That was really too much feels for the night...
I've never stan someone so hard in my life.
Son Chae Young, you killed me tonight.
Your voice echoed and filled up my room.
And in that moment, nothing was bothering me.
No anxious, no depress.
That was indeed such a beautiful moment.
But man.... That was so much feels.
Going for the wedding was like a trip down memory lane.
It was kinda intense.
Like was honestly super anxious about socialising but I guess it ended up being really nice to see everyone again.
Thankful for Dayna to fetch me there, and also yy for having a quick 5 min catch up.
Great to see Andy again, limzw, ferran.
So many people like arghh...
Some more it was the period (just woke up) when I'm most depressed or rather critical about my thoughts.
Downed some whisky and look who's there...
Damn...
All the memories came rushing back.
So much so much feels...
It's like so many hours passed the wedding but wew,
still thinking about it.
Read back on the old chats.
Didn't know 'ttyl' was 3/4 years later.
What a weird post with so much spacing.
Hardly type like that.
Well I guess it also means today was a pretty intense day lol.
Just needed a space to get this out.
But seriously... wah really.
I swear it's a cycle.
The more I watch them, the more amazing they are.
And then after getting to know them more and more, their characters etc,
Then re-watching older videos, and associating the new found character into them,
it just makes them even more crazy.
And then you know just cycle through and ahhh my heart.
HAHAHA
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?
Impulse bought Formula of Love album.
Or rather pre-order 1 month before launch date.
In my mind I was like, better be a real ONCE before they are gone for good.
You know, at least have an experience of the millions of people who are crazy over K-pop groups.
Used to judge, but well look where I am now...
Also just thinking about those people who are so into cosplays.
I always judge them in my mind,
but having this crazy fandom thing going on with Twice, I think my perspective is shifting.
So what's changed for me?
Well I'm still me.
I'm still a normal human being, I don't think I'm that weird.
So I guess the perspective shifted in the sense I don't judge things I used to judge.
I don't know what's the whole point of this post LOL.
Bye.
Happy bday CYUE BTW~
on the synopsis I wrote for SMHFF 2019.
My heart beats for the script as I read it all over again.
It's almost a time travel back.
And I'm glad I wrote it down as a story, because I think it captures a lot of the small things which I would have probably thrown it out of my brain.
One day, the script will come to fruition.
I don't need it to submit to any film festivals.
It's an expression.
And I think that's the important part of what I'm doing.
And also what's keeping me alive I guess.
