School's starting

Hmmm
Don't know how to feel about it.
But I guess I've accepted the fact that I'm not going to rest properly before school starts.
Cherishing whatever that's left.

Things have been pretty heavy for me I guess.
Been thinking a lot about you.
I really don't know what things are going to be like.
The uncertainty isn't fun at all.
And I'm sure you feel the same way too.
But we said that we're not going to talk about "next time".
So I'm glad that we both agreed on "We'll see how"

And you, you just left too.
I know it's been 8 months but heck, I still think about you.
I'm glad though that I won't be seeing you around.
It affects me a little whenever I see you and know that we can't talk like we used to.
But I just hope that you're happy.
With what you have now.
And I will be too.

Hmm, and the team too.
It sucks for me to know that so many people are leaving.
I foresaw it coming anyway.
But not as painful as I think it'd be.
But I'm glad that I've made a choice nonetheless.
If not I won't be able to be at peace with myself.
I really hope that I made the right choice.
And that the sacrifice of friendships would be worth it ultimately for the team.
And whoever that is left, I wish that I have the capability to ensure that you guys get the best out of it.

BA is going to be over soon.
I'm left with NYC, and my own reimbursement stuffs to settle.
Post event report that I wish to bring the next marketing PD with me to meet Anthony.
And lastly, handing over everything to the new PDs.
Right and BA video.

FYP.
Fuck.
I don't know what's going on.
I really need to find out soon lol.
But yup.
I know that yuki probably is as lost as me.
Hopefully.
Then we can suffer together HAHAHA.

1 more year in NUS.
Let's give back to the team and make sure my juniors enjoy what I had in the past 3 years.
Climbing friends are my only friends in NUS (ok cept physics).
I hope they will feel like the team is as important as what I always perceive it to be.
And after 1 year, life is going to start.
I'm pretty excited for the next phase.
I'm ready for things to be shitty.
I hope.