2011

The last day of 2011.
It's always this day of the year that I feel so emotional.
It's like a day to sum up my year properly.

And 2011 sucks.
I really hate this year.
Because I changed a lot.
To adapt to the new learning environment.
Because of the people around me, I changed.
I judge,
Everyday.
Going to school everyday is like going to a play.
People are going to school, fighting to become the male / female lead of the play.
Wanting to be famous.
Everyone cared about their dignity, no one cared about the fun they should have.

It's just a very big change for me.
And I guess most xms people will understand.
People in xms and people in mjc are totally like different.
I mean yes there are some people that I've met in this school that I can relate to xms people.
But still, the feeling is very different.
Everyone's like a stranger to me.
And the worst part of this is that I'm somehow required to treat them like my best friend and stuff.
Obviously, I'm too fake.
I cannot adapt properly to JC life.
Or rather, I can never adapt properly to new friends.

2011 is the year that I found my passion.
And that is in climbing.
Spent so much money on climbing.
I think around $400 + already.
But well, climbing totally brings me back to life.
And makes sure I don't go insane because of everyday life.

I've changed.
To someone who can't hide emotions well.
Especially anger management.
I suck at it.
Quarreling with parents like 1/4 of the year.
It sucks.
I suck.
See how pessimistic I've become.
SIGH.
I was such a bubbly boy in secondary school.
Happiness everyday.
Even though sometimes my life sucked then but I knew somehow there would be friends to bring back the happiness for me.
Not say people in JC are not caring.
Some people are very caring for me.
Like my AHC.
But then, the way they try to bring back the happiness for me is by asking and talking.
But the way my secondary school friends bring back the happiness for me is by playing and going crazy.

Oh, and 2011.
I wonder it was a mistake for me to join the House Comm.
I don't really like the feeling of being like high profile.
People know you.
But you don't know them.
That means whatever I do, I will get judge.
"Isn't this guy from House Comm one? Why he like that sia?"
I can't do crazy things because I joined the house comm.
I bet Ying Ting totally understands me.
She was like a siao zha bor last time.
SO DAMN FUCKING IRRITATING until me and Chin Yue hate her for a period of time.
LOL.
But we really miss her craziness.
I remembered Yu Ling telling me that she's very siao during floorball one, go around hugging people.
The first word my mind came up with was "NO!"
She was so siao in the past, that all of us acted as if we didn't know her.
HAHAHAHA.
Well, not say I never do crazy thing, I drew a gingerbread man with a dick in the Chem lab and got caught for CWO?
HAHAHAHA.
Maybe the first student that got CWO ever.
Funny shit.

No matter how saddening or stressful my 2011 year was, I'm still very grateful that all the xms people still get in contact.
Looking at some of the pictures we took last year, almost 80% of the people are still in contact every week.



And of course this bunch of 203 fags ARE STILL THERE.
Like EVERYDAY.
Fags.



And lastly, you.
At the start of the year, it was so damn weird that I can't see you in school.
The feeling sucks.
But as days passed, I get more and more used to it.
But I still miss those days when I could just look up from my desk and see you doing your things.
SIGH.
I don't know whether you have anything to tell me.
But I always feel that you have something in your mind you want to tell me.
That's what I feel la.
Hahahaha.
Oh well.

sadgfdas
Okay hi.
So 2011!
To sum up, 2011 sucks.
Fake friends, fake shits, fake me.
Living day by day with no goals.
No more "I MUST STUDY HARD AND GO TO VJC"
It's just "Study because everyone else is studying"
2012, I'm afraid it will be a suckier year for me.
New year's resolution?
To be happier and more organised.
That's about it.
Maybe I will dedicate post for people tonight.

Fatique

Wah, I finally understand the meaning of fatigue.

