Thoughts

Heart beats fast.
Happy together.
One question.
Will it work out?
It's really been so so long.
I'm starting to think it won't work out.
But I can't stop thinking.
Keep losing myself in reality during my time in JC.
I really hate this 2 years.
Or rather the studying part of it.
So little time to meet my secondary school friends.
But when I do, I make sure I catch up with them.
And make sure I make use of every moment I have with them.
So limited time with them.
How I wish those poly kids were with me in the same class.
Then we still can talk about life.
Now the only thing I talk about is school stuffs, stupid stuffs and climbing stuffs.
Where's the relationship talk, where's the friendship talk.
Have really been losing myself.
And I've tried for so long to try and find back myself and it's so damn difficult.
Or rather, maybe I've changed.
Maybe the old me has been gone forever.
But I still choose not to believe so.
I still feel that there's this part of me that is still beating, wanting to live life.
Live life happily.
Always my principle.
I guess I should spend more time alone.
So that I can really be myself.
And try to find back my old self.
But yet again, my old self isn't a really happy dude.
But it feels good to feel real.
Rather than fake happiness.