My life as a JC kid

Hello everyone.
My life in JC has come to an end a month ago.
To be honest, I'm kinda missing the people there.
But no, I seriously don't want to go through that kind of life ever again.
I'm going to go through really in detail what has happened in 2012.
Most of the things I'm going to say will be my life as a JC2.

Going to JC, the most significant thing that have changed a lot is the way I communicate.
I'm careful of what I say.
Because people here can't take jokes as much as people from XMS.
People here judge.
I've turned into someone who cares about dignity.
Yeah shit hole.
I care about how people view me as a person.
That's why I tone down.
That's why I become less guai lan.
And that's why I become less funny.
Because I know if I say a joke which is not funny, everyone will be like "fag".
I don't even dare to joke.
But this year, I really wanted to change.
I want to stop all this crap.
I want to be myself.
But no, there's no opportunity at all.
The only small chance that I can be myself is when I'm with the 11S103 guys.
But still, there's this barrier I have with everyone in this school.
I can't open up.
Which is the reason why I'm becoming weirder and weirder each day.
Too many things in my head.

This was a blog post I made in 30 January.
I remembered the only way I survived in the first few months of school was climbing.
I really can't stand school and every time on tuesday / thursday , I will look at the time and really hope the time passes quicker.

On a happier note, Orientation 2012 was fun.
Got to be A2's OGL together with Celestine and Deon.
It was..... KINDA WEIRD MIX.
And some more the people in A2 are very different from us.
Or at least very different from me.
But well, it was quite okay in the end.
Really appreciate how my OGMs appreciate me as their leader.
Especially Pauline.
Hahaha.

So after orientation, things start to get a bit quicker.
School really sucked that bad.
Can't carry myself to every lecture / tutorial.
Always going to the toilet and canteen to buy food during lecture.
Cause what I felt that time was "Why the fuck am I studying all this shit when I can lead a happier life outside?"
And that's probably the cause for everyday's gloominess in school.

Hahahaha, these are bees.

I think our ceiling lights look like honey combs to them.

AND THIS KINDA HAPPENED....

They're all hanging on each other.

Like wtf.

Since school was so boring everyday, things like this really make me go from -.- to o.o 

There was this awesome period of time where I would keep cycling out of school with Eugene to buy macs from Elias Mall.

That was really something I looked forward to every day.

UNTIL SOMEONE STOLE MY BIKE.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Oh and either that, we will spend our breaks at 7 11 across the road.

That was fun too.

Until we get caught by the Vice Principal, saying that it's so dangerous to cross the road and stuff.

Like WTF, seriously?

Okay shall posts more picture of 2012.

ERRRRRRRRRR.

This is kinda what 11S103 boys would do after school.

We were trying to clean up the whiteboard and....

Well I guessed the class looked cleaner now?

Don't worry, we really cleaned it up afterwards.

We aren't that insensible.

It was really that bored in lecture so.. DREW.

Really into drawing stuffs that time.

Cause it's so boring.

YI REN'S BIRTHDAY.
When all the guys are still around.
This was probably the only time when all the guys were together.
WITHOUT ANY GIRLS.

 Yup, Abang's dog face as usual.

And yeah school was really boring.
Even sleeping at climb asia was better than being in school.

Oh and it was Wilfred's birthday.
Audrey pasted a lot of photos around school.
LOL, I crushed it and it became like this.

COLOSSEUM.
Trying out the glitter which is super disgusting.

Atlas Cheerleading

Hahaha the colosseum period was really awesome.
Spent time with my 9th Atlas House Comm and stressing out on what to do.
TOGETHER WITH STUDIES.
That was probably why I screwed up mid years.
And of course my laziness.
But I think it was really worth the time.
But you know, CHEER LEADING.
The bondedness just dies off in a month or so.
Just like our old batch.
So sad man.
Hahaha.
But yeah, got to get close to a few juniors like Jin An, Chawit, Shaon.
OH and not forgetting that's how the 9AHC got close to Matthew.
Hahaha.


AND YUP, NOTHING MUCH JUST DOTA EVERY NIGHT.
What's new?

After school going to the gym and meeting up with climbing friends.
Really take my mind off schoolwork.
And it'll probably come back when I'm at home.
THIS THE REASON WHY I NEVER DO TUTORIALS AND GET SCOLDED EVERYDAY BY TEACHERS.

Josh's birthday at Michael's house.
Small celebration haha.

Wow.
This ant's nest brought a lot of memories.
There was this period of time when Joshua was a pyromanaic.
Yes, we hid lighter fluid, deodorant and lighter in our class.
OUR CLASS IS REALLY FULL OF THINGS.
And yeah, we kinda burned down the ant's nest.
It's just outside the school.
LOL.
Really damn naughty, cannot stand it.

DRAWING AGAIN.
But got caught by Mr Nah.
Wtf, damn pek cek.
I spent super long drawing her.
It's Ashima btw.
I KNOW IT SUCKS.

Playing with fireeeeee.
IN CLASS.

Playing with LT5's projector.
And that's nicholas in the background hahahaha.

CHUN LI

This happens when being naughty in school wasn't enough.
AND YES, we all got busted by the staffs for running around in the masks.
HAHAHAHA.
Fucking joke.

And there was my most awesome birthday.
THANKS WILFRED AGAIN.
I'm really loving my bike :)
Meet up very soon.

My awesome birthday gift.

Freak, looking at this picture just reminded me that I asked a girl for number.
CAUSE I was supposed to be all "high" and get number from her.
But well, she wasn't in school.
So I asked for her number 6 days later.
AND I GOT IT.
But it's really nothing.
Seriously.
Just wanted to make friends but I guess in the wrong way?
HAHAHA.
That's what hanging out with 11S103 guys make me become.
Well at least when I play "I have never...." the game in the future, when someone says I have never ask for a girl's number, I could put down one finger.
LOL, okay jokes aside, was really quite upset about the RUMOURS I heard.
And really disappointed with my awkwardness.
Like fuck this, I'm such a faggot.
Don't even dare to do something.
Sad.

And yeah, Ivan, Kenny, Vincent, Chelsea, Salin and Ying Ting came over to my house to celebrate my birthday (SECOND ROUND)

BALANCE.

Erm, I think it was the last official day in school.
Grad day.
HAHAHA.
See Doctor Vaz at the background.
Doctor Vaz is really a nice teacher :)

A FEW WEEKS BEFORE A LEVELS.
Was studying and then fell asleep and..........