ODAC CAMP WAS FUN FUN FUN FUN.
It really brought back the memories of ODAC.
But it didn't bring back the tent sleeping memories for me because I didn't sleep in the tent at all.
LOL.
Okay so the first day, woke up at 9 to sms.
Wanted go back to sleep but cannot fall asleep already.
So decided to go and use the computer.
Played dota and blah.
Then later tetris.
THEN I tell myself, 70 lines sent then can go bathe.
Then freak I keep never reach.
So it went on and on until like 11.05.
When the meeting time is at 11am and at khatib.
LOL.
So I went to bathe and then 159-ed to amk.
Met Chin Yue on the amk mrt platform and then we headed to khatib.
When we were at khatib, we tried to find our own way to bottle tree park since no one is answering our phone.
LOL.
So we walked >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
And then Cyue asked "Are you sure is the right direction?"
I wasn't so sure too so we went back to the MRT there to check the map.
So we walked<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Hui si finally picked up her phone when we reached back the MRT station.
Then she say walk towards the bus stop and then keep walking straight until you see the park.
And in conclusion, we need to walk >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
FUUUUU
But in the end we managed to find the park.
Yup so reached there and stalked behind them.
Like literally sit behind them and then call them.
Ask them where they are.
LOL.
They didn't realise sia.
Jesslyn saw me first.
We stalked for like 3minutes?
Hahahaha.
So we started prawning.
PRAWNING SUCKS.
At the start.
But once you know how to catch, it gets more and more fun.
I caught 2 only.
But I think I know how to catch already.
The first one was a typical small prawn.
But the second one was a super big and rare lobster.
I CAUGHT IT.
Then everyone prawning there was looking at me because I am cool like that.
Then waited for the person working there to help me unhook the lobster.
Because it was freaking big and scary.
And I didn't know how to unhook it without getting pinched by its pincer.
LOL.
So after catching the big lobster, decided to leave.
Later we decided to throw the prawns we caught into this fish tank with gigantic fishes inside.
LOL.
Mannan's idea.
Freaking sadistic.
But we didn't see how our prawn die.
Because the big fish just open the mouth and then the prawn was gone already.
No need to bite.
Hahahaha.
So left bottle tree park and then went towards Yishun Safra.
Went to climb.
Saw ys, mj, zw, seb there.
It's been a long time since I properly climbed.
Damn sian.
Zzzz.
Okay whatever, after climbing we all headed to ECP.
But before that, went to buy midnight snacks for the camp with Mannan, Chin Yue and Jesslyn.
So went to buy the stuffs and then headed to ECP straight from Yishun through a cab.
$24 cab.
Damn pain.
But everyone shared it hahaha.
So each person is like $6.
Reached ECP and then started fire with Jesslyn and Chin Yue.
Used paper and start.
First time.
Hahahaha.
It worked perfect.
That's one of the "ODAC" feeling.
Improvise, adapt and overcome.
Hahaha.
Cause we didn't buy any firestarter.
Only lighter.
So we managed to start the fire and then we used it to cook marshmallow.
Yup
Okay I damn lazy to blog finish the rest of the details already.
LOL.
Ate dinner, slacked.
Went to night walk.
Walked towards Area A there.
Then we stopped at a jetty.
Me and Chin Yue went to catch some crab.
Wanting to give my lobster to eat.
So continued walking a little.
Then they say they wanted to go back already.
So decided to go back.
Me and mannan pushed Jesslyn on the trolley.
Hahahaa.
It was 3+ going 4am then.
So went to Macs and then slept there for awhille while they wait for 4am for breakfast.
So went back to the campsite and then we started another batch of fire for warmth.
And the most sad thing happened when I went back.
Lobster is dead.
Fuck.
SO SAD.
It's called seventeen btw.
Because it was the seventeenth prawn that pulled on my rod.
Lol.
Sad.
Okay so cooked seventeen and then cook the crab we caught at the jetty.
Like 3~5 cm size one.
We ate everything.
LOL.
Then I had diarrhea the next day.
Everything was like caught, not bought.
Like man vs wild.
Totally.
So after eating, sat around.
Listened to Mannan talk about his nursing life.
He's been exposed to many human organs before.
He wanted to be posted to this part of nursing where he can handle autopsy.
Quite creepy.
So after talking, went to sit by the beach, to wait for the sun to rise.
Obviously, it didn't.
Because the cloud was too thick.
So Chao Wang, me, Chin Yue and Mannan went down to the waters to play.
Super cold the water.
Yup.
So we decided to play something.
And that is to sit at the edge of the beach.
Where the waves are the strongest.
Then let all the sand enter our pants.
See who bth the itchiness first.
LOL.
But in the end it was more fun than what we expected because the swash and the backwash of the waves damn strong.
Hahahha.
Yup so we continued until like 7+?
Then went to bathe.
When we went back to the tent, wanting to sleep, Hui Si suddenly wake up and say WE ARE GOING OFF ALREADY.
Fuck.
That means no sleep.
So yup, we went to eat breakfast at BK and then decided to leave soon.
Then suddenly someone suggested to pitch the tent and sleep in again instead of going home.
I think it was Mannan LOL.
So we decided to pitch at tent at the beach and then sleep in.
But we played mono deal first.
Then I decided to go to the waters and play a bit.
Only the leg la, not full body.
Then later I don't know, everything just became damn blur.
Because of fatigue.
Played with the sand a bit and then I just slept on the sand.
Like fell asleep under the hot sun.
With a sand pillow behind my head.
Too tired man.
Woke up, unpitch tent.
Went to macs to clean up and buy some food.
Went home.
13 then 88 with mannan.
Hahahaha.
Mannan missed like 3 stops..
I never miss because I was kinda awake.
So went home, wanting to sleep but in the end I realised it's kinda late to sleep already.
Like 5pm.
When I'm supposed to go out at 6.30.
So went to play CS, dinner and then went to XMS there to meet Shi Yun they all.
Turns out I saw Ivan on the bus and then we went to eat at kopitiam.
Or rather, watch him eat.
Hahaha.
So we talked and talked.
Went to 660 (shi yun new house) to talk.
Talk until Zhi Yang, Zong Han, Shi Yun and Zoey came.
So watched a horror movie.
Some abortion horror movie.
Quite scary.
But I was too tired to be scared.
LOL.
It wasn't that scary lor.
But I don't know, all horror movies got this stupid anticipation.
Then in the end got nothing, then for the whole movie you keep anticipating and get disappointed but somehow becoming more scared.
LOL.
That's kinda how horror movies work.
Okay so after watching the movie, I slept and then woke up at 11.50pm.
Until my dad called me.
Oh god, I slept for 1hour +.
Didn't realise.
LOL.
Okay but I was damn tired afterwards.
They went to supper and I don't know why I joined.
So freaking tired already.
So ate and then went back home.
K.O
40 hours without proper sleep.
Can die.
Okay shall go dota.
Boring day ahead I guess.

那些年

大家好。

我们用华文来写不咯个吧。

竟然是华人就应该用一点华文。

只会用英文讲话的人是没有出息的。

今天我和我的中学朋友吃火锅。

昨天火锅买的食物太多了。

今天我差不多10.30起身。

起来了就用电脑一下。

到了差不多11.00我就去冲凉。

我离开家的时候应该有差不多11.30？

总值我到nex的时候是差不多12.00。

他们他妈的每次都迟到。

无聊的我只好去arcade玩一下。

我想你们读到这里应该知道我的华文又多烂了吧！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

12.30 左右我就决定打给我的朋友，问问看他们在哪里？

他们他妈的刚起床。

我只好去zonghan的家。

到了他的家，我直接去她的房间。

我刚才说我很无聊，所以只好用zh的电脑来玩dota.

玩到差不多3.00，wh 和 fizz 来了。

我玩好我的最好一场dota过后我们就立刻去吃火锅.

