I guess at times

This sudden surge of dark clouds come overwhelming you.
These dark clouds kind of just stop you from thinking rationally.
Every rationale thought in you just get swipe away with them.
And at that moment you feel so alone.
You feel like you can't escape it.
It sucks you in so deep and reminds you that these are your thoughts.
And then you start to shiver, and you don't even realise your vision is getting blurry.
Everything just seem to not make sense.
But it reminds you that it's making the most sense.
It reminds you that the false are the truths.
It hits you so bad that you feel like no one in this world understands you.
It hits you and tells you that you're useless.
You aren't capable of doing anything right.
And you're just sorry for having all these thoughts.
You can't explain to people because you can't explain it to yourself too.
This form of emotion is so complex that it feels so real and it questions your identity every moment.
And when the dark cloud passes, you tell yourself that you're fine and that we are just waiting for the next cloud to come.
And what they have to offer you is nothing but to pull you down from everything that you've done.
You feel worthless but you feel that it's just your thoughts brewing.
You start to cry because your thoughts tell you to.
And as much as you try to counter argue with your thoughts, they seem to have an answer for everything.
And for a moment,
Nothing seemed to make sense and your soul leaves your body.
Searching for the peace before it comes back.
It's like a ghost.
Patience.

*edit*
Drunk post lol