Fucking bad day

I don't even know where to start.
Today sucked so bad.
The dark clouds kept hovering over my head.
Not giving me a chance to breathe.
I'm tired, I just want to close my eyes and let all these thoughts disappear.
But whenever I close my eyes, the thoughts came roaring, even louder.
I don't like my mind today.
I woke up feeling the pain in my stomach, and the mind was just going everywhere.
It's like the background noise of a TV or a radio.
It's just always there no matter how much I try to switch my mind off.
It's dark, and I don't want to live.
I can't see reality through the pair of eyes.
It's not even a feeling of pain.
It's a sudden urge to just disappear and not be where I am.
I don't know it's fucking scary.
'Weak minded'
I guess you're right.
My mind is weak, I am the most useless human right now.
I feel as if all my failures and wrong decisions are being pinned down on me right now.
I want out.
But here I am sitting on the bustling train.
Peoole are talking about how their day went.
Talkimg about work.
It's pretty distracting but enough to silence the background noise away.
I am so damn tired.
Tired of myself.
I don't know why this sem feels like Y2S2.
Not going for lectures, crying on rooftop.
Feeling so alone even with all my friends around.
And it's been happening more often these days.
I don't know what is happening.
Crumbling of whatever that I've set out to do.
I'm not doing anything right for the past few weeks.