Been a wild journey

Just when I thought everything was going well, and that I can handle my emotions well.

I just needed one fk up to crash everything.

And that is the shittiest feeling ever.

All the discipline that I had upkeep for months crumbled in a day because I was 'extra' emotional.

It's not a new feeling.

I've been through this ultimate low 3 or 4 times in my entire journey.

But this time feels different.

Because I have baos.

And I felt like shit that she had to go through this with me.

But this also made me realised that I do have someone that I can rely on.

Whatever happens I have baos behind my back.

And today I truly felt that.

I can't even describe properly how I'm feeling now but I just know that despite all the pain and numbness, I feel loved and supported.

If you're reading this, I love you baos.

I can't wait to fly back to you and give you a big big hug.

For being so important in my life.