In a blink of an eye, yet another year has passed.
It's been quite a long time since I wrote but it's new year so I guess it's mandatory.
Well, what a weird year it has been.
I guess the most significant part of 2020 was really the outbreak of COVID-19 and the impact it has on everyone's life.
It's been 1 1/2 years since I graduated and I guess it's been 1 1/2 years of hustling with this industry.
I think not a lot of people know how difficult it is to be a freelancer.
Or rather people in my circle, since most people are working a full time job.
If I were to explain how it is like to be in my shoes, I don't even know whether I can give a right description honestly.
Simply put, I think it has its ups and downs.
On some days, I feel so happy doing the thing I love doing and still being able to survive (keyword here) financially.
On some days, I feel like the world is going to crash when it's quiet as hell. It can be so quiet that I wake up everyday thinking to myself whether this passion is all so worth the fight.
It's a constant struggle.
But nevertheless, I'd like to announce that I think I am doing alright.
Financially, I think for 2019, my average income was 1k / month.
But as of 2020 (excluding Circuit Breaker), my average income is ~ 2.5k / month.
And I wish it will only get better from here.
That's a problem right there.
"Wish".
I guess I am saying that I have no ability to change it.
Damn.
Let's change that word to, I will work to make things better. (Who am I lying?)
I felt like I have so many things to write about 2020.
It's raining now, the room is dark and the doors are closed.
It's supposed to make me feel like writing.
But why aren't the words flowing out.
It's annoying.
Maybe this isn't the best time since I just woke up and I don't feel anything.
But it is really annoying.
To not be able to do that.
Exactly like my brain right now.
I guess I'm stopping here.
Happy New Year to all you lovely humans!
