Reflections finally

Finally I'm thinking again.
Gaming has really taken my thoughts about life for a long long time.
Was watching BoA's biography on the internet.
And I thought about my own life.
She went to Japan at the age of 14 herself.
The feeling of being alone.
I'll definitely not understand how it really feels but I kinda feel it.
It's just like, there's only one person that you can trust fully, and that's yourself.
But sometimes, your inner self cannot contain all the things that are happening around your outer self.
And that's when things start to happen, emotions start bursting, things get ugly.
And that's also when you learn how to become a stronger person.
Maybe I'm too used to being with friends.
I need to let find back my inner self.
Maybe that's why I haven't been climbing with that focus that I had last time.
There was so much pressure on myself in the past.
Now it's just like, if you can't do it, then just give up.
Giving up too easily on things.
I must change.
I need to be strong again.
Both physically, and mentally.