Reflections

Reflections are probably the best thing to do.

It serves as a checkpoint in life.

Have you achieved this?

Have you achieved that?

It also serves as a "homeostasis".

It brings you back to normal when you are extremely happy or extremely sad.

It's also serves a purpose like a teacher.

A lesson learnt.

Reflect from the past, learn from it.

Reflect from mistakes, learn from it.

No matter how much I rant about life being like this, it won't change.

I have to do something about it.

But sometimes, I get tired of chasing.

Chasing the dream.

It's just so tiring, to see that everything is just fake.

There's no relationship at all.

How much do I stand?
I don't want to be in this state, but what can I do?

15 months later, I will be serving the National Service.

Will I be a changed person?

I really don't know.

Will my heart stay the same?

Will my passion be the same?

Will my dreams in life be the same?

I guess these 3 things are the most important thing in my life.

I really worry about the coming few years in my life.

Mr Din assured me that I will know what I want when I come out from NS.

I really hope so man.

What I wish every 11:11, is that my efforts won't go to waste.

But I guess, I am still so insignificant in your life.

Like you want me then you take me.

I don't really want to talk to you sometimes.

It's because I'm scared that you think I'm irritating or something.

Or rather, I always wanted to talk to you.

Even if it's just a short text I will be satisfied enough.

But I really don't know what we can talk about.

AHHHHHHHH asdfdsa
I really think I will go crazy one day in my 2 years in JC.

Everything's damn weird.

Or maybe, it's just me that's weird.