Not the best of time but..
Suddenly just 'popped out' of my head while smoking in the toilet just now.
I realised I haven't been talking to most of my friends.
Was scrolling through insta and looking at wilfred and wei lun's photos.
And I'm just thinking how long I haven't had a proper talk with Wilfred.
Or like how long I haven't properly talked to my old friends.
Everyone's just in exchange.
Kenny, Ivan, Vincent, Wei Lun.
I guess everyone's just leading their own life too.
It's kinda weird to think about this right now.
But to realise I've really been too caught up with my own head that I don't even have time to catch up with friends.
I wished my mind wasn't a needy one.
It cries for its own attention.
Sucking itself in.
Twirling down into something I can't even have control over.
Well I mean when I close my eyes tonight and open them tomorrow morning, this sudden 'pop out' would just disappear and that mundane life stuck with the own head will just continue.
I have so much to catch up on with school too.
It's week 6 and I feel that school hasn't really started.
It's just been a mess with no direction.
Skipping lectures, telling tutorial friends I'm sick.
Crashing in day times.
What else can I say?
It's just been a fuzz ever since things have became this way.
Well then again, the self-doubt is kicking in.
Whether I'm really out of my head for a moment.
Or is it just a 4:21am thought.
I don't know.
And I shan't go there before I sleep.
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