Hahaha.

Pictures aside, I could have said I really enjoyed and hated my life in JC.

Enjoyed all the stupid times spent together with my 11S103 guys.

It was really crazy.

It really made me feel like I'm in a fucking JUNIOR COLLEGE.

Where shit happens.

Comparing my life with all the other people in school.

I can say my life is top 5% in the cohort.

Results wise maybe bottom 5% LOL.

Nah just kidding, I'm not so dumb.

Maybe Abang will be below.

HAHAHA.

Changing clique in the start of 2012 wasn't something that happened in a day.

I was with Wilfred, Celestine, Audrey, Chai, Li Ying and Destin's group.

I don't know why but I kinda drifted from them.

Celestine wrote me a letter during my birthday and what she said kinda affected me.

She didn't write anything BIG but it really made me reflect on what kind of a person I am.

The sense of guilt.

Kinda.

Joining the 11S103 guys clique made me really crazy.

Doing things I haven't done before.

If I wasn't in the 11S103 clique, I will be so shameful to have these people as my classmates.

But when I'm inside, no, it's really different.

I swear everyone in school HATES us.

The teachers especially.

We met the Vice Principal and Principal countless times for discipline problems.

Like they're our friends already.

Then teachers scold us almost everyday, cause we don't do tutorials everyday.

Until they gave up.

And they kinda like just teach those people in the front two rows.

I guessed that work, because we started to panic about A levels.

All the funny laughing shit suddenly stops and everyone started studying real hard.

And in the end, I must say I really did my best for A levels and I also kinda enjoyed my life inside if not for the studying part.

And if I were to ask myself again, whether choosing JC was the right choice, I would say yes.

The attitude that I've put in for the last few months before A level really taught me things.

When it's time to be serious, be serious.

That's something I would take away from JC life.

And I really want to thank those people who have been my listening years.

It's kinda gay but lastly, I really want to thanks WILFRED for always being there for me, always reading my blog, always sharing things with me and always letting me share things with you.

This 2012 would be very different without you.

I would have no one to talk to about STARER.

HAHAHA.

Hahaha, this post was supposed to be emotional.

Like REALLY emotional.

But I guessed five and a half hour of sleep isn't enough for me to write a good post.

And yup, that marks the end of my post.

Need to go exercise with John!

Before he goes back to Phillipines :(

Yup, that's about it.

Happy new year everyone!

It's NEW YEAR'S EVE

Hi all, it just turned new year's eve an hour ago.
And I'm gonna get so emotional tomorrow (as in when I wake up)
Tomorrow gonna post the longest post ever.
IF I don't get too drunk at timbre that is.
Gonna write about my life in MJC, and the feelings that have been with me the 2 whole year.
Woooo.
Or maybe tomorrow morning I will wake up and write.
Alright, I think tomorrow morning better.
OKAY stay tune.
Don't worry, it won't be a boring long post that is filled with words.
I'm gonna try to add some pictures if I can find.
Hahahaha.
Good nights everyone!

I knew you were trouble

That unexpected twist of the chorus.
Hahaha.
Listen to it yourself.

Climbing was gooood

It will suck every climbing sessions if I only remembered how hard I fell INSTEAD of remembering how glorious ending a route is.
Cause I didn't finish quite a lot of routes.
And I felt weak.
LIKE EVERY WEEK.
Yet on the other hand, I finished my 2 weeks project.
It's like wow.
Seriously.
Gotta be more satisfied with myself, if not I will die grumpy.
Hahaha.
Great climb, great company, great fooling around with Cong, Aizat and Sebas.
Haha.
Allezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Gonna train hard!

ODAC

Odac people really never change.

I remembered making a post last time.

Saying that no matter how long we haven't meet up, when we meet up, it'll always be full of bullshit.

From JOE MOH especially.

HAHAHA.

He never fails to make me laugh.

I know it's gay.

But you won't understand unless you know this fat guy called JOE MOH.

Freaking annoying but in all seriousness, there is no seriousness in his shit.

OKAY that aside, it's really nice catching up with all the ODAC people.

It's really been a long time since everyone came together.

But not EVERYONE was there.

I think it could have been more fun.

Hahaha.

But nevertheless it was really a good session.

Talking and doing dares in the middle of the night.

Got dared to eat grass.

ATE.

In the morning today, everyone left cept me and Mannan.

We decided that it was too early to leave.

So we stayed in the sea and lepak awhile.

Then when everyone left, went to bathe and then ate tuna breads for breakfast.

Couldn't finish so Mannan threw the bread on the floor.

LOL.

Took some pictures in the morning, hahaha.

Didn't take pictures during the drinking game but I swear it was damn fun seeing everyone trying to hold their pee.

Luckily I never drink much.

(Different drinking game, minimum alcohol) 

Hahaha.

Yup so these pictures were in the morning.

Exactly a year since I slept in a tent.

So nostalgic.

But it's kinda sticky and you know uncomfortable.

LOL.

 The view from inside the tent. 8am? Hahaha.

Made tuna bread while waiting for Mannan to bathe finish.

And all these breads, nobody wanted to bring home.

It was mannan's idea.

LOL.

Yeah really had fun.

Laughed a lot at macs at 5am+ with jesslyn and mannan.

Lol.

Okay I need to sleep, don't know what I typing already haha.

Nights people.

Hahaha

I swear tetrisfriends people are damn nice.
Oh it's just some online tetris server where you can play real time with people all over the world.
Just finished a game with this guy from somewhere which has the time 2.32 pm when it's 3.23 am here.
LOL.
You talk to them and they reply, tell you about their life and stuffs.
Yeah I know it's online and strangers but still, it's cool.
Remembered the other time I asked whether it's snowing over at their country.
Then that guy said, nope, I live by the beach, it doesn't snow here.
LIVING BY THE BEACH.
Playing tetris.
And around 30 years old.
LOL.
I was like 30??? That's damn old.
But he was like nah, when you reach 30 you'll still feel young.
Then another 30 yo guy was like yeah man.
LOL.
Okay really random post but yeah.
CIAOXZSXZS.

