Lost

One last paper.
But I'm not really doing my best I feel.
I got distracted.
I felt like I've gotten very much influenced.
I don't know how to feel or how to act.
Maybe I should stop before it gets too bad.
I know I should..
But part of me feels the opposite.
This continuous inner fight is real.
And that makes me feel unreal.
It feels like a dream.
That is happening too fast.
My mind can't catch up with what's happening.
Maybe I'm actually scared.
I'm shaking at the thought.
It really feels like a fast paced dream.
Stuck in this lucidity.
But I know I have a choice to get out.
Or continue living in this dream.
A mixture of true inner realism and a veil of disguise.
This is what I am feeling.
So what should I do?