等到我们吃火锅的时候，我们的肚子都饿坏了。

现在是1.33am，我的眼睛好累啊！

好，所以我们吃完了火锅我们就到房间去。

那个waiheng开始玩QWOP。

QWOP超好笑的。

我们大家都笑倒肚子很痛。

好累啊！

真的很懒惰写不咯个了。

我明天还要和ODAC的朋友一起去camp的。

这么迟睡一定累死我了。

我现在肚子非常的饿。

哎呀管什么不咯个啊！

我应该现在去睡觉。

Oh 对了，我今天比较早到家。

8+就到家了。

哇！我现在真的是很累啊！

好，我现在就去睡觉。

大家晚安！

对了，你明天就要飞了！

祝你一路顺风！

记得拍ahgua的照片给我看！

哈哈哈哈

虽然很久没有和你讲话了，

我依然还在不停地想着你。

Wtf

Seriously?
Most fucked up night in my life.

Christmas tomorrow?

Fizz. . says
we are the only dicks with nuthin planned and after discussion of 2 hours we still got nuthin planned

Just rife men.

Life

“ Make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to


 boldly do things which you may previously never 


have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to 


attempt. 




So many people live within unhappy circumstances 


and yet will not take the initiative to change their 


situation because they are conditioned to a life of 


security, conformity, and conservation, all of which 


may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality 


nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit 


within a man than a secure future. 






The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his 


passion for adventure. 






The joy of life comes from our 


encounters with new experiences, and hence there is 


no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing 


horizon, for each day to have anew and different sun. 






If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your 


inclination for monotonous security and adopt a 


helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to 


you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to 


such a life you will see its full meaning and its 


incredible beauty.”










― Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild 

From Natalie's fb status.

SLEEP IS IMPORTANT

Hi I have been surviving with less than 3 hours a day for the past 5 days.

But I just took a nap this morning and I got more awake.

TODAY IS CHRISTMAS EVE.

Yay.

Hooray.

Cheers.

Fuck.

So boringgggggggg.

I guess I still need a lot of sleep.

Damn tired.

After my previous post, went to dota.

Then sleep.

Then woke up at 11+ tomorrow morning.

Continued dotaing.

Until like 6+?

Supposed to go out in the afternoon but in the end all don't know doing what.

So went to AMK with 203 people.

Toilet gang minus Lenze plus Joey.

Hahahaha.

Went to eat at Popeyes and then went to pool.

After pool, sent Joey off then went to jubeat.

Then after jubeat go home.

THEN DOTA UNTIL 3.30.

Blah.

Next morning, woke up at around 10+

Bathed.

Then went to green to eat Prata with WH, low, ho, and fizz.

Ate mutarbark and then later went back home.

Play cs awhile then Ho had to go back msia already.

So they sent her off while I pack my stuffs.

Then later RAIN.

So I brought umbrella to the 161 bus stop.

Then later went Iluma with Wai Heng to play arcade.

Wah damn fun.

Cause damn cheap.

Hahahaha.

$1.50 4 songs.

Then we played STREET FIGHTER.

Damn fun.

0.50 can play like 15 minutes.

Hahahaha.

Okay then after playing street fighter, it's around 7 already.

So went to meet Audrey and friends.

Went to eat punggol nasi lemak after everyone come.

Everyone late Q_Q.

Okay then went Audrey's house play ps3.

Hahahaha.

Damn funny.

Played guitar hero.

Damn pro.

^^

OKAY I LAZY BLOG.

BYEEEEEEEEE.

HI ALL

I'm back from chalet.
TIRED.
Hahaha but I not sleeping yet cause Ho's in SG.
He's behind me right now.
Hahaha.
So let's talk about the House Comm Chalet.
It was practically, weird and fun at the same time.
I don't know how to explain.
Kinda feel like a dream because everyone's damn tired.
Totally not acting like ourselves those kind.
Hahaha.
People getting drunk on the first night.
Then so many things happen.
We were saying, the non-drunkards will be more bonded as compared to the drunkards even though if drunkards seem to be more bonded at that point of time.
Haha.
It's kinda true.
Like I'm much closer to Nikhil and Ting Hao after the 1st night.
Hahaha.
Then the Hwee Min vomitted, then the Atlas House Comm went mad.
I'm actually quite proud of myself that I kept myself away from alcohol.
Hahaha.
Okay so after the crazy night, came the second day.
Slept at 5am+ after Leon they all played DRUNK DAI DI.
Woke up cold like mad at around 8+.
Like shivering.
Then went to the aircon area frequently to warm myself up.
Then in the end went back to sleep until like 10+.
Super cold the place.
Like.
WINTER.
Okay it feels 70% like at the top of Mount Kinabalu.
The floor like hardcore ice.
LOL.
Okay so second day, we left the chalet at 3pm + to play arcade.
Before that we're playing games such as bridge, stress and blah blah blah.
Ping Shuang freaking good at stress.
Hahahaha.
So at the arcade, played a few games.
Watched Edbert they all play the tank game while I played Bishi Bashi with Ping Shuang and Gilda.
WTF.
Ping Shuang fucking pro.
Then she told me last time after o level she always go to arcade to play bishi bashi with her friends.
Hahahaha.
Now I understand.
Hardcore.
Okay so let's see, errrrrrrrrrrr after playing arcade, went to meet my beloved AHC.
Finally, all of them sober.
Siao one sia.
Valerie especially, when drunk like can go even madder then the mad now.
Hahahaha.
So we went to Mr chicken rice to eat.
Siti came and the 6 of us bid farewell to nicole by calling her while she's at the airport.
Hahahaha.
So, after that, went back to the chalet.
Reached the chalet at around 7 and then we started playing card games all over again.
But this time with a candle in the middle of the table.
Freaking nice atmosphere.
Cause it's super dark and there's only one candle litted up.
Everyone's face like yellowish orange bright.
Very cool feeling.
Hahaha.
Then later a lot of people went to watch movie.
I didn't want to watch movie so I stayed in the chalet with Ivan Low, Ping Shuang, Gilda, Michelle, Raveen, Ting Hao and Nikhil.
Hahahaha.
Damn funny.
Super chaotic because everyone of us keep trying to sleep.
Then Ivan keep trying to pull people down.
Then I keep trying to push Ivan down also.
Freaking fat ass want to squeeze.
LOL.
Then later we played this "The next person who talk will be forced to give up their bed"
Then super silent.
Then I kick Ivan down without making any noise.
THEN ALL THE CONSTIPATED NO SOUND LAUGHTER COME OUT.
And it was dark.
Freaking funny.
Then later somehow Nikhil, Ivan and I got the bed.
Then Gilda down there whining.
Then she just jump on top all of us and sleep.
WTFFFF.
Hahaha.
Okay so after messing around the whole place, the people who went to watch the movie came back.
Then Ping Shuang's friend came too.
To celebrate her birthday.
Hahaha.
Okay so the house comm people played guitar while Ping Shuang's friend like just talk here and there.
HahahjaHAHAHahAHAHa.
I'm freaking tired right now.
I think I will wake up in the afternoon tomorrow.
Probably.
Okay so after Ping Shuang's friend left, the AHC was the last to sleep.
We made music.
Using Wei Lun's MIXCRAFT.
Oh ya me and Wei Lun made a acapella version of pumped up kicks on the first day.
But in the end, the computer didn't save it.
What a waste!
Hahahah.
So we began making music.
Weird music.
With charmander, Oh I wanna fart, and many weird vocals inside.
LOL.
Then finally decided to K.O and sleep at 4+.
Woke up at around 6+ feeling like I just froze to death.
So went to the kopitiam at DTE to buy a cup of milo.
Freaking shiok.
Like hot.
So after drinking alone at DTE, went back to the chalet and then it was still freaking cold.
But I managed to sleep and woke up at around 8+ 9
Bathe, cleaned up and then left the area.
Hahahaha.
Ate at ananas cafe with Wei Lun, Wilfred, Leon, Valerie, Jason and Ivan and then went to Ivan low's house.
Played 1 round of dota.
Then went to find ho and fizzy at CHINA TOWN.
Yup.
Went to watch them jam.
BUT IN THE END WE END UP PAYING ALSO.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Money fly.
Damn expensive.
Hahahaha.
Okay so after jamming, went to dinner at Arnold's at Hougang green.
Went low house and take stuffs.
Then bid farewell.
Ho came to my house.
AND THEN WE DOTAED UNTIL NOW.
Which is 3.10 am.
Freaking tired.
Now he playing Dota 2.
We gonna sleep soon.
So bye!

