Orchard Tower #2

Went out with Chin Yue again.
Realised we really have a lot in common.
Example would be the introvert self becoming extrovert.
How all the inner thoughts become verbal.
I like it even though I know it's bad.
Oh well, school is going to start soon.
I need to let my inner thoughts become verbal.
Really thank Chin Yue for everything tonight.
Thanks for even coming.
And sitting there and listening to me talking about all the shit.
And bam, we will all forget tomorrow.
But relationship still increases.
+1
:D
Thanks again.
<3 p="">

Lost

It's the perfect word to describe what I'm feeling now.
Now as in not now "now".
But generally this period of time.
I guess I need to wait for school to reopen to get back my senses and directions.
Or will it not?

But still

Maybe tonight I'll call ya,

After my blood turns into alcohol.

Grace Yion

Unforgettable night.
Hahahaha.
Both seh like fuck.
Hope you're okay.
Thanks for the night!
REST WELL!

INFP

Just did a personality test.
And I'm an INFP.
Can't really remember what I was back in JC.
But I am an INFP as of July 2015.

If you really want to understand me, you can read this post.
Not entirely correct, but most are true to me.

https://www.personalitypage.com/INFP.html

But I guess those who are reading this are actually already my close friends.
So you guys probably understand me already.
Hahaha.
Nevertheless, have a good read. :)

Lost my bag

And omg.
While I was deep in thoughts reading my blog on the train.
I left my bag under the seat in a hurry.
Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
My climbing shoes.
Hopefully can get back.
:/

Friends

Was reading through my past posts.

Past as in like 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014.

You get the point.

And I realised how much things have changed in 5 years.

I felt I didn't change much but hell yes I did.

Problems I'm facing now and problems I was facing back then was similiar yet different.

And I've realised I haven't caught up with a lot of friends.

And I didn't felt the need to.

Because I realised that most friends come and go.

It's not that we are on bad terms now or what.

It's just that all of us have moved on.

And I can bravely say that I have made an impact on someone's way of living here and there.

Because when I read back on my posts, there were a lot of people that I haven't met up with for years.

But they are the people who have moulded me to who I am today.

Good and bad ways.

And it's a good feeling.

As we grow older and mature even more, you will make more friends.

And your connections grow.

But don't ever forget those friends that have brought you up to who you are today.

People often forget about them and move on.

Moved on for more funny, more charismatic and more famous friends.

Friends who make your day.

Friends who make you laugh.

What about those friends back in Secondary School / JC that have pulled you up in your lowest times?

Have you contacted them recently?

Think about it.

Because I haven't.

And I'm feeling guilty for it.

Because I have moved on for more funny, more charismatic and more famous friends.

In other words, that makes me a bastard.

And I hate myself for it.

And because of this, I'll try hard (fuck try hard), I WILL meet my old friends.

And I would like to conclude this post saying that I'm really glad I took up blogging.

My English tuition teacher I had for O levels mentioned something about writing.

Though I can't remember his name (maybe Chin Yue remembers? Haha), but I remember him saying "Writing a journal is good because who would remember exactly what you did 5 years ago on this very day."

So true, so wise.

CONTINUE BLOGGING.

SO I CAN REFLECT ON HOW I GREW AS A PERSON.

Thanks for reading.

To be continued. 

Why

Same dream again.
Sigh.

Wew

Reflections and deep thoughts are back.
Guess it's a good thing because I remember blogging about how we should reflect on our lives whenever we can.
Main thoughts now probably university and how I'll be coping with it.
And a little bit of everything too.
I guess you can say I found myself back.
The old self.
And also climbing.
Really wanna get back the old burning passion for it.
Takes time but I am starting to feel it.
Been away from civilian life for quite some time.
Lost is the word.
Time is an adjective.

