Girl on the bus

Was sitting 109 back home after dinner with Destin and Eugene at Taiwan Tasty.
Then saw this girl.
She boarded at one stop before Meridian.
Then she was walking so weirdly into the bus.
Like her legs crooked and as if she's drunk.
Like she cannot balance herself at all.
Then I was thinking, drink so much for what.
Then I despise her for doing so.
See, that's how fast I judge people.

She was standing beside me.
She is like around the age of 25?
Her face looks old for her age.
Like around 30 years old.
But somehow can tell she's not 30.
And I was hoping she doesn't vomit at me or something.
Then suddenly she kinda tried to twist her body to the seat opposite me.
That means she sat opposite me, face to face.
And I tried not to keep eye contact with her.
But her actions made me want to observe what kind of person she is.
She's acting damn strange.
Like she looks at her nails, and then her head will tilt left and right when she stared at her nails.
Then she was using her phone.
I was looking at her until her body had a random spasm at an instant.
Then it freaking dawned on me that she had cerebal palsy.
Because she boarded the bus at the bus stop.
And I felt so guilty all of a sudden.
All the judging by the cover.
I continued staring at her.
Inspired by how she looks so normal and everything.
Cause I see videos of people having cerebal palsy.
It's really hard for them to do stuffs.
I observed her throughout the whole journey back home.
She showed very little signs of cerebal palsy.
Or rather, you would just feel she's a little weird as compared to average people.
I wouldn't have tell if she didn't board the bus from that bus stop.
She was using her phone throughout the journey.
I think she's using twitter or something.
She smiled.
(But it didn't look like she smile actually, just show her teeth when she look at her phone.)
She looked happy.
And moments after she smiled, the bus turned and there was inertia.
She couldn't really resist the inertia due to her illness.
Like she had to lean her body in the other direction very significantly.
Then when the inertia was gone, she was still leaning to one side.
And then I started to think.
Why is she still so happy with life when she don't have the best of health.
And why am I feeling like shit every single day even I can walk properly, run, swim, climb, talk, lead a normal lifestyle.
She couldn't even drink her water properly.
It's hard for her to swallow.
But her perseverance with life is really astonishing.
It's really hard to explain how I'm feeling right now.
I feel that I'm wasting my normal life away.
I swear she would be so happy if she could lead my normal life.
But she couldn't.
But she's still happy.
I remembered Mr Tay told me in Secondary 4
"You're born to this world with nothing, so don't expect to have anything when you die."
Right now, think of it.
We have things with us.
We have our families, we have friends, we can do so many things.
But are we happy?
Learn to be more satisfied with small things.
Why are we happier when we are younger?
Because,
we smile at the smallest things.
We laugh at the silliest things.

Love life.
Cherish every single moment.
Because you can.
Maybe not for others.