HOUSE COMM CHALET

Hi I'm currently in House comm chalet.
With 12 people around me.
Darren Chia, Wilfred, Valerie, Wei Lun, Leon, NikHil, Ivan, Xin Horng, Jason, Ting Hao, me and Ping Shuang the birthday girl.
She's currently with some friends that all of us don't know.
And we totally have nothing to do except to just sit around and stone.
Some people watching TV, some people trying to sleep.
It's the second night.
I slept too much so I'm not tired.
hahahhahahahaha.
K shall blog tomorrow.
Or 2 days after.
BYE.

Games day

Nope, it's not an event.
It's just I have nothing to do for the whole day but play games.
Practically dota the whole afternoon away with ho and friends.
LOL me and ho's teamwork damn imba.
Like every subsequent games the people leave game.
Dotaed until like 7+ then went to bathe and went to nex.
Went to meet Fizzy and Kelvin first.
Then the 3 of us went food republic.
Then zh reached around 5 mins later.
Followed by wai heng who came at around 10 mins later.
So went to ARCADE.
GAMES DAY.
Went to arcade and then played HOTD.
Got improve.
But I still suck at the spider boss.
SIGH.
Oh well.
Then went bishi bashi.
Almost complete the game.
Hahahaha.
Too many monster mode already.
Okay then after playing arcade, went to buy some stuffs at Value shop.
Shared a box of choc chips and 7up drink with wai heng and we went up to the sky garden to lepak.
Lepak until like 10pm then zh gtg first because he got headache.
Then we left at around 10.30?
I think.
Talked about SKYRIM.
GAMES.
LOL.
Okay so that's about it.



Everything you do, is super duper cute.
And I can't stand it.

2.11am

It's late right now.
With pumped up kicks playing in the background.
So many thoughts going through my mind now.
So many small frustrations.
Add up to a big problem.
Friends on one hand, family on one hand.
The only time I can really let myself loose is when I climb.
That's why I climb so much.
That's the only time I won't think so much about my life.
It's so tiring.
Everything.
I still feel like a small boy, in this world.
Innocent about the future.
My head feels damn heavy from THOUGHTS.
Every night before I sleep, I will still think of you.
Thinking of what you are doing now and stuffs like that.
I wonder if what he said was true.
I really hope not.

BLOGGING.

IS.

MY

RANTING.

PLATFORM.

WOOOO. 

So sick and tired.
Soon, it's going to be 2012.
I wonder if it's going to be a good year or not.
I just know this year sucks.
Know so many fake friends.
See so many old friends changing.
See how much I've changed.
To someone so unrespectable.
Even I am starting to hate my own personality.
So hot-tempered, stubborn.
So full of crap.
So AA.
So not funny.
So arrogant.
So pessimistic.
I know.
And probably there's more to it.
I KNOW.
I know I have all these problems.
And the worst part is I don't even try to change.
I don't respect people.
I keep silence most of the time.
I wonder who thinks more than me.
How do I expect others to respect me if I myself don't respect myself.
But I just can't find the reason that I can respect myself.
I'm TOO pessimistic.
I wasn't like this in the past.
I was an optimistic boy.
Even though I'm an introvert.
I stay happy all the time.
Aiya.
Let's just conclude that this year sucks.
JC sucks.
Education sucks.
Society sucks.
Let's end this off with something

"If you find problems with most people, then the problem most probably lies with yourself"

Simply said, I suck.
Kthxbai.

Tomorrow will be a better day.
How long have I been surviving on this quote.

Climb Asia Climb!