Midnight Cab

GUYS CAB IS $33.
SPLIT PROPERLY.
Hahaha.
Anyway cab home from prawning was rather interesting.
The cab auntie like to speed.
And somehow the music that were playing were those that I liked.
So somehow enjoyed the ride back home.
Auntie was speeding at 130 while talking.
Ever speed at 190 before.
LOL.
Oh well.
Anyway Wilfred if you are reading this we need to go drink soon.
I like how you always prompt me questions that I feel like answering.
More questions PLEASE.
Probably no one reads this blog anymore.
EXCEPT A FEW OF YOU.
Probably my good friends.
Hahahaha.
IF NOT GOOD FRIEND / WAS A GOOD FRIEND, please jio me out.
I probably miss you.
Hahaha.
And ya, 2 more weeks to start school.
Very interesting.
Wonder what life I'll be going through the next 5 years.

So many deep thoughts in my heart.
Won't help by keeping them inside.
Need to dig it out one day.
Or have someone to dig it out for me.
Hahaha.
Sounds disgusting.
Okay sleep.
It's 4am

97/14 commission

Today is the commissioning of the 97/14 occ .
Was glad I made it back to ocs.
All the nostalgia is still strong.
All the roads just reminds me of the times where we ran, route march, march to places.
Going back today reminds me of all the tough and silly times back in ocs.
When I met up with the rest of the echo guys, somehow we know how we are feeling.
It was a great feeling to be able to stand on the safti parade square again even after we've all ORD and move on with our lives.
And true enough, the statement of "You never stop being an officer" still holds in our heart.
Things I've taken away from wearing green will stick with me for a long time / lifetime.
When I see girls in SAFTI I'm like thinking you girls know shit about army HAHAHA .
Abit bad but I guess it's true.
Girls will never understand what guys been through in Army.
The pain of not having your loved ones with you.
But the joy of having all these men with the same pain together.
Oh well.
Anyway congrats to Wai Heng again on commissioning.
So proud to see you in your number one.
Too many friends around you so didn't get to talk to you.
Hahaha we should catch up soon.
Drop me a text if you read this anytime soon.

Okay so just left SAFTI.
Time for prawning again?
Fuck money.
HAHAHAHA
BYE.

Cuscaden Patio

Fucked up night.
Awesome night.
I made it out alive HAHAHA.
Thanks for the night Tubby, Wei Lun, Chin Yue and Ping Teck.
(Y)

:/

Still awed by how everyone is using their phone every where they go. Anyway Im also using my phone to type this hahaha . Going to climb!! On a side note, quite excited for school to start. Wonder what kind of people I'll meet or what friends I'll make. Hmmm.

Anyway had a fun day out to the deep sea exhibition ytd. All the creatures looked scary as fuck. Like dota heros hahah. Then went to prawn again. Met pt and rf. Rf for the first time hahah. Yabee prawning quite exciting. The float always goes down but its so hard to hook the yabee up. Yabee competition in August with chin yue ?!?!? LOL. Okay shall put away my phone and enjoy my ride. Byeeeee

Not being emotional here

But sometimes, when I am crossing roads, I will imagine BAM, if a car runs me over, what are the things that I would have wanted to do or say?

Anyway now I can blog from my phone so yay for more posts ?

Test

คิดถึง

Morning thoughts

Not really morning.
But it's 12:28PM right now.
Woke up with a dream.
Similar dream that has been going on since 6 years ago.
Don't know how to feel about this.
Always wake up feeling lost.
Anyway, also woke up from a message from my student.

What happened yesterday was I went to my tuition kid's house.
Thinking that he might still be asleep so I'll wake him up to study.
(Happened before once, my lessons always on Sunday)
It's 4pm by the way.
End up he wasn't even at home.
I wasn't angry at the fact that he wasn't at home.
But the fact that he's arguing with me that I've only texted him 2 hours before the lesson.
Dude, get your fucking facts right.
I've already told you whether you want two lessons on this week you said okay.
And somemore before I leave I asked whether Sunday lesson okay.
You said okay.
Knn then not at home still want say I text you two hours before the lesson you don't know.
Fuck you and your fuck face.
Always go out go until so late.
Think about your future.

