Future

My future seems so unsteady.
There's no clear image of what's happening in the future.
I'm just living day by day.
Don't know whether is it a sucky lifestyle or a exciting lifestyle.
I have personal goals.
But somehow, none of it is successful.
I can't see myself in the future.
Or rather, I can but not as a successful person.
I always picture myself as a hobo backpacking around the world.
Then with that picture in mind, other questions pop out.
Will there be somebody next to me in the future?
Who will it be?
Sometimes I think, why?
Why is nothing much changing.
It's like there's so many pretty and nice girls out there.
It's like once in a while, all of them seem so attractive.
But then in the end, there's just this someone in the heart that stops all the attraction.
I don't know how my mind works.
Well I guess it's because I've never been so close with girls before.
I'm honestly shy with girls around.
That's why I'm damn awkward when there's girls around.
Hahahahaha.
Another reason why I enjoy hanging out 11S103 guys.
Purpose of today's reflection is to understand about my future.
What is it that I really want?
How am I going to get it?
Life, there's still a lot of learning and understanding to be done.
It doesn't just stop here.
Knowledge is infinite.
Thus, the things you learn is also infinite.