And

It occurred to me that I am much more forgivable to myself at this state.

I have a lot of work I haven't do.

That's not wrong.

I high texted someone, feels like fuck but that ain't wrong too.

I just feel a lot at that point in time and she was the first person that popped in my head.

I feel like when I wake up I'm going to be harsh on myself all over again. 

But I really felt that life should be lived fiercely like that.

For the appreciation of medium that makes life, life.

Music, film and art.

Isn't that how life should be lived?

High af

But my takeaway is that I need to make a music video

Yup

 I typed all of that with half of my eyes closed. 

>.O

Fiercly passionate huh?

How do I? 

I woke up with a quote in mind

To be 'fiercely passionate about life.'

Since there's really only this one life that we are all gonna live.

It was quite a weird dream.

But I remembered dreaming of watching a TeamNUS climbing video. 

Where it was about choosing the next exco.

And it was the year that I stepped up to be the captain of the team 

The video was intense.

Filmed in a docu style and I remember it was quite nicely filmed by me, and I was in my head, hoping that Dion (who was watching with me) will find it nice.

There were the two ivans too. 

It was back to uni days, looking for my tutorial room. Was late, slightly nervous, slightly dgaf. 

Was texting hoho and asking where is low.

Found low in a empty classroom and sleeping.

He was snoring so loud. 

Took a tele bubble and send ho.

Then went to find ho.

Became a game where we were shooting monsters. 

Like l4d, there was a moment I was pretending to be dead.

Then the opponent monster came to me and whisper in my year, just surrender if not I gna crush this skull of yours.

Fk I even dreamt of destin, wilfred.

Destin was in house. He has a elder bro that recently passed away. His gaming desktop became an altar.

Which looked really nice.

Fk there was kenny too

I was filming Destin, then I remembered wanting to add turquoise spotlight on the scene.

Fhen I walked past kenny and ask whether he saw my small pocket light.

He say AS10 ah? I put in your room already.

Then for wilfred, it was like a class.

He was the one saying 'good morning class' in a super mcm phm way.

Then I walked past him and repeated to him in a guai lan way 'good mOrNiNg cLasS'

Yeah that's about it.

But I remembered being quite inspired by my own video about me becoming a captain .

Still remembered tearing while watching the video lol.

And idk but somehow, I felt like I went through the heavily woven time and space of friendships and phases.

And I woke up telling myself that I need to be fiercely passionate about life. 

Don't let the 'mundane' kill the 'beautiful' life has to offer.