Monday, December 26, 2016
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Rainy fishes
Decided to go fish myself.
So bathed and took all my gears and then headed to eat lunch opposite my house.
Then took a selfie and sent to cyue and asked what he's doing.
So the conversation went like this,
[10:58 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: What you doing today
[11:17 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Nothing really
[11:17 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: HAHAHA
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Les go
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: LOL
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Where
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: And who
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: I gg changi
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Myself
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Wtf
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: LOL
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Haahahaha
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Wake up suddenly
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Feel for fishing
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: BJT ah
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Nono
[11:19 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Changi
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Changi
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Boarf
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Shag
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: HAHAHHA
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Boardwalk
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Until what time
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: HAAHHA
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Dk
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Dinner time
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: I still damn long to go there tho
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: Probably 1
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Then you dinner w who
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: No one for now
[11:20 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: If have also dinner with xx lo
[11:21 AM, 12/24/2016] Chin Yue: Okay lemme bathe and eat hahahaha
[11:21 AM, 12/24/2016] +65 9712 1300: LOL serious ah
I liked how he's so spontaneous about everything but I feel bad about not being spontaneous sometimes.
I'm really glad that he's just always there for me.
Even if it's mushy to say it as a guy friend.
Guess I'll dedicate a longgggggggg post for you on new year's post hahaha.
But anyways, today's fishing was amazing.
Not cause fishing but rain.
The rain was so freaking heavy.
And it just makes you feel like a kid again to be staying under the rain.
It was a complete drenched like all the way through.
Whole shirt wet, whole pants wet, whole underwear wet.
And we're just running around trying to put bait.
Shivering in the cold.
Screaming from the lightning.
Feeling the hard rain and wind splatter on your skin.
To a point when it starts to hurt.
It's just, very nice to not be an adult at that point of time.
It was kind of refreshing to be out in the rain.
With Chin Yue it just reminds me of all the ODAC times we have.
Northen Island Kayaking and rain.
Cold on the outside but warm on the inside because everyone's just happy to be out in the rain.
I really miss the feeling.
It really let me feel like a teenager again with no worries in my mind.
Just feel the world and see the world as it is without this side of my head judging everyone I'm meeting as I grow up.
I guess growing up has its pros and cons.
But it was really nice and exciting if I were to say it.
To be out in the rain.
For like 4 hours straight? LOL.
Thanks for fishing with me and being so spontaneous.
Really really really appreciated it.
And sorry for making you come all the way here and then never catch any fish then make you travel back yourself.
SORRYYYYYYY.
Yeah so after that went to drink with xx yy zw and edmond.
It was kinda fun to play truth or dare.
Hahahah.
And yeahhhhh maybe talked a little bit too much.
Drink with cyue better.
Can say anything.
Everything LOL.
Okay maybe it's just in a group context
~
Okay going to sleep soon.
OMG HOW LONG HAVE I NOT BLOGGED LIKE THIS.
HAHAHAHA.
Must be the rain.
Till the next post like this.
Good night!
Smelling like a fish tonight when I go to sleep.
Thursday, December 22, 2016
Nobody cares
I guess that thoughts go through everybody's mind all the time but actually if we think about it you'll realise that people do care.
But maybe sometimes we don't show it.
Those words hit me so hard too.
It really seems like nobody cares at all.
But I guess it's all fine as long as you are caring for yourself.
Sometimes it do feels like just you against the world.
But it's temporary.
And I have to remind myself on that.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
I guess at times
This sudden surge of dark clouds come overwhelming you.
These dark clouds kind of just stop you from thinking rationally.
Every rationale thought in you just get swipe away with them.
And at that moment you feel so alone.
You feel like you can't escape it.
It sucks you in so deep and reminds you that these are your thoughts.
And then you start to shiver, and you don't even realise your vision is getting blurry.
Everything just seem to not make sense.
But it reminds you that it's making the most sense.
It reminds you that the false are the truths.
It hits you so bad that you feel like no one in this world understands you.
It hits you and tells you that you're useless.
You aren't capable of doing anything right.
And you're just sorry for having all these thoughts.
You can't explain to people because you can't explain it to yourself too.
This form of emotion is so complex that it feels so real and it questions your identity every moment.
And when the dark cloud passes, you tell yourself that you're fine and that we are just waiting for the next cloud to come.
And what they have to offer you is nothing but to pull you down from everything that you've done.
You feel worthless but you feel that it's just your thoughts brewing.
You start to cry because your thoughts tell you to.
And as much as you try to counter argue with your thoughts, they seem to have an answer for everything.
And for a moment,
Nothing seemed to make sense and your soul leaves your body.
Searching for the peace before it comes back.
It's like a ghost.
Patience.
*edit*
Drunk post lol
Friday, December 16, 2016
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Friday, December 9, 2016
Just reminded a line I learnt in Army
It doesn't just have one meaning now.
Two extremes on the spectrum.