One last paper and some thoughts

Finished two papers yesterday and the day before yesterday.
First paper was okay but I think the second paper quite good.
Hahahaha.
So last paper on 3rd may which is next Tuesday.
There's just so many thoughts in my mind that I need to spill it out.
This exam thing had sucked so much away from me.
But hopefully when results are out, the hard work will pay off.
This sem definitely feels better than previous sem.
Be it because I don't climb this sem, or because last sem was still trying to adjust to uni life after NS.
But yeah, feel better than previous sem.

And there's just this thing that has been on my mind.
There's too much familiarity in this.
Familiarity but little similarity.
I don't know what I am feeling.
Or what is going on.
But all I know that this feels too familiar and it's kind of scary.
And I have no confidence to do anything more than just this.
Afraid it'll just be another temporal thought.
I know I miss this kind of feeling.
And I also know that I shouldn't be placing too much brain into the heart.
But I highly doubt anything will happen.
It's probably just temporary.
It doesn't really make me think back but it's just there.
Something is there.
And I am kind of lost because of the exam stress adding up.
And probably it's the exam stress that all these thoughts are happening.
I really do miss that feeling.
But I do not want to let this get the better of me.
I feel like a predator now.
Without a functioning brain.
Think. Think. Think.
Don't just let your heart sway.
Hold it down.
But deep down inside I know it's hard.