Last shag of OCS

Tomorrow will be the last day and the last time my platoon will be doing something together.
Since I woke up with thoughts of Platoon Assault Course (PAC) in my head, means I probably feel it's a burden.
Morning thoughts are always of things that affect you the most.
I GUESS.
So I find it so damn difficult to wake up cause of PAC.
I'm like, FUCKKKKKKKK tomorrow got PAC.
I'm really not looking forward to it.
Anyway, I was also thinking of the times after I commission.
I'm damn scared I won't be a good PC.
I don't know a lot of drills.
I don't even know how to set up trip flares and claymores.
I don't know how to breech cause I'm always not the breeching team.
What if next time my man ask me questions like this and I can't answer them?
Helpless.
But well, the really good thing is OCS is coming to an end.
I'm 27 more days to commissioning.
Mixed feelings.
Happy that I'm going to get my bar.
But sad that the platoon is going split ways.
Means I probably won't meet up with them so often anymore.
Not like 5 times a week at least.

Just waiting for that day to come.