Thoughts

I love to blog.
Only when I'm really thinking and writing real stuffs.
If not I'm just trying to fill my blogs.
So people are updated of what I'm doing.
Blogging to me is like sleeping.
You feel organised and all your thoughts are placed properly after doing so.
The reason why I continue to blog is because sometimes I really have a lot of things in my mind that I want to scream out.
And some times, these things are hard to relate.
People won't fully understand what my thoughts are.
And I guess I don't really have anyone that I can confide to right now.
It's not I don't have friends.
I have many friends.
But what's the point of having so many friends when you don't know who to turn to when there's something in your heart that you are dying to share.
I don't know.
I really don't know why the feelings come and go so easily.
I really want to just don't care anymore.
Like just forget totally.
About everything that had happened.
And try to lead a new life.
And treat you, as a friend.
But that look, that look of yours killed me instantly.
All the things I've tried to forget come back in a snap.
It's been really long.
So long that it's starting to haunt me.
Can't get rid of the haunting.
I really want to just treat you as a friend.
But the only way is to avoid.
Either way it's not making sense.
If I want to treat you just like a friend, why would I avoid you.
But if I don't avoid you, I won't be treating you like a normal friend.
PARADOXICAL RELATIONSHIP?
Guess my life shall still continue as per normal.
走一步，算一步。
Climb to forget.