Why

am I acting so strangely nowadays.

I'm even surprised by what I'm thinking sometimes.

Maybe I'm tired of stuffs.

Tired of chasing my dream.

Tired of trying too hard to make myself happy in life.

I just can't settle down and think straight now.

What's happening?

Think boy, think.

What is it I really want?

How do I go about achieving what I want?

Am I putting in my best in whatever I do?

Also, I'm really quite a bastard.

Today we got back our tests.

Wilfred got quite low for maths and I passed.

And there I was screaming that I passed and I even exclaimed "This shows that you don't have to do tutorial to pass."

I didn't even fucking realise I was being too much until Wilfred told me "Then you still down there celebrating."

I felt really really bad.

Like I'm letting my mouth speak before my brain process.

I tried not to judge.

But time and time again, I keep judging people.

By how they look at me.

By how they talk.

By keep observing around.

Seriously, why should I do that.

Another thing is about this very frustrating thing that has been going on in my mind.

And of course I can't tell anyone.

Unless the time is right.

Or maybe it isn't true.

I should really just reflect more.

I just realised how long haven't I reflect about the way I treat people and the way I say things.

And reflect on my actions.

It isn't very serious now though, but I hope it won't get worse.

But who knows, things won't always go your way.

Take one step at a time.

Slow down my pace.

And things gonna be alright.

COME ON WEEPIN.

Show everyone that you can do it!

Random fact of the day:

I drew a portrait of Cheryl Chai!

So fun!