Woooo

Didn't blog yesterday.
But it was a damn funny climbing session.
Because John was drunk when he came to the climbing gym.
That cb damn annoying.
Keep poking his finger into my shoes.
Then keep pushing me.
But wtf, he drunk climb still better than me.
Though he can't fall properly.
Then we started doing stupid stuffs.
Pouring liquid chalk on our hands and then using our finger, dip into the chalk and then draw on each other's bicep.
#thingsclimbersdo
LOL
Really damn idiotic.
But yeah, climbers are kinda all retarded at times.
Yea and today, just came back from meeting Kenny.
ARMY BOY LUH.
Went to eat at Mad Jack with him, Ivan and Vincent.
Quite shiok sia the burger.
And they owe me $6 so my meal was damn cheap.
Hahahaha.
Okay then went home and it's only 5.14 pm now.
I just woke up like 3 hours +.
Hahahah.

Hohoho

Really boring day.

Dota dota dota.

Hahaha.

Then went to swim and then back home dota.

Kinda miss xinmin all of a sudden.

Looking through all the old photos.

It REALLY felt like home then.

When you know everyone is part of this home.

And you'll know that you'll never get left behind.

Grades doesn't matter.

Friendships are important.

Soccer is fun.

Where are those days?

In a few years time, it's going to be busy time.

Army, University and then work.

And there goes 10 years of my life.

Seriously, 10 years.

I can do so much.

If I don't have to go through this system where people deem as necessity, I would probably be doing much more useful things.

Or I may be like Chris Sharma in 10 years.

Just kidding, he's too hardcore.

It's really weird, getting pulled slowly into the Norms of the world.

Nothing is special anymore.

Damn.

Climbing alone

LOL climbed alone today.
Okay maybe not alone, just not with kakis.
At least got kah wei.
Hahahaha.
Have been working on this "easy" dyno to no avail.
Like wtf it should be easy.
But I still haven't done it after 30 attempts I think.
LOL.
But not bad, at the end of the session, managed to set this route.

Probably gonna finish it on Monday.

Isn't too hard.

Hahaha.

Fun routes are fun.

So lazy to blog

Hahahahaha.
Yesterday was a good day with ODAC people.
It was kinda awkward cause I was the only guy there, other than Jonathan lim.
Then it got better at night where we just sat down and talk.
At some rooftop.
Hahaha.
The starbucks chat was still the best.
They ask me about guys things and I answered everything truthfully.
And I've realised that guys and girls are REALLY VERY DIFFERENT.
Like totally different.
A small action may lead to some consequences which the opposite party don't even realise.
Then thoughts just moved back to the past.
Seems like I understand quite a bit from yesterday's talk.
Hahaha.
Cool stuffs.

Wow

Haven't been blogging for sometimes because I've been climbing consecutively last 2 days.
It's really tiring.
Hahaha.
Just woke up today, with a really bad dream.
One of my childhood phobia.
Dolls.
Fuck man.
There was sadako and she could control those dolls.
And somehow, I knew that one of my friend is going to die.
I know when, and where.
The how was by Sadoko's doll.



Yes this mother fucking kind of dolls.
It gaves me the creeps when I even googled "dolls"
Cb.
Yup so the scene was at Japan.
All the old wooden houses (bungalows)
I really can't remember much (not saying I want to remember) but this doll kills by decapitating with a knife.
Can you imagine this doll above holding a knife and slicing your friend's head off.
And you have to witness all of this in the dark.
With Sadako standing beside you.
Holy fucking dream.

Walk around day

MICHAEL PLANNED AN OUTING TODAY.
YI DA ME MICHAEL AND TUBS.
AND HE HAD NO PLANS.
So we aimlessly walked around for hours.
Literally.
Freak.
Was quite pissed off at first because I could have spent my times doing other things.
But come to think about it, that's how the 103 guys live our life away in our J2 times.
HAHAHA.
Walk around look at people.
Nothin to do go ToysRus play.
Hahaha many many bull shit.
But it was fun la.
In the end we decided to go pool at Katong.
Teamed with Michael.
Hahaha.
Lost all my secondary school skills.
Last time super zai.
Tsk.
HAHAHA.
Okay so after playing pool, we headed to eat dinner at basement chicken rice.
Then got this not bad looking girl.
Then asked Michael to say hi to her from outside (separated by a glass)
LOL and he really did.
But too bad the girl didn't see.
OR the girl acted not to see.
Hahaha.
Stupid things we do, but so much fun.
Gonna go swimming with them on Tuesday!
Gonna climb tml.
Shag.
Haven't even rest properly.
Hahahha.
Too bad John can't climb on Tuesdays.
Nvm!
For the sake of gaining back my strength, CLIMBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB.
Wooooo.

Climbing and Dota

What else can I do?
Hahahha.
But today's climb was satisfying.
Starting to get my pinch back.
But kinda injured my knee again.
Boooo.
Hope to get stronger soon!
Even though I'm not taking part in competitions, it feels good to finish a route.
And everyone's face when you finally finished after doing so many times.
Hahahaha.
Did this route freddy gave today.
A sit start and then there was quite a big crowd, like 15 people?
Then I did I think 6 / 7 times, all damn close.
Then finally finished it.
So happy.
Then everyone smiled at me too.
That's the spirit.
So heartwarming.
Yeah that's about it .
Not going to blog a long bunch of bullshit.
Hahaha.
Zhi Wen didn't come today, but Jia Cong did.
Jia Cong didn't deproved much.
Interesting.
Hahaha.
Then dinner time me, Aizat, Sebas and Cong compete to see who can suck up the dao huey in the fastest time.
Jia Cong won me by split seconds while the two of us won Aizat and Sebas.
They damn slow.
HAHAHA.
Oh wait, sucking up USING A STRAW.
Hahaha.
Okay bye damn tired.
Hahaha.

Pulau Ubin

Went Ubin with Chin Yue, Leon and Shan Leong today.
Wooo.
It was quite fun.
Or rather it was damn fun.
It's been a long time since I go outdoors.
Feel so ORHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHyeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Yup kinda that feeling.
And boom it rained the moment we stepped into Ubin.
Fucking boss.
Okay I took a video of the start.
I swear the journey was back and fro Check Jawa was 10 times more exciting than this video.