Today has been a good day climbing.
Climbed with more people today.
Lee Yang, Sebastian, Min Jian, Yong Sheng, Zhi Wen, Jia Cong and Elaine.
When a group of passionate people climb together, it's just so awesome.
Like everyone knows how each other feel.
When you slip off a sloper, or using all your strength to hold on to the smallest tile.
Trying your best to balance on small foot holds.
Supporting each other by shouting "Allez".
Missing a pocket by a few centimetres.
Everything we do it's just damn awesome.
Especially when everyone went "EH EH EH AH AH AH AH OH OH OH OH" when someone is pushing for the ending tile.
CLIMBING IS (Y)
Too bad my parents don't allow me to go KL to climb with Yong Sheng they all.
Sian diao.
NVM.

Back to XMS

In my dream it went,

STOP AND STARE~ 


Weird dreams.
So dramatic.
HAHAHA

Sometimes

We ought to listen to our parents.

I'm a rather unfilial child.

Always raising my voice at them.

It's like they always talk about the same thing over and over again.

And we may find it irritating.

And want to rebut.

But you can't rebut, because the things they say makes sense to them but don't makes sense to you right now.

They are adults.

They are more experience in life than us.

I understand my father's rationale.

But I just don't like it.

I don't like to study.

I always live with this principle.

You can only live one life, make it worthwhile.

Does studying and suffering makes my life worthwhile?

Does working hard and get all the money makes my life worthwhile?

Nope.

It's the happiness.

But yet, you wouldn't understand what is happiness until you understand what is suffering.

But it just sucks la.

I should stop being such a stubborn asshole and listen to other people's criticism against me.

It helps.

If you think about it.

Confident

Wah.
I just woke up from this dream like 15 minutes ago.
I so wanted to immediately blog about it because I remembered almost everything.
Then my Lenovo computer go mad and stay at Power Saving Mode.
Researched about it and the problem probably lies with the Graphic Card.
Sian.
Too much skyrim.
LOL.

Anyway, the dream was about me in the arcade.
Then I was sitting on the "motorcycle" game.
Then later I looked to my left and it was HOUSE OF THE DEAD 2.
Wai Heng was holding the gun and anyhow spamming it on the screen.
Then I damn tempted to play.
So I decided to take $1 from my wallet and walked towards the token machine.
I tried to put in $1.
Then something was stuck in the coin hole.
IT WAS A FREAKING BOTTLE CAP.
What.
So I went to use the one on the left and there was a card stuck there too.
So I couldn't change any token to play HOTD2.
So I went to find the arcade person-in-charge.
I told her about the problems but she just ignored me TOTALLY (damn cb) and walked into the arcade.
So I followed her and started talking like a businessmen.
I thought I was much clever in the dream than I am now.
HAHAHA.
I went

"I know you treat me like any other ordinary customer but let me tell you I AM NOT ANY ORDINARY CUSTOMER. I am a very different person. Look at my hands, there are so many different colours. Yellow(my nails), red(my fingertips), white(fingernail), green (some shit in the fingernail). From here, it shows that I'm someone who are exposed to many different varieties of backgrounds in the past and thus I'm a very varied person."


She looked kinda impressed HAHAHA.
So from a scene about arcade coin token, it changed to something like job interview.
She was reading my resume.
Then she read awhile then she don't care.
THEN I WENT TO CONVINCE HER AGAIN.
But this time I forgot what I said.
But it was so freaking convincing that she took my proposal "to solve the token machine" and finally read it.
But that was the last scene before I woke up.
Hahahaha.
Damn funny.

Reliving memories

Just came back from supper with Mr Tang, Min Jian, Yong Sheng, Wai Heng and Branzann.

Really funny.

Funny times like these don't happy all the time.

The laughter comes from within.

Like what me, Michelle, XT and Wei Sheng said at the canteen the other time.

Laughing from within.

Don't think that there will be any bunch of friends that can replace my secondary school friends.

Hahahaha.

All the cock up people.

Talking about all the things we did in the past.

Like how Raymond scold CCB to Vice Principal.

Like how Yong Sheng talked to Mr Ho about him and Mrs Teo's scandal.

LOL.

Then the mike we bought and tried to put into the statue's hand.

Then only Min Jian kena the scolding.

Talked about how Jeremy, Kenny, Ivan Low and Wai Heng got caught throwing stones into the pond.

And then Jeremy trying to kp back by saying no sign saying cannot throw stones into the pond.

LOL.

It's just damn different when we grow up.

We do less stupid things.

I used to be an idiot.

But I was so much happier in secondary school.

School now totally suck out all my energy.

Like there's nothing to really LAUGH OUT LOUD at.

There's no one to talk about relationship problems.

There's just no stupid stuffs happening in the school la.

Responsibility becomes a burden.

House comm, dignity, all these shits.

Without them I would probably draw more dick in the school and get CWO.

Ahh whatever.

At least I still get in contact with them.

Just that we can't do stupid things together again.

Hahahaha.

Life sucks now.

Too bad.

Life goes on.

Whyyyyyyy

I'm going mad.

Really.

All the things I shouted at my mum.

It's all about how I hate the society.

And how I hate how things are done in the world.

With money.

Education.

All this useless shit.

I really don't know why I'm like that.

I really hope it's just puberty.

I shouted that I didn't wanted to go school.

And I was not joking.

Then I got even angry with the thought of getting stuck in this society.

That if I quit school, I wouldn't have any jobs.

And we won't do the things we want.

I'm too weird a person to befriend.

Sigh.

Maybe I'm having my rebellious period.

Or maybe I'm just pmsing today.

Grow up, grow up.

FASDGAFDL:GDFL:GKADFL:GKDAF;'

Why do I have such a bad temper?

Totally feel like an unfilial child.

Sigh

Totally spoil my mood to blog.
Joking only, so serious.

Simple yet enjoyable

That's the kind of life today.
Soccer in the morning.
Shopping in the afternoon at Sim Lim square.
Dota in the evening.
Dinner at night.
Arcade late at night.
Prata as supper.

Everything was perfect.
If it didn't rain in the morning.

