Waaaaa

So damn long since I last blogged.
Hi guys, I'm back from Centipede.
A 10D9N exercise.
Wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be.
But the tough thing is that it was 10 days.
Didn't had enough sleep throughout the whole exercise.
1/3 alerts and sentries.
On average I slept 4 hours a night?
It was damn tiring I swear.
And one of the nights it rained.
Auto wake up and it was so freaking cold.
But still fell asleep in the cold.
Cause was too tired.
The whole exercise was tiring.
The instructors told us to think about the reason why we wanted to be here.
At times we will feel so tired but what is the reason for me to be there.
So I kept thinking, haven't really found that reason yet.
But it's something along the line of becoming a better person.
So I asked myself, throughout the 8/9 weeks I've been in OCS, have I became a better person?
Definitely I cannot judge this by myself but I feel I've become mentally stronger throughout this exercise.
I can handle stress alot better now and I'm not afraid of failing.
In other words, I'm more able to stand up after I fail now.
Instead of whining and complaining, I've learnt to overcome my own thoughts and pull through.
Not showing off but I carried one of the heaviest (or maybe heaviest) field pack throughout this outfield.
And there are people with very light field pack complaining about how heavy their field pack is.
It sucks to see that there are people like this in OCS.
But well, everyone has their own limits.
Once that limit is reached, everyone's true colour comes out.
I never knew I would reach this limit.
I know I'm mentally strong.
But this exercise has pushed my limits even more.
When I reached my limits during the 7th or 8th day, I was man moding all the way.
I was damn pissed off at many things.
Hardly I get pissed off.
But I managed to overcome myself and kept my morale high and ended centipede in a high note.
Quite proud of myself and my performance.
Hopefully I'll stay strong for Scorpion King, the upcoming outfield.
For now, I deserve my break.
Just met my BMT section mates hours ago.
Miss them man.
Hahahaha.
Miss all the stupid times we had in bunk.
Shall go dota now!
Byeeeeeeeee