Hahaha yup so walked to Chek Jawa.
Freaking far.
Especially when it's raining, walking on dirt path seemed even harder.
Cause of the rocks and sand.
And vision was shit.
But the atmosphere was still lively.
Hahaha.
Went to chek jawa and then went down to the tides.
Spotted some crabs below.
Oh Chin Yue found a Durian on the floor on the way.
Freaking carried it all the way from near cookie monster to chek jawa.
LOL.
And then Leon brought a SWISS ARMY KNIFE.
Don't know for what but we managed to open it.
Didn't get to take a picture of it.
But we got like 10 yellow delicious durian inside.
YA right.
We got 0.

It's freaking not ripen yet.
LOL.

Yup the rain subsided. CLEAR SCENERIES.

Me and Leon exposed our **** for 5 seconds since there wasn't anyone around HAHAHA.

Look what I've found.

A freaking big horseshoe crab.
But it's dead.
Sad.
Yup so headed back to Chek Jawa when it started raining.
Then freaking cold and wet throughout.
Made back to Jetty alive.
Hahaha went to the shoreline to look for PURPLE CLIMBER.
A crab.
Hahaha but instead we found a lot of other crabs.
Flipped rocks and stuffs.
And found a lot of useless crabs.
Okay we found hermit crabs.
Around the side of your thumb.
Yup, then keep falling down on the slippery rocks there.
Slipped and land on my hands.
And that means on all the freaking barnicles.
BLOOOOOOOOOOD.
Emo.
Hahahah.
It was very fun.
Even though there was only 4 of us.
Yup so went back to dinner and then headed home.
:)
Just dota-ed.
GONNA SWIM TOMORROW.
IF THE RAIN FREAKING STOP COMING.

You know what?

I'm becoming slightly stronger each climbing session!
Hahaha.
Really want to thank John for accompanying me yesterday.
Like even though he can join the pros and climb, he climbed with me.
Giving me easier routes and slowly getting harder.
Hahaha it was so depressing when I can't do anything.
Oh and I managed to finish Yu Kai's ROUTE.
Hahahah.
From last week.
From cannot do become can do.
Yup so after climbing, went to old airport eat with John and Yong Sheng.
Then bought dao huey back.
Then dota with shan leong until 4am.
LOL.
The last round won 3v5.
Shiok.
Okay bye!

Boo

Went to chomps with Jun Wen and Kelvin last night.
Had some good dinner but had to wait freaking 40 minutes for the food.
Lol.
Then Jun Wen had to leave early to send his friend off at the airport.
Then I accompanied Kelvin to buy his udders.
Yup so cycled home and then kinda dota all the way.
Until 2.30 or something Vincent called me and ask me whether I wanted to supper.
So went down to green to eat prata with him, Kenny and Ivan.
Hahah Kenny's going Tekong tomorrow.
Emo.
Yup so after that came my house downstairs to talk.
Talk until 4.30am then went back home.
Shag.
Just woke up half an hour ago.
It's 2.30pm now.
Screwed body clock haha.

WTF SALIM

Today is a WTF salim day.
First he asks us to meet him.
And then we all reached a bit later.
But it was reasonable.
Like 10 mins later than he is.
And he didn't appear for the whole outing.
2 HOURS.
With 40 miss calls or so.
It's crazy.
Ya but in the end eat with Kenny and Ivan.
Then Chong Yu came.
For AWHILE.
And then he went to work at the anaki records.
Lol.
Then the rest of us went home.
Me and Kenny were stalking this girl.
LOL.
She boarded the same bus.
Then alighted at the same stop.
She live in our area!
Blah then went home dota.
Sian.
Last round lost.
Too shag already.

I GOT SEASON PASS

Saw BOTAK HIA.
Hahahaha.
It was kinda a good climb yesterday.
Can do slightly harder routes already.
But my skin still damn pain and my left knee still hurts.
BUT OVERALL I'M GETTING MORE OKAY.
I think around 5 more sessions and I'm back on track.
And another 5 more sessions to get back to where I was last time.
So exciting.
Anyway, climbed with Zhi Wen and HE IS AS WEAK AS ME.
So happy that someone is like that too.
LOL I know it's not something to be happy but yeah, we both are happy that we have each other's accompany.
Hahaha.
His is cause of Army.
Mine is cause of A levels.
Hahaha.
Nvm, we will get back together!
Anyway before he left, sat down to talk to him.
Hahaha.
He told me about his current army life.
He says he hate it.
I don't know how I will treat Army like.
It seems far but some people like Salim and Kenny already going in in 2 or 3 days time.
Yup after he left, went to climb with Valerie and Min Jian.
Oh Elaine left early too.
So the three of us climbed.
I climbed until around 7+ then I go do PT.
Then talked to this guy who is in charge of taking pictures for boulder active 2012.
He made the video and I remembered liking it on facebook because it's one of the best video in SG that I've ever seen.
Yup so talk talk and then left at around 9.30.
Went to eat kway chay with MJ and then headed home.
DOTA with CYUE and DEON and slept at around 1+
Woo.
Just woke up.
Bitches!
Okay shall go watch REEL ROCK 2011!!#@!#!

Thoughts

JUST WATCHED THE MOVIE MARS NEED MOM.

So touching.
Hahaha.
Makes me realised that I have been a really bad son.
I don't spend time with my parents.
I take them for granted.
Always not listening to what they've got to say.
There's really more to this world that we all live in.
What if 21 December was real?
What would I regret not doing.
I would definitely regret not taking care of my parents.
And instead chasing my dreams.
Come on, life is that short.
You'll never know what may happen tomorrow.
And I'm actually tearing while writing all this.
I feel guilty you know.
Always shouting at them.
I really need to change.
Please, be good to your parents wee pin.
They aren't going to be with you forever.
Cherish the time.





On a side note, went to eat Bak Kut Teh with Chin Yue today.
At Joo Chiat.
Good dinner, good chat.
Saw Leon too at I12.
So the three of us went to drink.
MILO PENG AND TEH PENG.
Hahahaha.
Yeah and we saw Zul, Charlotte Siow.
Kinda see a lot people today.
Yup gonna go sleep.
Gotta go climbing tomorrow!

Damn

There's always this dream.
Where you get so close to a girl.
And everything was so damn fine.
And then poof, it's a dream.

doing nothing lately

why is this holiday so boring.
Blah.
Okay at least I cycled to swim at anchorvale today.
And then cycled back.
The journey back was awesome.
The wind blowing on my wet hair.
So cooling.
And free.
OHHHHHH YEAHHH.
A levels was worth the suffering.
I guess.
To make me see how much I can enjoy right now.
Hahahaha.
Feel sad for all the J1s right now.
Lolol.

