Thursday, November 23, 2017

Worrying for someone

You know for me, sometimes I feel like a day isn't complete without worrying enough for the people around me.
It's like I feel bad for not worrying enough for them.
And I'll just start to add in additional things that I need to worry for them.
And then also sometimes feel the pain for these people when I "haven't worry enough" for them.
As if no one cares for them if I don't care.
It's quite a daily struggle for me especially at the end of a tiring day.
When you want to rest your head from all the things that have been happening.
There's no such a switch where I can turn off and bam, I just stop worrying for them.
But what else can I do?
Sometimes I imagine my worrying for them actually made them feel less alone in certain situations.
But sometimes I don't do anything in reality when I worry.
Which contradicts because they wouldn't know that I'm worrying for them.

But there are days when I'm just too tired to worry.
But I feel very bad that I don't the next morning.
What if something bad happened to them?
What if they needed me to ask them whether they were okay?
Then I'll fault myself for not caring that night.

I don't know man.

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