AND BAM.
And now I'm thinking of my career path.
Am I fit to be a teacher?
I really don't think so.
Then wtf am I going to do?

Whatever.
Fuck my life.

Orchard Tower?!?!

Great night out with Chin Yue.
Hahahaha.
Spilling all our problems out with a few drinks.
Feel so much better now.
Hope you feel so too.
Was really a fun night.
Didn't thought Singapore can be so fun too.
^^
Hopefully more drinking nights with Chin Yue.
Not on THURSDAYS though.
HAHAHA.
Good night.
Let's dota.

Phuket 2015

This overseas trip is probably one of the most experiential trip I've ever have.
Trip?
Trip.
Trippy.

JUST KIDDING.

And so the blogging begins, don't mind my lup sup English.

Most of the times we go to other country as tourists.
But since I've learnt some Thai, and I really like the Thai culture, I decided to go to Phuket with a slightly less tourist mindset this time round.
And the outcome was amazing.
I feel the warmth in every single person.
Most not leading an easy life but at least no one seems to be lifeless.

Remember I used to talk about how the people in MRT are always so dead?
Everyone's just using their phone / sleeping.
I feel that it is actually annoying for me to see the same situation every day when I go to work at Suntec in the morning sometimes.
And I don't think this will ever change as technology keeps on improving over the years.
Everyone will just be glued to their phone everywhere all the time.

I know I'm not in the right to criticise about this because I myself is guilty for all the above mentioned.
But going to Phuket this time round kind of opened my mind.
As if I found myself (kind of loss in this holiday period)
The best part of the trip would probably be times when I'm totally alone.
That feeling is so awesome.
And I won't even be touching my phone too because I didn't get a sim card.
So walking along the streets, scootering down the roads, as I blend into the thai lifestyle, all I feel in my heart is peace.
Away from all the problems in Singapore.
It felt so ...
How do I put it?
I don't know.
It's just that warmth in my heart.

Made a few local friends over there.
Two tour agents, one bar boss and a few bar girls.
The first tour agent Pete was probably the friendliest dude in the whole of Patong.
I like how he's so humble and polite when talking to people.
Even though he's so much older than me.
Yes..... I know he's a tour agent and I'm a tourist.
Definitely, the way he speaks to me would be more friendly.
But still, he's a funny man and I like how he's enjoying his job.
Everytime we walk past him he will be waving to us and smiling so wide.
LEGIT SMILE.
We probably won't smile so happily from our heart to some strangers you met a few hours ago.
So we went to Phi phi island with him helping us and then he wasn't there anymore the next day.
So the next day was his friend.
Bee.
I call her P, Bee.
Hahaha.
Step one local.
It's actually just a friendly way to call someone older than you in Thailand (if I'm not wrong hahah)
Like a sister.
Sister Bee.

So she was like a sister to me.
When I went to book the James Bond Island trip alone, kind of talked to her about her life and Thai people in general.
Not going to talk much about our topic, but she mentioned that she really like tourists who can speak Thai.
Even if it's a little bit.
Like she feels that I'm hardworking and smart.
Hardworking from the impression that I'm learning a third language.
Smart just because I wear glasses.
Hahahaa.
Then she told me Thai people believe that people who wear spectacles are smart.
SO I'M SMART.
The thing I liked about that short conversation was how she was so geniuine when talking to me.
She made me feel as if I'm not a tourist there.
An example would probably be like how she was talking to me about her daughter.
Like how her daughter is going to study in the university too.
Then tells me about their lifestyle here.
All this time her daughter was listening also.
LOL a bit awkward.
Her daughter is probably like 16/17.
Yup, so was really appreciative of that.