My climbing attitude

Haven't been properly blogging these few days.

Too busy having fun.

Hahahaha.

Anyway been to climbing today.

Woke up early even though I was a little drunk from last night's drink at Kenny's house.

Celebrated his birthday.

Kinda.

Hahaha there was me, Ivan, Vincent, Salim and of course Kenny.

Yup played circle of death, bridge, dai di.

Drank a lot of red wine last night.

Damn sick.

Almost vomit at 5am + when I woke up.

But managed to sleep through it.

LOL.

Power of the brain, paralyzed body.

And that's how people feel as if a ghost was lying above the person when they sleep.

:)

Sleep paralysis.

Okay got a little off track when I talk about dreams / sleep.

Hahaha cause I'm recently into lucid dreaming again.

Really hope can master the skills.

DON'T FOLLOW THE 9GAG POST.

Noob lucid dream skill.

It's Wake induced Lucid Dream - WILD.

The one I learn is Dream induced Lucid Dream - DILD.

If you guys are interested can ask me~

But I only lucid dream 6 times in my life.

With only 3 that I am at least 80% control of the dream.

Hahaha.

OKAY BACK TO TODAY.

Yup so went to climb.

Yay.

My left knee fucking annoying.

But this injury, was kinda an opener for me.

Honestly, I want to say I was a little competitive in the past.

And the fun of climbing isn't really there anymore as I keep wanting to improve myself.

To win competition and stuffs.

To prove to people that I'm good.

I don't want people to look down on me when I climb.

This left knee of mine has taught me that competition doesn't bring you happiness.

Okay maybe temporary happiness.

Like yay I won, I'm an inter man now.

But it doesn't give you that sense of achievement.

So what if I am an interman.

But I don't give in 100% when I do a route.

Like today, I just do this very simple move.

Like I did almost 10 times.

The move.

Everytime I do, I am .5 cm closer to the tile.

And I finally reached the tile after 10 attempts.

And that is enough to bring me happiness equal to when I finish a route.

My attitude to climbing has to change.

More focus and less giving up.

I still remembered last time doing a route for 6 weeks.

Yes, that is the kind of happiness I want from climbing.

That sense of euphoria.

Hahahaha.

Kinda want to thank Elaine for accompanying me today to climb easier routes.

Cause I can't possibly do all the hard routes.

Hahaha.

THANKS ELAINE.

And on a side note, finally saw JOHN.

OMG.

SO long never see him.

He has became a lot stronger.

10 one arm pull up.

LOL.

Fucking cb.

And he was damn nice today.

He bought MC just to climb with us.

Excused from work.

But then we were leaving at 6+ 7.

So stayed a little longer just for him.

Until 8.45.

Then we went to eat together.

Me MJ and John.

Went to eat at Serangoon central.

Maybe I'll be working at the same place as John.

He's the chef while I'm the waiter.

Hahahaha.

Quite cool.

Shall consider that job.

And yeah, I'll probably be working.

But not so soon.

I need to enjoy!#@!@@!

MORE OUTINGS PLEASE.

No matter who you are.

JIO LEH.

Just caught....

THE HUNGER GAMES.
Awesome, awesome.

Shag

Dota
Dishonoured
Went to drink at YS's house.
Talk to his parents and stuffs.
Oh shit I forgot to ask mum whether can go msia with his family.
Got car.
Got good food ys say.
Hahaha.
So after that watched those prank videos.
Freaking funny.
HAHHA.
Yup then cycled home.
Then dota again.
Cb lose lose lose.
Pek cek.
LOL
Nvm.
Whole body aching from yesterday's climb.
But it's really good to have body aches.
Instead of headaches.
Hahaha.
BYE GUYS.

First day back to climbing

It isn't really that good.
Can't do shit.
Anything also cannot do.
Skin burn in 2 hours.
Mini flapper.
Cannot do more than 5 pull ups during PT.
And worst of all my left knee sucks.
But catching up with my friends was really good.
Felt so welcomed when I walk into the gym.
Mason welcomed me back.
Then fist bump yu kai, yong sheng and min jian.
Like some famous star.
LOL.
But sadly, I'm like a weakling now.
Can't do shit.
Hopefully I have the perseverance to train back my left knee.
Then strength and techniques and endurance wise, I don't mind training everyday.
It's just, the knee.
It hurts.
Bad.

Oooo

Didn't blog yesterday.
Forgot hahaha.
Went to chomps with Ivan, Kenny and Vincent.
Before that was fixing my bike.
Tyre punctured again.
Lol.
Yup so after that chomps, cycled back home and then bathed.
Played abit of dishonoured.
Dishonoured is a game that I recently keep playing.
Assassin RPG.
Not bad.
But I think skyrim still better hahaha.
Okay so went to Kenny's house.
Watch dui dui peng before going to his room and play card games.
At first play dai di.
Then play bridge.
Then play black jack.
We wanted gamble but you know..
Kinda..
Ya
So we took out our phone and use calculator.
$5 each person.
LOL after 40 rounds, the person with the most money get a free meal from the other 3.
And that's me.
Wahahaha.
Yup that kinda sums up yesterday.
Today was not bad.
Hahahaha.
Woke up and went to play dishonored.
Then went to dota.
Then play play play until like 3+.
At first wanted to stay at home and play game.
But damn no life.
So decided to follow 103 guys to play pool + lan at KSM.
Yes it's the same shit but you know, together.
Hahahaha.
Played lan with Michael and Yi Da at first.
Then later Tubs and Destin who were playing pool came in.
So we CS awhile and then Michael left.
The rest of us went to eat at B1.
The awesome chicken rice.
Bwahahaha.
Fucking nice.
Cannot take it.
Hahaha.
Yup so after eating, went to get bubble tea.
Talk awhile and then went back home.
Yup so kinda dota 4 rounds and lost 4 rounds.
But last round won with Shan Leong.
Hahahaha.
Finally sia.
Lol.
Damn emo.
Nvm got the whole life to play dota now.
LOL.
Gonna climb tomorrow.
Omfg so fucking excited.
Hahahaha.
After 1 month plus.

And thats it

We've all finished our shits.
And life is full of flowers and butterflies yet again.
Suffering has vanished
Freedom has just begun!
I will probably do a fucking long post soon.
Stay tune guys!

