The power of now

Honestly, reading this book has helped me in certain situations.
It keeps me sane sometimes.
But it also makes me super insane whenever I lose control of my head.
I think that if I were to consciously apply whatever I read into use, I could be a better human.
There's a lot of queries that were answered by this book.
Skeptical thoughts that popped out in my mind were asked in the questions.
In like a QnA style.
It's rather interesting.
One of the most interesting thing is the idea that the present is all that you have right now.
And going to the past or the future is something considered "unconscious"
It helps in a way.
I find it easier to realise how my head always likes to go to the past to seek a sense of identity.
And to go to the future, which always cause me to have a panic attack.
Maybe the thing I don't like about the book is the idea of spiritualism.
I like to have beliefs about my actions and thoughts.
But this book just throw it all away.
Saying that our current actions and thoughts are not really defined by what we do in the past.
I was skeptical about it because being present means to lose oneself.
But the book explains it in a way saying that we are not defined by our past.
It has helped me.
And I really hope that I could "remember" to be ever present in any situations.
Also, it thought me to be more aware of my own thoughts too.
It helps in silencing when I could try and focus on one individual thought at a time.
So much has happened in my mind these past few days.
Honestly, tired of listening to the thoughts sometimes.
When I'm tired I'll always just let them flow.
And whenever I let them flow, it'll just not stop flowing.
And I'll be super messy whenever.
Almost break down so bad just now.
I'm glad this habitual reminder to be present has helped to pull me back.
If it weren't habitual, it wouldn't help I guess.
A little bit like how lucid dreaming works.

Quite a bad day.
I want tomorrow to be better.
One day at a time.
One hour at a time.
One second
At a time.