And next I would talk about a bar named Black Rose Bar.
Hahahaha.
Went there 4/6 nights?
Made friends with the boss.
I enjoyed myself there, I don't know about the rest.
Hahahaha.
Drink with the boss as if I'm part of a shareholder of what HAHA.
But he was kind enough to let me know private stuffs like rent costs, how much the shop earns everyday.
He says that it's not an easy job, but he and her wife enjoys working there.
Generally, I would like to say I've never enjoyed drinking so much before.
Like I don't like to drink when I'm in Singapore.
But it feels a little different at that point of time.
Like really just chill there and talk.
I think probably the language barrier made things more interesting hahaha.
Drink and forget about problems.
Wake up next morning feel like fuck.
I guess this is why I suddenly jio you Chin Yue.
HAHAHA I know you reading this Amen.

Anyway this holiday is ending~
So many thoughts in my mind now.
Reality really hit hard today.
But I guess it's just post overseas feelings.
And also 3 hours of sleep.
Hahahaha.
Backed for 5 hours already.
Suddenly a lot of things going through my mind.
I need to rant it out.

All the usage of phone's technology to settle things and using computer wasting time seeing facebook instagram youtube stalk girls buzzfeed touch here touch there swipe here swipe there click here click there talk to people you probably wont meet just talk fake friends fucked up friends gey siao people why is life so complicated or is is just me acting like a kid that don't know what I for my future yeah stop ranting like a kid wake up not kid anymore 21 why I need to go uni why I need to study so that I have a happy future it just doesn't makes sense I want to live a simple life as long as I'm happy I'm fine but some girls are just pratical not talking about you dont worry I really don't like how this society is running I don't want to stay in Singapore but I no money so how to get money I need to go uni study finish uni go working after working got money got money then forget the happy then continue working so this cycle repeats I'm stuck can someone save me hahahaha okay end of rant thanks for reading.

Wew.

Been so long since I felt so good after blogging.

Byeeeeeee

Don't need to keep comments in your mind.

Can just whatsapp me.

I'm a click away.

And yup technology again.

FUACK.

SAF DAY / PRE PHUKET

SAF DAY IS TODAY.
Or rather 2 hours ago.
Can't believe I have actually finished my 2 years journey of NS and ORD-ed almost 4 months ago.
Was looking at all the SAF day posts on instagram and my brain took me on a journey through BMT all the way to ORD.
It was an amazing journey.

All I could say is that I had an amazing journey.
With amazing people taking care of me throughout this journey.
Learn things that I can apply in life.
Became a more responsible soldier, a more responsible man.
As I walked back into 3 Guards tonight, I felt a sense of belonging.
It's like back home again after not booking in for 4 months.
And I'm so glad I actually decided to come back.
Haven't been back in camp since 8 March 2015.
Stepping back today just reminded me of all the NSF / Regulars that are protecting the country for us.
While everyone is enjoying their weekends, people are guarding the air, land and sea 24/7.
While you're sleeping soundly on your bed, some are probably doing route march, training for missions.
While you're enjoying your cup of coffee on a rainy day, some are enduring the rain out in the field, missing that warmth at home.
Not trying to be patriotic over here but as I think back on my days in outfields suffering, I'm definitely thinking of all the civilians being safe and sound and that includes my family and friends.
And I feel honoured to be doing that.

#signonfeelingstronk
#finishstudynojobthenthink

Hahahaha.
Anyway, congratulations to my PS for his promotion to Staff.
SO PROUD OF YOU.
I HAVE A PS WHO WEARS A STAFF SERGEANT RANK.
Hahhaha.
Saw a lot of faces back in camp.
Feels so surreal yet familiar when they still call me sir.
Really glad to have went back and spend time talking to them.
Really nice catching up.
Will come back again when the whole platoon is in camp hahaha.

Anyway it's PHUKET tomorrow.
Excited.
I'm going to sleep now.
Going to wake up in 2 hours 57 minutes time.
Just stressing that 57 minutes to stress that it's less than 3 hours.
AMEN.
Good night guys.
Sweet dreams.
Don't forget that somewhere out there in the field right now, there's someone using a night vision to defend his land, our land.

#SIGNONSUA