Repititions

Just some updates to myself I guess.

These few days are quite bad.

It's so easy to take whatever I was thinking of / toxic thoughts and apply it to my whole life.

So I just want to spend some time after waking up, to ask myself how am I feeling?

Honestly, it is such a difficult question.

Because I don't exactly know how I am feeling.

Maybe let's start simple.

I'm not feeling great, I'm feeling worse than the norm.

I was shocked yesterday when my producer texted me to ask me how I was feeling.

It's as if she knew what was going through my mind.

She even added 'mental health' in that short text.

So I was grateful.

My life right now is just filled with uncertainty?

Uncertainty for my head.

It comes and goes and sometimes I don't really know how to handle them.

But it's a generally low buzz recently, and I lack motivation to do anything.

I feel like I'm not giving my best for all the work that I'm doing.

And it just makes me feel worse about myself.

But then again, I've been skipping coffee for these few days.

Maybe partly is due to that too.

Let's breathe, and get back to work.