Freedom is near

1 MORE DAY.

Anyway I was watching Kpop star.

Like Korea's X factor.

BoA is the freaking judge.

OMG.

Yup so was kinda watching BoA instead of the show LOL.

Omg she too pretty already.

She's becoming from cute to mature.

Still cute la.

Hahahaa.

I have no idea

but heck, the angel is crying.

So caught up with life

That I hardly have any time to think about my own life.
I've really been doing nothing these few days.
Miss my friends.
But ain't doing anything about it.
Wtf is wrong with me.

Paddler's BBQ

Wow, it's like coming out from a cocoon.
I haven't seen the world / interact for a long time.
Like 4-5 days.
Hahahaha.
It was great having to see all my friends again.
Really good to have fun after all the A levels hallucination period.
It really does felt like a dream to me.
The past two weeks.
Or maybe I'm just drunk now.
Hahaha.
Met the J2s at white sands.
Supposed reach at 5pm.
But I was late.
Reached at 6pm.
SORRY GUYS.
But there wasn't a lot of people.
There was Xin Minn, me, Chin Yue, Wei Lun, Tubby, Shan Leong and Rui Guang.
But after that Doreen came and Wilfred came.
The place was so muddy and stuffs.
Hahahaha.
The BBQ was well awesome.
Partly because it's been a long time since I came out.
Hahahaha.
But it wasn't that high as compared to last year.
When Clement was still around.
Hahahaha.
Really crazy first batch.
Yup so after the BBQ with the J1s, went back to school at around 8.30.
Went to buy 5 bottles of beer for me, Chin Yue, Wei Lun, Tubby and Wilfred.
The theme for tonight was YOLO.
HAHAHA.
damn lame.
But yeah, it was kinda fun.
Wei Lun mentioned that we haven't seen the school at night for a long time.
How true.
I got a feeling I will miss this school somehow.
All the house comm times and stuffs.
But yet again, I still miss my secondary school.
Too attached to it.
Hahahaha.
I guess it's just part of life where everyone get attached to the past.
I bet I will miss Army once I get out of it in 2014/ 2015.
Or maybe I'm just drunk saying all this shit.
Hahaha but yeah, Gonna dota with Chin Yue and Shan Leong!
SHAN LEONG!
Wooooo new dota 1 player.
Awesome.
New as in new partner :)
K bYYE...

Shit

I'm starting to get addicted to watching movies on funshion.
LOL.
Just caught Abraham Lincoln.
Nice.
Hahahaha.

A GOVERNMENT

OF THE PEOPLE

BY THE PEOPLE

FOR THE PEOPLE.

Just watched this movie

Big miracle.
Quite touching.
Hahahaha.
About environment and media.

wow

just realised i never blog.
LALALALA.
I'm freaking bored.
Went mahjong yesterday yesterday.
Play from 10 - 4am then went to eat.
Then 5am came back to sleep at Vin's house.
The rest went home.
Woke up and had lunch which Vin's mum bought.
Woo.
So after eating, went home and then slacked all the way.
Slept early yesterday.
12?
Hahhaha cause damn shag.
Okay ciaosxz.

Arghh

找了那么久敬爱找不到《庭外和解》的片尾曲。
高亦欣唱的！
高亦欣 is also Steph Micayle.
The Singapore youtube singer.



I JUST WANT THE FREAKING SONG.
不够爱我
If anyone finds or something TELL ME.

Luckily,

the swollen eyeball healed.

Lol I freaking scared sia.

Now it's just a little red.

I thought I got that "worm" from rhino's body.

Like maybe her body got some parasite.

Btw, rhino is my pet rabbit.

If you STILL don't know.

 

Weeee

Totally wasted today on tetris and dota.
PERIOD.


Just kidding.
On a side note, my left eye ball had this swollen feeling.
So I went to check the mirror.
It had something bulging out.
A cylindrical shape.
And it felt as if something is pressing against my nerves.
And like I could feel that it's moving.
And for a moment I was like FUCK.
Could it be worm in my eyes?
Like those always on documentaries.
Hope when I wake up the obstruction feeling disappears.
If not GG.

Exactly my thoughts

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=448877845163126

What if money didn't matter?
The thing I'm always thinking is, would I want my children to study in the future.
It's a must of course for primary education.
Basic thoughts must be stablised, the individual must be mature enough to have its own thoughts.
And after that, however he/she lives his/her life I don't really care.
I think that's what my children would do in the future.
About making his own living, I guess that wouldn't matter as he would be mature enough to do so.
But I'm afraid as I start to age, my thoughts start to become different.
Because I'm even thinking of pursuing further education after university.
Damn my brain.
Please stop growing towards the norm.
I want to be unique.
Fuck this world.

Take my bike out

Gets nagged at and shouted at.
This is what my dad said.
“把你的脚车卖掉。”
Or rather, shouted.
Seriously I don't fucking get it.

And on the other hand, went to nex to study with Zong Han and Wei Sheng.
Woo.
Xinmin.
Lol.
Gabriel, Li Hao and Xin Horng also studying together.
Woo.
Xinmin.
Okay can.
Shall go study some LASERS AND SEMICONDUCTOR.

Good day

Lazy to blog butttttttttttttttttttt.
Today has been a good day watching PA carnival at Toa Payoh.
Got lost early in the morning LOL.
I was at Toa Payoh CC and I needed to head to Toa Payoh HDB HUB.
I have no map, no 3G.
So I kinda use some lousy map application using the wifi I got from the CC.
Then somehow, understood my location and then headed towards the direction.
After half an hour or so finally find it.
LOL.
I rmb the Toa Payoh CC was the place for X physique briefing.
Hahahaha.
Alright so watch the climbing carnival and support my juniors from 10+ to 4pm.
Then went to lepak and walk around with Justin.
Then later went back to watch open finals!
Damn shiok.
Hahaha.
It was raining and even though the hdb hub was sheltered, you could feel like dust-like rain on your skin.
Then the whole floor, tiles and people are a little wet.
But that didn't kill off any of the excitement and support from the crowd.
And the route that I kept thinking, "should be no one finish this problem la, raining, so slippery."
And Dennis Chua had to finish it.
Hahaha.
Very awesome!
So after watching the finals, went to find Yong Sheng and Min Jian.
Damn long never see them.
Hahaha.
So we went to Avan's house to lepak.
Eat Mee Rebus and freaking nice steamed lala.
Then went to Avan's room and lie around.
His bed damn shiok.
His room damn big hahah.
Yup so played some games, watch incredible tales and then headed home.
Rich Yong Sheng decided to take cab.
So all of us shared cab and then went home.
AND DOTA.
THEN
NOW.
THEN BB.
Going to sleep, tomorrow going study physics!
Mug*
Don't wanna regret cause of complacency again.

