Coping mechanisms

This post has been really delayed cause of finals.
I wanted to rant about how bad this climbing everyday thing is.
Like how I am so fucking stubborn when it comes to coping with injuries.
I know honestly, it was really an excuse for me to not study.
And I really just wanna pass time.
Okay but training for Philippines national was real too.
13 days in a row, broke the streak cause I realised I had alot to study for today's paper if not I'm gonna get screwed.
And at the end of it, it was pretty worth I guess cause I managed to do the first question properly. No smoking.
And yup spent the whole day after paper nuaing at meeting room.
Smoke Tetris macs with Claire then Tetris again do one tutorial question then aiya just damn toxic day.
Then once come back from dinner, climb.
Really no studying at all.
So at the back of my head when I was stressing so much about my finals, I realised I have a really bad coping mechanism.
When stress builds up, I like to avoid it.
And honestly, I can't reiterate the point about how accurate my climbing mind is with my everyday mind.
It just brings out my inner emotions onto the wall.
Yesterday went to Jason house for some xdm.
Felt the muscle relax really well.
And today on the school wall, after a good 1 day break, the climbing was so good.
I felt stronger than before I injured both my knee and shoulders (minus the moves that will cause it to hurt)
So I'm really really happy that the 13 days has helped me.
It has changed my body to a climbing body.
I was just experimenting with myself.
Like how the body evolves into a climber if I just keep doing the same things over and over again.
Telling the body the exact things I'm going through.
And my body is amazing, it reacts in a way that makes me flow as if I've done all of this move a million times.
I'm ready for Philippines nationals.
Let's do this man.
2 more climbing days and I shall rest well.
Very very excited for end of finals :)
Because baguio!!!!!
Really hope the team bonds after this team trip.
Last team trip best team trip.