I think I've been doing healthier

Mentally.

Just some rare nights here and there.

But it might be because I've been busy these days with work too.

But work aside, I've been spending my awake time / idle time appreciating music.

Like properly listening to music.

And I feel like damn, why haven't I done that when I was younger.

It's even the same for drawing.

Kinda regret now that I'm 29 but have never properly pursue things that I like.

Just wanted to write today because I wanted to talk about the music I've been finding recently.

Hip hop/ rap/ chill(?)

Recently enjoying swervy, yunhway, apoki and lil cherry ALOT.

Swervy and lil cherry for their hard raps.

It hits so hard that it feels like it kinda symbolises me trying to fight my demon yknow.

It reminds me that if I want to win the mental war, I've gotta be tougher than the fker in my head.

And these raps hit hard and some days it just makes me feel more confident as a person.

Like on a day to day basis, example when I'm climbing, I feel like I can express the rage in the music on the walls.

Or when I shoot, I can imagine the MV of these songs and I think it just makes me more creative (?)

But yeah, just wanted to log that I MLL yesterday but actually feeling quite alright.

Went to a wake yesterday and it was nice just seeing her and talking to her.

Hope she will be alright after the wake..

Ok I'm gonna continue drinking and listening to music.

But main main purpose of this post was really to talk about the appreciation of music and how it might have been the thing that's helping with my mental health.

Fight the demons with even harder shit.

And earn some self love and higher self esteem.

"So what if I have to reset my life?" might be the overall theme since last week.

Let's go?