Some motivation

Wew.
Last week was such a chill week.
It was so chill that I became very lazy.
But it was a week that allowed me to realise my distractions.
YouTube, Facebook, 9gag, Dota, Clash Royale.
You name it, the list gets longer.
Mid term results were out and it wasn't up to my expectations at all.
Scoring averages and below averages.
And I just blame it on the fact that other people are too smart and I'm not up for this shit.
But to be honest, I think I am just not as efficient as compared to those high scoring people.
So moral of the story is...
I GET DISTRACTED TOO EASILY.

So, why slight motivation?
Finals are really catching up fast.
Syllabus are ending real soon.
I feel the need to catch up to my snowball first before I can get above the edge.
But at least now I know my problems and hopefully this allow me to catch up with the snowball.
After this week, I want to work my hardest.
To really see how far I can go.
If my best is really lousy after this sem's finals results are out, then for the next three years I guess I will stop bothering as much.
This sem will be a gauge.
To how much I should put in.
And how much expectations I should give myself.
Expectations always lead to disappointment.
Then I guess to be happy, I need to revert the disappointment to appreciation.
Learn to appreciate my lousy grades and learn to appreciate the knowledge I've gained.
I think that's enough.
But yet again, this does not mean conceding defeat to my major.
It's just another way of viewing this education system.

I recalled the feeling of not having to submit my lab just cause I forgot about it.
And it felt so bad.
Like wtf, I did finish it but I forgot to submit.
It feels like a total waste of time.
But the moment I realised about it, I was on my way to drink with a couple of good friends.
And it just made me think.
Results are really just this small pi in the pi chart of life.
To be happier in life, we shouldn't worry so much about the small pis.
So what if you get a cap 3.1 for the previous sem.
So what if you get a cap 5.0 for the previous sem.
It does not mean that your whole life is gonna revolve around this number.
Consider how significant "this thing you are sad with" is as compared to the past happenings over your 20+ years old life that you've live with.
Does this feel as if your troubles became smaller less significant?

If I were to put it into more visual form, imagine two pi charts.
On the left, this pi chart depicts your priorities in life.
How important it is leads to a larger percentage on the pi chart.
And on the right, this pi chart depicts how much effort you are putting into the individual components.
Most would find that the pi don't match.
At least for me I know it doesn't match.
Things like family and relationships on the left pi are of greater significance.
However, on the right pi it seems to not reflect as well.
But instead, school work comes above all.
I think its really a good time to reflect about this two pi.
And I believe that if we are able to match our true priorities with how much effort we are putting in, i.e , the two pi having the same percentage in the different priorities, we will find that life will be more satisfying don't you think so?

So to be honest, when I'm talking about motivation, I'm not just talking about how I should stop getting distracted and start doing work.
It's more of like I decided to match my priorities with my effort more.
Work is really scary as it has a side effect of blurring the left pi.
So if you're reading this, give this two pi some thoughts.
Maybe you are doing well in life as you think you aren't.
Or maybe it could be the other way round where you think you're doing fine.
Give some thoughts for your pis.

Life of pi.
Wew