Reflections

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Realised I haven't really reflect about my life ever since my leg broke.
School has started for 5 days and I'm guessing things are pretty much more settled down now.
And there's some time for me to start reflecting about life recently before the semester gets busy.

Was just reading this blog (link above).
Came across from facebook where a few of my friends shared "Why we behave our worst to the ones we love most?"
I think it's really an interesting question because I'm pretty sure all of us are guilty of this.
Just this morning, I shove my mum off when she tried to hold my arms when I was about to fall.
Well, it really wasn't on purpose.
It was instinct I guess.
And I felt kind of guilty after that.
But sometimes it's just me in the morning.
My temper has been like that since young.
And yeah I'm probably angry at the fact that I feel useless.

But yeah, talking about my life now.
I think I feel a lot more free now.
Not physically.
But the fact that I get to spend some alone time myself.
I'm finally out of my house, out of everywhere with people.
That moment when you're just the spotlight of the things around you.
I always love that feeling.
I used to get that feeling whenever I smoke in cold weather alone.
It makes me think.
But oh well, it's been 30 days since I last smoked.

Ahhhhhhhh.
It's 3:53pm now, 7 minutes to my next lecture.
Just sitting here and chilling.
I was just wondering, how different I have become after the incident.
But for now I'm pretty sure I get easily irritated.
Some things that got me irritated recently.
Missing the bus because I can't run.
Cannot walk down the stairs normally without support.
Cannot walk up slope cause my ankle can't bend.
And a few more here and there.

But I guess I still need to remember that it's really a miracle that I'm already walking 1 month later.
I think I shouldn't rush things.
But you know me.
Asking me to be so inactive is like.
ARGHHHH.
Damn annoying.

On a side note, really hope I will do better this semester.
Because last sem was really very bad.
3.1 is so fuck.
Haven't heard anyone worst than me.
Lol.
So yeah, going to become more organised and hopefully things will be better!
Time to start printing notes and doing tutorials for a start.
Hahahaa.

Kay, I'm gonna rush for lecture.
Will write again when the feel for life comes looking for me.
See ya!