WHOOOSAYY

I've finally become a camp facilitator for the first time.
My first work.
Under Adam Khoo.
This job surprises me.
It's been a long time since I socialise with people.
Staying at home and dota like for the past months.
Finally stepping out of my house, out of my comfort zone and become a camp facilitator.
Even typing on computer now feels so weird.
I'm so tired now but I really have a lot to say.
This camp has changed me quite abit.
So this is quite an important thing to blog about.
It's only a short three days.
I'm allocated with a Normal Technical Class.
On the first day (training day), I was really afraid that the students would be very difficult to handle.
And I kept telling myself not to stereotype these students.
NT students are normally better as what I would have thought.
But sadly, the students that I have received are exactly the same as what I would have thought.
Inattentive, aimless, rowdy no respect for people.
EXACTLY MY STEREOTYPE.
And now, I would have to lead them for the camp.
They are secondary 3 students, and I thought they would be fine as they are not sec 4 or sec 5.
And they only recently became sec 3 students.
My expectations of them were too high at first.
Not saying that my expectations were high.
I just wanted them to listen to me and do all the activities well.
And share my life story with them.
But no, 3T1 students are so naughty that even Mash (my camp partner who has 5 year of experience) find it difficult to handle them.
There are bullies in the class and people who get bullies.
Malay and Chinese.
Hooligans and students who want to enjoy the camp.
Now I understand how the teachers of 11S103 feel.
You want to do your part, but half the class are creating problems for you.
You waste time to solve the problem but things aren't solve.
You feel that you have wasted time trying to solve the problem, should have just ignored the rest.
But you feel guilty and can't continue.
You're at a lost.
You feel like quitting.
AND, that's all the thoughts that are going through my mind.
PLUS, my confidence to speak in front of a crowd is very low.
So can you imagine? Low confidence with a bunch of students that even facilitator with 5 years experience have problems with?
The first day of the camp was really a bad experience.
I wanted to tell Jeremy that I wanted to quit this job and go home and sleep.
But somehow I decided to continue, for the sake of respecting this job and respecting all the coaches, especially Mash.
If I just give up now, wouldn't that make me a loser.
Went back with a new attitude, got thrown back down by them.
They were really a difficult bunch.
Mash came out with an idea, and that is making them feel guilty.
How does he does so?
He ask me to hold push up position together with him.
That is to give them a message that it is our fault for their bad behaviour.
Because as facilitator, we fail if the class ain't listening.
And that worked perfect.
Only after 15 mins (not saying 15 mins of push up position is easy)
They realised their mistakes and then they became a class together by joining in the push up position together.
The notorious guys all realised their mistakes and hold push up position together.
That was the most touching moment I had in the camp.
The rest of the days were a lot more easier.
Most of the leading were done by Mash.
And that was what I really want to thank Mash.
He has his ways with students.
And his way of leading people are very effective.
That's somehow the camp.
I'm really very tired to blog now, I don't know what I'm blogging.
Hahahaha.
But overall, it was really fun and I met a lot of people!
Gonna meet those coaches on Monday for another camp.
But it's a one day event.
Hahahaha, kinda miss my 3T1 guys and all the coaches.
Been a long time since I have this camp camp feeling.
Feel so young again!