:)

MJ house

Yesteday went MJ house to "Study"
HAHAHA.
GP totally suck.
I was playing skyrim in the morning.
Then left house at 3pm.
Reached his house at 3.30 like that.
We supposed to go to Farrer Park to study then he stupid say leg lazy move.
So reached his house and started doing GP things.
Then do until halfway, like 40 mins later, that dragon dog called to ask whether want eat with him and his mum.
So we agreed and pang seh Chong Yu.
LOL
The best solution is to ask Chong Yu to eat with us so we never pang seh both sides.
But then Yong Sheng's mother don't know Chong Yu.
So too bad.
After eating at some roasted delights store, went back home with MJ.
That yong sheng freaking lazy.
The reason he don't want join us at MJ house is because he lazy to walk out to the bus stop later.
Tsk.
Okay so when we went back his house, we sat on the couch.
Was talking at first.
Then...
Zzzzzzzzzz
ZzzZzZzZ
ZzZZZzzzZz
6.35pm.
HAHAH.
At first wanted wake up to use his fb to stupid fb status.
But in the end I can't even move.
But I woke up 5 mins earlier than him and started studying again.
So we kinda like study until 9+
Chong Yu came at 8 or something.
So I just gave up on GP.
Stupid.
Then started drawing.
Hahahaha damn cool.
So we went to dota later.
Since that kid got like 7 computers at home.
So we decided to go up his room and play dota.
Play play play then want play cz.
Then want play css.
Then 11.40 already haven't even play a proper game.
Because min jian's computer suck.
Sigh.
Yup, me and fizzy left his house at 12.10 or something.
And cabbed home.
Damn ex.
Hahahaha.
Okay shall go soccer now!
Bye.

IMYAYSIG

Blah.
Today has been an AWESOME DAY.
Cept for the fact that I needed to go school this morning.
SIAN.
Dance dance dance.
Anyway, dance was okay.
Tried to perfect the first two songs.
Okay it was a good try.
We need to have an agenda for our mass dance.
It's useless to just everyday go there and just sit and do the same thing over and over again.
Like seriously.
Mass dancers aren't as bonded as cheerleaders.
And I guess the reason is we never push them enough.
I miss the times when we had Alynna.
The scoldings by her and Uan.
Totally.
Maybe we need a senior.
We give more respect to a senior than someone of the same age isn't it?
But I won't forget how I gave respect to people like Kelvin, Wing Lun, Jun Wen when I just knew them through Yes We Can.
Everything they do, I really respect and listen.
Ahhh, whatever.
Just hope the next few sessions will be better.

After dance, went to meet MJ and YS at Farrer Park.
So took bus to white sands.
Trained to Paya Lebar.
Saw Charlotte Siow at there.
Talked to her and realised she's freaking going to a temple.
Just to go and check it out.
LOL, then awkward journey.
Until we met Darren Chia at Serangoon interchange.
Hahaha.
So talked to them awhile and then left towards Farrer Park.
Oh I saw a 20+ year old guy sitting inside the train.

PLAYING PSP

WTH.
Seriously.
Hahahaha.
Okay so while waiting for YS and MJ to come down from City Square mall, saw York hao and Ting Hao.
They have been attached to some LTA thing.
LOL.
WTH.
Totally don't understand that.
Hahaha so talked to them awhile and then they left.
That two bugger finally came down and then we headed to Climb Asia.
Just saved $15.
Going to buy chalk bag next week.
Exctied.
Hahaha yup so after getting our tags, went to the inclined wall and started climbing.
Totally didn't felt like climbing because my right shoulder hurts like shit.
But in the end when I did the power circuit, it didn't felt that bad.
So I continued climbing.
Climb from 2 to 6+ only.
But I traverse a lot.
So super tiring.
But felt quite loser that I cannot do some routes.
I need my right shoulder blade to recover fast sia.
If not no need train for Gravical.
It's damn pain.
Suck.
Cannot even comb my hair / brush teeth properly.
Okay so at 6+ we all left CA and headed to Nex.
Went to Cold Storage to buy food and then headed to MJ's house for STEAMBOAT.
3 people steamboat.
Damn shiok.
Like good life.
Eating shabushabu with a can of Heineken.
Best.
Then after eating steamboat, YS left first.
So me and MJ sat in front of the sound system and then just listened to classical / modern jazz musics.
WITH ANOTHER CAN OF HEINEKEN.
Damnnn shiokkkk.
Hahahaha.
Okay so after lepaking in the living room, decided to sign up for gravical.
Then after signing up, we went to watch climbing videos.
9b+.
Hardcore max.
Hahahaha.
Okay I'm very tired now.
So we watched climbing videos until 11.13 then I left his house.
Tired ttm.
SHALL GO SLEEP.
GOOD NIGHT!

Shoulder injured

Wah sian.
I have totally no idea how my shoulder injured.
It's like freaking pain.
I can't touch my hair.
Because it hurts like a kkb.
Anyway, today woke up at 8+.
Then decided to start drawing my Shen Jia Yi.
HAHAHA.
But damn fail.
The proportion damn fail.
The right eye small like siao.
BUT THAT'S THE ONLY THING THAT SPOILT THE WHOLE PIC.
SIAN.
If not it will be perfect.
Nvm more sketches soon!
Fun to draw.
Okay so after drawing, eat, dota 1 round.
Then left house.
Went to green to buy things for the open house banner.
Then later headed towards Livia, Leon's secondary home.
Hahaha.
So when I reach there, Nicole, Leon, Wei Lun and Wilfred were there already.
But they haven't started on anything.
So I was supposed to draw a dragon on the banner.
Because I was supposedly good at drawing.
LOL but I cannot visualise the dragon.
But I think at the end it's quite nice :)
Okay then draw draw draw, slack slack slack.
When we wanted to paint the thing already, then we realised what we shopped yesterday was totally wrong.
We needed paint, not freaking spray paints.
Now Wilfred has to "ebay" at the Meridian 9th House Comm wall.
LOL.
Damn pathetic.
So lepaked until like 6+.
Then later Wei Lun started playing skyrim.
Wilfred and Nicole left early.
We stayed in Livia the whole time.
Until 9.20 pm.
To complete skyrim.
And finally, Wei Lun finished skyrim.
OHHHHH SHIT.
Took an arrow to the knee.
HAHAHA.
Okay so went to white sands to eat KFC and then went home.
Saw Shi Yun on the bus.
WAH!!!
Damn long never see her.
I woke up at compass there when I saw her.
Then when I said hello my voice was uber deep.
Hahahhaha.
Yeah so caught up with her.
Asked about o levels, asked about Zoey going what school.
Then she told me she moved house already.
Near XMS.
Cool sia.
Live near xms.
Hahahaha.
Okay so went home and dota.
Stupid ho and low don't want play with me .
Sigh.
Okay bye!

