1 Month after ORD

It has been a month since I ORD.

The life I'm living now is not saying the most awesome one.

I'm definitely wasting my time I know.

But oh well, my body and mind just tells me to waste more time.

It's going to be so soon that I'm turning 21.

It's quite a weird feeling.

I've been in this world for 21 years.

When you put into perspective that you've only celebrated your birthday 21 times.

That's not a lot.

I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I  I

This is the number of "I"s I will write for every birthday cake blown.

Not so many yeah?

But it has come to the point of time in life where I'm starting to worry about my future.

The dreamed future that I wanted 5 years ago is slowly getting blurry.

But blur as it may seem, it's there, I know it.

The fog between my dream and reality now is the society.

I feel the societal norms eating into me as I age.

I need to study, 

I need to work.

I need to catch up with my friends.

I need to start thinking about my future.

Where's the time for my own passion?
Where's the perfect life that every one is fighting for?

Why is everyone stuck up with all the societal norms.

Living life like it's all planned out for you.

Why is the money factor kicking into all my friends.

I know money is important.

But...

I don't know.

I really don't know what I'm thinking of these few days.

Just some random thoughts that I'm having.

Gah

Interesting.