Down it goes

Hello guys.
I felt so stupid.
Doing a pocket route when I wasn't even warmed up.
Taking things for granted.
Have been climbing well without any major injuries for almost 3 years.
And today I met up with one.
It sucks so bad to be so psyched on the way to onsight after school ended.
And that psyche died off immediately on the second route of the day.
Less than 5 minutes of climbing.
I was in so much shock when I pulled my ring finger.
It was painful yes.
I shouted.
But the more painful thing was the thought of not being able to climb today.
Or any time soon.
It hurts so bad.
It sucks.
To know that I'm going to take a long break from climbing.
However, I'll probably still train the other parts of my body.
Not an excuse to stop training and laze.
Especially when the motivation to get stronger is there.
Sigh.
Really bad day.

But anyway, thanks to all those who were at the gym asking about my finger.
Appreciated it.
But today, I realised that my captain Shi Yu is really a passionate climber.
Okay not today.
Maybe two weeks ago, when he was shouting to fight on a 7c back in school.
Early in the morning at 8+ am.
I really love passionate climbers.
I remember there was once during one competition, (can't remember which) where Dennis was emo-ing after the comp.
And it really shows how climbing is so important for him.
And today, the look on Shi Yu's face showed exactly the same thing.
It was a bad day for him.
And I felt how he was feeling because I had bad days before.
It just sucks to be training so hard but yet, it seems like there's no results.
And you ask yourself "How hard must I train"
It's really tiring to fight that mental part of getting stronger.
Because there's this part of you that will be like "How hard can I train when I'm already training this hard"
Yeah but I guess I could say I had it worst than Shi Yu today.
At least he still can climb and redeem himself.
I can't do nuts.
This sucksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
Sigh.