ANYWAY I JUST WANT TO ADD ON, I saw Adrian, my ogl at serangoon mrt.
Hahahaha, damn long never see him.
Last time take 89 with him so that we can talk.
He has been my senior for 12 years and I only realised it when I was J1.
Hahaha.
Punggol primary, xinmin sec.
Insane.
Now he's in NS, but life seems quite shiok for him.
Hahaha.
Just very surprised to see him and how friendly he still is despite NS and stuffs.
Cool story.

WEEEEEEEEEEe

So shiok life.
Cannot stand it.
HAHAHA.
Hvnt even over but can feel.
But this is not life until climbing comes back.
I freaking miss climbing.
Dayum.
AND YES, I'm gonna satisfy that tomorrow.
Gonna go watch my school J1 climb at YCK tml.
Hahahaa.
K BYE.

Wow

Exams are 75% over.
That's so shiok.
HAhahaha.
DOTA DOTA DOTA!

Hougang 1 Macs study~

Went there to study with Kelvin yesterday.
Supposed to study with Kenny but forget LOL.
Cause was playing dota before that then Kelvin jio me.
And it was raining before that.
Many circumstances la ahahaha.
So went to study at Hougang 1 with Kelvin at around 6+.
Study my econs and then later Kelvin showed me a tweet.
Shi Yun : Why Hougang 1 so cold?
So I smsed Shi Yun ask her whether she's still here.
She told me she was studying there at kfc and then she's outside her door step now.
LOL.
So asked her to come over to study again.
So she came, with REBECCA.
So studied and crap around until 11 then decided to leave.
Hahaha.
Damn long never meet up with them.
Last time always go Shi Yun's house watch horror with all the Yes We Can people.
Now everyone's so busy, no one even bother.
Sigh.

Woo

Hahah since when 张韶涵 so chio.

STAHP

RAINING

Gotta start studying tomorrow

If not, I will die a horrible death with complacency.
I will glady raise my middle finger for you icefrog.
SINCE 2004

Zzzz

Fucking bored at home.
CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE.
Feel like sleeping.
Blah.

Argh

no mood to study.
Q_Q
Am I the only one that haven't touch anything?
Right, of course not.
11S103.

刚看完“鬼蜮”

在channel8做的一部恐怖片。
其实没有那么恐怖。
可是故事后的情节让我感到非常伤心。
真的是一部不错的电影，看了毛都会站！
毛站不是应为怕，而是被感动到。
我们往往就这样， 遗忘身边的一切。
不把东西放在眼里，等到事后才感到后悔。
啊呀，如果你们没有看这部电影应该是不懂我再讲什么的。
哈哈哈。


故事的情节：

一切被遗弃的，将在另一空间再次灵现！

　　李心洁饰演的女作家徐寻，首次出版爱情小说便一举成名，成为当红作家，她

  

《鬼蜮》

在小说里描述的浪漫爱情，感动了每一位读者。在一次书展中，她宣布了想撰写一部探讨灵异世界的小说的创作计划，书名为《鬼域》。鉴于第一部爱情小说的影响，所有读者都相信徐寻一定能够凭借她的文笔和才能，给大家带来一个如幻如真的诡异空间，再次让读者投入引人入胜的“凶间”。书展过后，徐寻开始着手构思撰写《鬼域》，但反反复复几次构想出来的故事情节都不尽如人意，徐寻陷入了创作困境。恰在此时，昔日旧情人又出现在了她的生活中，更是令她的思绪更万千，没有了一点创作状态，一怒之下，她将存在计算机上的《鬼域》初稿删去，怪事就此发生，徐寻开始产生不同寻常的幻觉，更开始看见不能解释的现象！仿佛从小说中自己所虚构灵异的一切，都走出到现实！房间内似有神秘物体出现，断了的长发散落在地上，徐寻感觉室内并不只她一个人！神秘黑影再三出现令她更加恐惧，一些恐怖现象仿佛就是因她删除的草稿电脑里的创造初稿而产生，她在小说了描述的诡异时间在现实里重现她眼前。一天晚上，一人乘坐电梯的徐寻在电梯间惊遇诡异婆婆，并牵引她忽然进入了另一个离奇空间……一个不可思议的鬼域世界！

鬼域海报(4张)

　在离奇空间里，徐寻与自己在现实世界中打掉的女儿相遇，两人闯入满是野鬼的坟地，成群的孤魂野鬼在那里游荡，既恐怖又诡异，这些孤魂野鬼因久无后人拜祭，所以一见生人接近便群起追赶，索求接祭，幸好徐寻得到鬼域老人刘绍铭的指点，早已准备了大量鲜花和金银衣纸，在危急时刻散予群鬼享用，才得以脱身……

太好看了！

Yay

Did quite well for maths paper 2.
Anyway, it's another day closer to climbing.
So damn excited.
But damn my left knee is worrying me.
It isn't healing.
It just turns off and on sometimes.
And when it's on, it's fucking irritating.
Blah.
Shall go dota. BYE

怎么搞的。

还说今天会用心读好数学。
真的是太没有心读了。
突然很怕明天会考得不好。
如果明天的测验考不好的话真的不能怪什么了。
只能怪自己。
每次到最后又是我自己的疏忽所造成的。
管它得了。
DOTA

Went to Nex to study

When waiting for Zong Han, went to arcade.
Then Popular.
Then this book caught my eye.
A Nick Vujicic book.
Getting up from where you fall down isn't all that easy.
Emotions often over control you.
Making things more serious than what it actually is.
Really helped me a lot even though it's just a 20 min read.
What I've learnt.
1. Control your emotions, not the other way round.
2. Things often seem more complicated when emotions get into the problem.
3. Often when a mishap occur, it reopen old wounds. Negative emotions from the past will flow back and haunt you.
4. Learn to see things from outer perspective. Is the problem really that serious? How can you solve it? Take action.
I guessed some of these things really helped me today.
If not I wouldn't have the mood to do anything.
Thanks Nick, it's the third time you helped me.
And this time, from a coincidence.
Surprisingly.
:)

It's been so long

since I've felt so upset with myself.

