Missing

Nostalgic.

That's how I'm feeling right now.

While reading all those lovely birthday cards/farewell messages I received last year, I teared.

I was so touched.

And sad at the same time.

Sad that everyone have to separate.

Sad that no one remembered what they wrote.

It's so sad to see that everybody's changing.

And it's sad to see everyone slowly getting sucked in by the cruel society.

Studies, fame, shit holes.

Everyone's trying to live life with a mask.

Who's real and who's not.

I want to go back to the past so badly.

Where I'm considered the childish little boy.

In most of the messages, all of them ask me to grow up, be more mature.

I'm the joke and the source of happiness for everyone.

Now, I don't think I can do that anymore.

Everything's so fake.

I miss a lot of thing.

I miss laughing in class with Elaine Gan.

Talking about Peh Ai Chin and Zombie Lee.

I miss talking in Chinese class with Li Ting, Jun Wen, Wing and Zong Han.

Li Ting asked me to stop pushing girl around.

I suddenly remembered.

The joy of walking to the Chinese Class / the joy of walking back to 401.

Always fooling around.

Pushing Li Ting from the back and then she will go "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Then she will give me a tight smack on my shoulder.

Why is it so different?

Why can't I find the happiness I have back then.

I miss that "real" in everyone.

It's been a long time since I teared.

I miss you the most.

Fuck all these shit.