走一天

算一天

It's like when you wake up

And you ask yourself.
How are you?
Two replies.

I have nothing to begin with

But now I have emotions.
I see the hurt of pain.
But now I see the joy of happiness.

It's something.

I'm thinking

Thanks for being around again.
Sorry for you to feel you aren't supposed to be around.
As hard as I tried, I can only be concerned but never truly understand.
Sorry that you've to be with yourself.
Thanks for opening up to a seemingly small request but it probably means a lot for you and I .
I want you to keep trying, yet I don't want you to feel like this.
But if I don't make you try, I'm not rational as a human.
It seems like there's no solution to coming out of this cycle.
The saving and then the rejection.
But I guess I'm just going to try for as long as I can.
If it makes a difference then it will.
If it doesn't I'm glad I did.
So bear with me.
For as long as you can.
I'll be here.
For as long as I can.

"The only whole heart

is a broken heart"

It's nobody's fault

But instead the reactions from the external world and the internal world.
And I guess it brings us back to this thing called the 'perceived reality'.

I am back

My phone is back

Knowing all the pain

but does it ever add up to become rationale?

In my shoes

Just to see
What it's like
To be me
I'll be you
Let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain
You feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see
What we'd find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

Sometimes

When there's nothing im my thoughts, I wonder to keep it this way or to dig into it. Then I realise I should keep it in because the physical life doesn't have time for me to let my thoughts run wild. But sometimes it explodes. So uncontrollably that it hurts but feels good at the same time. And after that just feels like you don't have the ability to think or the ability to feel pain again. But it's temporal and it is a cycle.

Listening to na xie nian

And suddenly thought of you.
I guess my dreams of you have always been the you I used to know.
And I don't think I'd know how to talk to you if we ever cross path again.
Looking at your photos just makes me feel weird at how much I think you've changed.
But then again who am I to judge because everyone changes as they grow and interact with the world.
I don't know.
Sometimes I still do feel like meeting up with you.
And see how are we.

'But you can touch everything

and be connected to nothing.'

Hahaha

I guess I was kinda right.
When I stopped blogging about stuffs, no one tries anymore.
Hmmm.

For your reference
http://chao-dar.blogspot.sg/2016/08/distorted-reality.html

When I'm sick,

The mind doesn't have the ability to think so much.
It's not even me trying to not think.
I guess it's more of me trying to think but my brain just say "Not today bro."
Kind of weird feeling though.
But whenever I'm sick, dreams become more vivid.
Kind of interesting.
Sudden feel of getting back to lucid dream.
But thennnnnnnnnnnn.
Sleeping hours are already a problem haha.
But yeah back to the topic of being sick.
It's just damn weird to not think of anything.
Not saying it's good or bad.
And like what I told her, it's like a venn diagram with half of it being thoughts you normally think of and the other half is plain bullshit.
Like totally no link with the other half.
Was reading Wei Lun's tumblr during GET lecture.
Went to his post when he was tripping.
Suddenly miss being trippy hahahaha.
Oh, but I have one that I can always use I guess.
Okay this brain is really quite fried already.
Hahahaha.
Tired from training.
Tomorrow still need rush assignment early in the morning.
Wewwwwwwwwww.
But hopefully can go buy new shoes after school.
HIANGLE
No more blue feet~

Maybe you weren't meant to be a friend