Fucked up

Seriously.
At least 38 marks down the drain already.
+ careless and stuff.
I might even get D.
Fucked up.
Hope at least can get a B for maths.
Fuck.
Pek cek.
zzzzzzzzzz
Felt so fucking sad after the paper.
Then everyone down there smiling.
Then I thinking I must be screwed.
Everyone do so well.
Only me.
Fuck this.

Chemistry Paper 2!

今天的考试真的是把我吓死了。
做第一题的时候差一点崩溃。
还好过后能平静下来，把测验做完。

很快地，A level 就要考完了。
很想快点考完让后去爬。
可是我的膝盖真的是一个问题。
啊！管它的，考完试不管是能爬还是不能怕也是松了一口气。
只要不用再读书就好了。
其实还满期待当兵的日子。
我觉得会很辛苦但我是觉得比读书好很多。
读中学的时候，当兵这回事仿佛非常的遥远。
一眨眼，才发现自己已经 18 岁了。
不已经是从前的我。
思想可能说是变了，变得比以前成熟。
可是生命的原则没变到。
5 年后是否会变不一样的人？
我想一定会。
身边的朋友可能已不在了。
可是自己的原则是终生的，一件不可能改变的事。
所以，我觉得就算是5年，10年还是20年过后，我的人格可能会变，但愿者一定不变。

shall go sleep byeeeeeee!

Savage your breast

Calm yo titties.
A levels are unexpectedly more fun than expected.
Let's see.
Did many crazy stuffs today.
Freaking funny.
After GP paper, just went to eat with Eugene, Yi Da, Sherwinder and Edwin.
Ate at the Tai Wan Xiao Chi and then later the 3 of them pang seh me and Eugene.
So left the three of us.
Then the two of us went to shit.
Then we had this crazy idea that we always had since J1.
That is to unlock a random cubicle in public.
And WE FREAKING DID IT.
Or rather I did it.
HAHAHAHA.
Freaking funny.
Can't describe the scene.
But it was really tatical.
All the hand signal and silence.
Then using a 5 cent coin to unlock the door.
Then when we unlock, I think the guy inside realised.
It's the white sands hair dresser.
Then I think he stood up from his seat and we already ran like crazy.
Ran into the library through all the crowd shouting and laughing "他开门liao！他开门liao! "
Freaking funny.
Keep laughing and down there thinking "HOW HOW?"
LOL we trapped ourselves by hiding in the library.
Freaking funny.
Cause the salon was just outside the library.
That means go out confirm see that guy.
So we tatical again.
The plan went as "You walk to the hot bitch there, look through the glass and see whether he is looking. If he isn't looking, then chiong out, then call me. Then tell me when sector clear then I chiong out. "
And we did that.
Then we heaved a sigh of relief.
LOL.
Damn exciting.
Like playing game.
So after that went back school and studied with Wilfred.
Yet another exciting session.
Just that it's just talking about exciting stuffs.
Hahaha.
Talk about religion also.
Always so exciting to understand from the other point of view.
Hahaha.
Might be blogging about this next time.
Okay gonna go tetris with Eugene.
Tomorrow gonna wake up and study with him.
SEE YA PEEPS.
Good luck for the rest of the papers!
If you're < 1994.

I just realised

This examination is like another rock climbing competition.
Prepared so long for it.
Trained so hard for it.
Now it's time to promote to inter man!
HAHAHA.
Just do what you do most, keep calm and meditate.
Pranayama all the way.
Let all the negativity seep out from my body.
And it's time to ROCK ON.

Lol

I've been blogging too much recently.
But anyway, tomorrow is GP paper.
All the preparation the past week better help me.
Well, it's not a very good preparation but it's still preparation.
And then hope that the week faster end and A level to faster gtfo of my life.
It's tiring.
Exhausting.
Hope things go well for the next 3 weeks.
Good luck to everyone reading this!
We're all in this shit together.
No worry.
Screw this up, don't worry, you still have a future.
Don't be confined by what others deemed to be a future.
Make your future as different from those "others".

刚记得

当时我一直追微笑正义的原因

The Way I Am

But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire to burn and it's burning and I have returned

This

made my day.
LOL.

Days like this

make me feel like walking out of the house.

Obviously I know I have an exam.
And I'm mature enough to decide whether I want to study or not.
It's also not you having the exam.
Why are you always so worried.
If I'm telling you I'm ready, then fucking trust me.
It's sick to study on and on.
And study for the sake of putting on a show.
Really, you should put yourself in my shoes.
How much stress I'm facing when exams are nearing and nearing.
And there you are shouting at me.
What if I screw up this time?
Cause of that mental barrier you gave me.
Then who are we to blame?
So just let me do my own stuffs.
I'm fucking pissed.
Yes.
I am.
This has always been happening.
Always.
Ever since I became a teenager.
Irrational scoldings, accusations.
And in the end, it always makes me feel so bad.
As if I'm the unfilial one.
I'm the one causing all the unhappiness in the family.
I'm already guilty enough.
So stop making me more.
It's a vicious cycle.
Between guilt and anger.
Just stop.
I really need a break.
It's A levels the day after tomorrow.
Please let me have my examinations in peace.
And I will give you the results you want.
And prove to you that I am ready now.
I haven't disappoint you with my results.
Ever since primary 6.
And I never will.
Trust me on that.

Ya just do it more

Quarrel with me more.
And watch me flunk my A levels.

Weeee

Went to school today.
For econs tutorial / consultation.
Market failure.
There was only me Eugene and Michael.
So after the tutorial / consultation, went to 2nd floor study bench to study.
Yup so study and study.
Then Michael left.
So left me and Eugene.
So lepak around.
Study GP.
Went to eat lunch with Amos and Zi Jian and Eugene.
Then talk abit then went to climb with Spencer and friends.
Then went back studying.
THEN EAT DINNER WITH EUGENE AT SUBWAY.
Then headed home.
Saw Pei Yi on 109.
Koh Pei Yi.
Hahaha.
My Odac junior.
Her O' level this year.
Kinda caught up.
It's cool to talk to a secondary school student.
Like, it's so real and stuffs.
No fake shit.
Until you grow older.
Sigh.