad for this platform once again to write down everything. Been really panicky for submissions and datelines. I can't wait for school to end man.
Maybe listing down the amount of things to do helps.

1. Fyp VIVA - I have to meet two of my assessors for VIVA. One of them has confirmed to be tomorrow at 5pm. The other one has yet to reply and the dateline is tomorrow hahahaha. This is kinda stressful because it takes up a high percentage of my FYP.

2. Fyp presentation - 25 mins presentation on Wednesday. My slides are only like 1/3 done. And I haven't written anything for my script. Need to submit slides by tomorrow too. This takes a high percentage too.

3. PC4228 interview - lol this is just one annoying thing that my prof and I can't find a date and time to meet up. Basically talking about a report that I submitted. Kinda like another viva.

4. Short doc submission - Submission is on Friday 12pm. I forsee locking myself in the editing suite the whole of Wed and Thursday to rush this. The entire angle of the documentary has not been confirmed. The content is all over the place now. Colour correction, colour grading, audio, VO have not been done yet. Right and subtitles and captions. And I can't start until I finish my FYP stuffs on Wednesday. That leaves me less than 30 hours on rushing the rest of the edits. Definitely tough.

And I think the toughest part of this last 5 days in school is the combination of all of this together. It always sends me into a hyper panic mode in the morning. When I open my eyes, the only thing I think of is the amount of work I need to do. And then there's ML. Serving as an anti stress. But it kind of counteracts when ML makes me feel even more panicky and makes me criticise on my coping mechanism.

It is the last 5 days in school definitely, but it's really gonna be super tough. Writing these down makes me panic too. But nevertheless, school is about to end. Finally. I felt like I've been wasting alot of my time in uni. But I'm thankful for all the friends that I've made. And also settled my other FYP. :')

I guess things have been going really well and smooth for me in life. And my mental isn't as bad as it used to be? Because the frequency of me posting on my blog has significantly decreased. Not saying that the black dog is entirely gone, but thankful that I've been able to keep it at bay to accomplish task I need to. I'm also really thankful to my bao. She has added colours into my dull dark life.

5 more days. Can't wait. And also very excited for the next phase of life to begin. As much as it scares me too. But I think I rather have the capability to choose when I want to work, when I want to rest and when I want to play. I think it is super important for me because I don't think I can ever do well in life with a fixed schedule. I also feel like time pass faster when there's a fixed schedule. It's about time I slow down my pace of life and train of thought. To live a life I said I wanted to. 10 years ago. And it really is beginning soon.