It's been so long

But I still don't understand much of you.

LOL

This is how lazy I am now.
Woke up late -> Bugis -> Met Wilfred, Wei Lun and Leon -> Eat at macs -> Weird handshake with random street guy -> Or is it the other way round.
Okay serous.
So after macs, we went to Arts Friends to buy all the stuffs for Open House.
The paint and stuffs.
Damn ex.
Omg.
Okay then after that went to walk around.
Then it started raining.
So we were like STUCK in Bras Basah.
So we decided to walk around that area.
Went to a lot of weird shops.
LOL.
Like got one shop sell all those hispter stuffs.
It's super small but there's a "CAFE"
Like 3 tables 6 chairs.
Then got another shop sells sport stuffs with MUSIC stuffs.
Like drum and shits.
Damn weird.
Okay then we decided to walk under the rain to find the museum of toy.
But I think because of the rain all of us walked too fast that we missed it.
Hahahaha.
So we decided to take bus towards Kallang.
We took don't know what bus.
Whatever bus come we take.
So went to Kallang MRT there and then went towards Paya Lebar to make our Mass Dance shirt.
Wah.
Damn boring that place.
Boring until I need to put my finger into the lock thingy and get stuck.
Boring until I blow infinite amount of saliva bulbbles.
Hahaha.
Oh btw, the person printing the shirt at the Paya Lebar factory is Celestine's Aunt.
So we kinda like slacked around there and discussed about Open House.
Then after that headed to Tampines to buy some food at NTUC and then headed towards Leon's house.
We COOKED.
Meatballs in chicken broth, errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Roasted Chicken, Mee Goreng.
IT WAS EXTREMELY NICE.
Especially the soup.
Didn't expect it to turn out so well.
Then Leon's father was like "Guy's meal"
LOL.
Totally.
Okay then later played Dead Space 2 .
Play play play until Wilfred left first.
After Wilfred left, watched Leon and Wei Lun play skyrim and then after that went home.
So Leon sent both of us off .
Headed towards Pasir ris.
Bought a bottle of Almond drink from 7 11.
UBER NICE.
But 2.20.
Hahaha.
Okay so 109 back and tadah here I am.
Damn tired.
BUT DOTA FIRST.
GOOD NIGHT.



































































































































It's time like this, when you just don't feel like caring about anything at all.
But somehow at the end of the day, the heart becomes heavy.
And the flashback starts pouring in.

Buffet, Michael house

Went to buffet with Joshua, Destin, Li Ying and Eugene yesterday.
LOL eat until super full.
Full until Destin vomitted in Nihon-mura.
Super disgusting.
Then after he vomitted we ask him to eat again since his stomach no more food.
LOL.
We scared of the extra charges ah.
Then Eugene hid some tuna sashimi under the peas.
Then Destin bite some tuna sashimi and spit it on the table (To make it seem that it's rotten)
LOL.
Okay so after eating, went to Ehub arcade to play.
WTH, the HOTD 1, 50 cents play 2 people.
LOL 2 credits.
That means 1 game 25 cents.
Okay then after playing arcade, went to find fizzy.
Then we took 89 towards loyang point together and then the two of us went Michael's house.
Yes, FIZZY AND MICHAEL.
So we went to his house.
Nicole's elder sister also there LOL.
So me, fizzy, michael and nicole's sister were at the backyard eating.
DAMN AWKWARDISATION.
But in the end it was okay la.
So went to jam in the jamming room.
Michael's drum is really damn good.
From my perspective la.
Hahaha.
Then Fizzy played bass guitar.
Jamming damn fun lor, too bad I don't know how to play anything.
Tsk.
Okay I shall go meet AHC now.
Late already.
Supposed to reach Tamp at 12.
GG.
Kay bye.

Anaki Records

Today has been quite an eventful day.
Wanted to slack the whole day at home.
Until chong yu called.
"Oie you free anot, can I come your house do work? My comp spoil"
PROBLEM SOLVED.
So he came at around afternoon time.
While I was playing skyrim.
Hahaha.
So I played until like 2.30 then we decided to go and eat at Hougang Green.
So after eating, went back home and he started on his work.
I was sitting on the chair and I just fell asleep.
Lol.
Damn tired.
Okay then after he finished, play one round of dota.
Until it was around 5.50.
Asked loon to fetch the two of us to the nearest MRT.
So he sent us to Hougang MRT.
From there, we took train towards Chinatown station.
LOL the two of us started walking from one end of the train to another.
I was holding a samurai umbrella and everyone was staring at it.
So went to Anaki Records BAND CONCERT.
WOOO.
Even though there was very little people, it was quite high over there.
Like got malays dancing even though it's raining.
Then the music was good.
The speaker was too loud.
As if you have an invisible earpiece.
Yup, very different kind of music.
But definitely those that fizzy like.
Hahaha.
But the people there all damn cool.
I think people who chases their passion are all cool people when they are at the place filled with passion.
Like musicians headbang and dance with no shame in the concert.
So does climbers climb and socialise with each other by giving each other routes and encouraging each other.
PASSION is so important.
Hahahaha.
It's been long since I've typed a long long post so I guess here it is.
Hahaha.
The longest post I've ever written I think was 2k+ words.
It was the sec4 class outing to ECP.
That rainy day.
O levels just ended not long.
Miss 401 sia.
Sian.
Anyway, back to today.
Yup, so after listening to all those rock and metal music, left the place after the concert ended at around 9pm.
Oh I forgot to mention there was this old uncle (around 70) who started dancing to the music.
And head bang with the youngsters.
HAHAHA.
Damn cute.
Okay so after that, went to Nex and played HOTD 4.
Apparently we wanted to play immediately.
But there was this small kid, around 10 years old who was playing HOTD 4 and we were hoping he will die.
BUT HE DAMN PRO.
Like he know where's all the bonus life.
Blah.
Okay so we waited and in the mean time fizzy went to play razing storm.
Then later got one guy play.
So he go play time crisis 3.
Then later that guy finish alr he still playing time crisis 3.
So I told fizzy "Eh you go change more money first, I help you play"
Then later when he come back, he continued.
AND THE GUY CAME BACK TO PLAY HOTD 4.
So we waited for quite some time.
Like we only started at 10.40.
Lol.
Okay so after playing, we went to take 101 towards my house.
He haven't finish this homework.
So he's coming my house to finish.
Then later halfway through the 101 bus ride, I realised my samurai umbrella was not with me.
IT WAS FREAKING IN THE ARCADE.
So we took 101 back.
And shit that driver.
Drive like tortoise.
Then we damn pek cek.
Lol.
But in the end we found it in the arcade.
Not the same spot as where I put though.
That means somebody played with it.
CB.
Okay so after retrieving the umbrella, cabbed back home because it was late.
Reached home at 12.02.
So fizzy started doing his stuffs and then he left at around 12.30.
I think he ran back home hahaha.
Okay so that's about my day.

s

大笨蛋

AHHHHHHHH

Today sent chai off.
Then went destin house lepak with celestine, li ying, gideon and wilfred.
No mood.
Bye.

I don't know

I do not know how I am feeling now.

It's so weird.

Don't know what I am going to do.

So awkward.

But yet, it's a must to solve the awkwardness.

But there's almost no solution to this.

I guess the only solution is time.

But meanwhile, there's nothing else I can do.

Other than to talk to trustworthy friends.

So far, thanks Kelvin, Ivan and Vincent for hearing me out.

Love you all.

Muacks

Zombie

Hi, it's 11.57am now and I just woke up.
I had a quite funny dream.
But it was damn cool.
I cannot remember a lot of thing but I shall try.
The last thing I remember was I think somebody told us the news that this block of building was infected with zombie.
Then Kelvin, Wai Heng, Chong Yu and I went to check it out.
The whole place was kinda dark.
OMG.
I just remembered it was at my Grandma's house at Geylang.
But both my grandma and grandpa passed away when I was younger.
So there was no one living at the house.
So the scene was even scarier.
It was at like 7+ pm.
I remembered we were running down the stairs, chasing all the zombies and holding different kind of guns.
I think I was the leader and I had a lot of different guns.
Just press one button and I got another gun.
All those different BF3 guns.
Then got laser somemore.
So we chased the zombies from one end to another, until it was at the 7th floor then I remembered it was my ah ma house.
So I was like, "Wrong! They must have gone down."
So together with the other 3 of them, I ran down and down.
Then I don't know somehow, the tables turned and the zombies chased us from one staircase to another staircase through a corridor.
Then later the zombies went up.
And the 4 of us were at the corner of a staircase.
Oh, then Wai Heng got this equipment, that is able to detect what's opposite a wall.
The thing he holding is like a taser, but with blue misty light floating around the taser.
So he put it on the wall and he said the zombies were above us.
So we started planning on what to do.
I said I will hold shotgun and chiong.
Then both Kelvin and Chong Yu held some machine gun with laser pointer on it.
Then Wai Heng don't know hold what, but he's the intelligent one in the 4 of us.
(That's why he got that taser like equipment)
So after we were all ready, all of us shouted CHIONG AH CHIONG AH CHIONG CHIONG.
So we ran up two levels and then saw a zombie.
Then later Kelvin and Chong Yu was standing in front and IT WAS WRONG.
I was supposed to be the tanker and chiongster cause I was holding shot gun.
So I asked them to make way and I chionged in front.
Then later the zombies ran down the stairs again.
But they were injured.
There were like 3 only.
I think the 3 zombies that we were killing are actually my friends.
They still have some consciousness but they have some mental problems.
So that's why the zombie want to kill us in the first place because they are MAD.
So I was holding the shotgun, one of the zombie was on the floor.
I kept shooting and shooting.
BUT I KEEP MISSING.
Then got no more bullets.
You know those dream when you got no energy to punch people.
Like you feel weak and stuff.
YES, I totally felt that.
My shot gun missed almost everything at point blank range.
Then I used the shot gun to smash it onto the zombie.
But it felt like a poke.
But somehow, the zombie died.
But I wasn't convinced.
So I went to tickle it and it started laughing and shaking around.
Then I think Wai Heng came and somehow killed it.
Then he helped to kill the one Chong Yu is fighting too.
Then I don't know for what reason, someone cut off the left arm of the zombie.
Then it was quite gore.
And then it ended.
Hahaha.

In the dark

Mind-fucked, pissed and all the negative emotion you can think of right now.

The feeling of being kept in the dark.

My life is too much like a movie right now.

Too dramatic.

I don't know how to handle this.

I'm really glad that I have friends like Kelvin that I can rely on.

I guess no matter how introvert I am, I still need to let the things in my mind out.

If not I'll probably go mad.

The more I think about it, the more WTF it gets.

Seriously, there's so much going through my mind now.

The whole thing is about what if?

What if this, what if that.

I don't know how the whole thing will turn out to be.

I'm totally stuck in a labyrinth.

Almost impossible to solve this problem.

So little time.

What am I going to do?

Yes, I asked for a less mundane life.

But this is seriously too much.